Thursday, 29 December 2011

Freaking out

On Sunday i have to wake up without the alarm not to disturb Mistress. i do my epilations and spend about an hour in the net. Mistress wakes up early and i hurry to kitchen as the breakfast is not ready. She scolds me for spending more than 45 minutes in the net. i hurry to make a quick porridge and ask Her wish for tea. i prepare tea and get the paper for Her. Mornings are always stricter timed of day D/s wise.

After breakfast it's time for O/our gym. She leaves me there to carry Lina to Her hobbies while i stay to exercise. She orders me to wait for Her to pick me up. After that i get a job to cut down a tree which is very laboursome, i sweat a lot when i'm finished and may return inside carrying some things that She ordered from our storage room. i prepare lunch, W/we eat yesterday's stuff, me even older food: nettles pasta, a Mistress's favorite from a few days ago.

i have a small meeting about community affairs, and after i return home i need to call some of the relatives about my mother's funeral that's coming up in two weeks. Next i must prepare a great dinner from duck. Then happens two things i'm ashamed of. First i go to my room to watch porn when it seems that Mistress is preoccupied with watching telly. But She comes to my room. i don't apoligize or anything. She says She would like to chat with me, but doesn't start chatting. i ask what She would like to chat about and say that She just can't ask me to chat without giving an object. She seems to become sad and goes away. Then later She tries to bite my nipple through my filmy shirt, but i freak out, and pull myself away. She doesn't bite me. i don't know what is wrong with me. Anyway i make the week's menu and get it approved by Mistress and making a shopping list for myself.

Monday, 19 December 2011

The daily slave routine

My typical daily routine on weekends when at home is currently this (described by Mistress)
-Put on a shirt, take all other clothes with you and carry them to washroom. Empty cat litter box. Pee sitting down with your ass a few inches above the seat. I know it is strenuous for the legs, but you are not supposed to be spending a lot of time in the toilet. Also every time you poop, you must be sitting "in the air". Your ass cannot touch the seat We are using. You may pee only twice a day, so stay clear of substances that make you pee a lot - coffee for one. And only one poop per day, so you must learn not to pee while you poop (well now i can).
-Pluck your balls and penis with tweeters. Epilate your crotch and trim the remaining pubic hair as a triangle. Epilate round your nipples. Trim other body hair short and shave armpits once a month. Put on cb-2000 with medium poi and medium pin, 2. largest a-pin. (Some may wonder why i am allowed to be in the bathroom unsupervised with my cb off. Well you could call me a collaborator: i only need the cb really to stop me from masturbating while i read porn, and even after long times without cumming i don't have the urge to masturbate whenever i have the chance. I have will power and Mistress knows it.)
-Then shave and do your hair. You have free time 45 minutes or until 7.45. Poi keep you from getting too excited (but allows you to get wet - Mistress likes me to learn to leak precum while flaccid)
-Make breakfast: tea and porridge with jam for Mistress, put coffee in the machine, lay the table, clean up kitchen, fetch the morning paper.
-As Mistress wakes up and comes down greet Her enthusiastically, kiss Her on the mouth if She allows it. Ask what sort of tea She wants and prepare it. When it is ready, invite Her to eat with a curtsy, put porridge on Her plate along with jam. Switch on your coffee, you may now make your own breakfast. If there is old leftover porridge, eat that.
-you must always think ahead with food, proposing menu for next days beforehand, and you are responsible for keeping the kitchen stuffed with everything, writing shopping lists for yourself.
-you make all the meals, clean up after yourself, lay the table, and clear it up afterwards. You are the garbage can, you eat the oldest leftovers. You warm them up and eat with the others. Everything must be consumed. Nothing is allowed to go to waste. Kids don't think it is odd, after a while they are used to it, and just think you are scrooge.
-when you are ready, you report to Mistress, She decides about the rest of your day. You don't have to worry about it.
-always when She gives you an order, thank Her, with a curtsy if W/we are alone.

Sunday, 18 December 2011

Lina paying attention to my subservience

For once i get home early, even through grocery store, kitchen cabinets need filling again, and bottles need returning. i take trash out first. W/we kiss a long time. Mistress orders me on the floor before Her for a talk. Lina joins us too. She need regular and mental help with her homework. Mistress tells her to get Her glasses so She can help. Lina tells me to get them, saying i always get stuff as Mom tells me to. But now Mistress tells her to get them, and she does. Instead She tells me to change my clothes and eat and i obey swiftly, which Lina surely notices.

Later i make coconut chili chicken. As i am preparing it, Mistress visits me, gropes my butt and crotch, tells me to be nice. In the evening She allows me to stay up to write some texts.

Wednesday, 14 December 2011

A hard week - for D/s

i wake up at 5.50, before the clock. i have started to narrow my triangle of pubes, the idea is to locate it higher and formed more like a T. i have a lot of net time before breakfast.

In the evening She orders me to read, She reads Her book in the bed and i reaad mine kneeling by the bed. She interrupts me and orders me to fetch the heat blanket for Her.

A full havoc at work again. Only a memory are those days i could do something sex-related aat work. i wonder if O/our D/s relation is going to wear off.

An even harder day. In the evening W/we are all exhausted, Mats wants to do a home essay into the night, drinking coffee. Lina is doing fraction calculations with the last ounce of her strength. i have to help her. i sleep on the couch in the middle of watching tv. For the first time in ages i neglect cleaning up kitchen, and Mistress does it!

Sunday, 11 December 2011

How sissy is your slave's orgasm?

With this test you get the sissiness score for the method of cumming you are planning for your sissy. You get one point for each b-fact that is true in your sissy’s case. The more b-points, the sissier the orgasm. There is probably no way to get the maximum score of 17, but how many points could be reached in practise? Please post your high scores along with details of the method in question. Also if you think of new ways to characterize sissy orgasm, please comment and i'll improve the test.

1A)Man decides himself the time of having sex.
1b) sissy does not decide the time it has sex. it is just obeying orders.

2A) The last time Man has had an orgasm is during the last week
2b) sissy has not been allowed a ruined orgasm in a month nor a full orgasm in a year

3A) Man has a female partner to have sex with
3b) sissy has no partner or a male partner to have sex with

4A) Man is naked or has some male clothes on while having sex
4b) sissy is dressed in female lingerie, a tight corset and high heeled female shoes while having sex

5A) Man is moving his hips while fucking or getting a blowjob
5b) sissy is not moving its hips nor its sissy clit while having sex

6A) Man sees an attractive halfnaked female as He is fucking her
6b) sissy is itself the halfnaked female figure, it does not see a female figure while having sex

7A) Man's penis is doing pumping movement to get excited
7b) sissy's penis is not getting any stimulation along the shaft only sideways or pokes or electricity

8A) Man is stuffing the pussy or mouth of His partner while having sex
8b) sissy's own pussy and mouth are stuffed with dildos/butt plugs/penises but its sissy clit is not stuffing anything, ever.

9A) Man is free to move during sex
9b) sissy is tied up and cannot move at all during sex
(half a point if sissy can move only his worse hand to masturbate)

10A) Man is comfortable while having sex
10b) sissy is not comfortable while having sex, he is in pain (clamps, whip, electric shocks...)

11A) Man's penis is pointing naturally forward while He has sex
11b) sissy's penis is pointing awkwardly back between its legs while it has sex

12A) Man's penis is erect while He has sex
12b) sissy clit is in a cage with no space to get erect while it has sex

13A) Man has as much time as He wants for sex
13b) sissy has limited time to get to the point of no return

14A) Man reaches climax as He wishes
14b) sissy must stay at the edge until getting an order to cum

15A) Man climaxes because of stimulation to His cock
15b) sissy climaxes because of stimulation to its ass / nipples and mouth with no touching of sissy clit

16A) Man continues to fuck throughout His climax
16b) sissy clit gets no stimulation during its climax - not whatsoever

17A) Man does not consume His semen
17b) sissy consumes all his cum, according to its Superiors orders

Saturday, 10 December 2011

‘It must be obvious you are not allowed to cum'

i wake up before 7 even without alarm. i have time to take care of epilation and other morning chores, then rice porridge and a quarter of net time. Mistress wakes up, W/we hug, i fetch the paper, She reads it, i sit by Her peeking. Then She orders me to prepare gym bags. There are only a few men at the gym as Skiing World Championships is on TV at the same time.

At home i start preparing tortilla espanola for lunch - it is eaten altogether. Cleaning up the kitchen, tea and coffee. i remember to curtsey each time She orders or allows me to do something. Of course it is not for the kids to see. She is still examining her budget, wants to concentrate on it and i may use the net, update my blog and read others. i note a “funny” story about a predicament bondage: a rope from balls to a spreader bar making the slave stand knees bent, and another rope from nipple clamps to a ceiling hook so that if the slave straightens his legs, he pulls on his balls and if he tries to squat, he pulls on his nipples.

Mats gets Mistress play with him some Wii games, a couple of hours is spent with that. i prepare Her a roll and chicken-veggie-pot for dinner and lamb with potatoes for the rest. In the evening i have some more net time as playing Wii continues.

In the evening it’s time for a surprise. i read a mag in the bed waiting for Mistress. She wants me watch, then Mats arrives, they go to his room. i remove the chastity belt and keep on reading on my knees by the bed. She returns, locks the door and orders me to masturbate for 2 minutes. my sissy clit fels so large… W/we look in each others eyes. She says ‘It must be obvious you are not allowed to cum’. Then She says ’10 seconds left’. i accelerate a bit, and stop a few seconds short as i feel close to cumming. It is however not a ruined orgasm. Then to sleep.

Wednesday, 7 December 2011

Drinking punishment

Mistress forbids me of using alarm clocks in the weekends, so i wake up only a little before 8. She is also awake and gives me morning kisses, i return them. i have to start preparing porridge right away because of the late wake up, no time for grooming my hair today. After cleaning up kitchen i prepare the menu for the week and a shopping list.

Mistress sends me to the garden, i must saw a branch and program the garden lights again. Mistress joins me later, and before O/our joined shopping trip i have to cut one apple tree and mend the shed door.

Mistress wants to go to a flea market where She allows me to purchase a Queen Innuendo CD for 10 crowns (cheap). W/we do the grocery shopping. i am somehow depressed because of issues at work and my mother’s death and i keep forgetting things.

At home i unpack the groceries and prepare a salmon soup, lay the table with bread and all. i take only a little of the fresh soup for starters and eat old meatballs and pasta. i clean up the kitchen after the lunch and prepare coffee. She orders me to find out about tv movies for kids, then to empty the washing machine. W/we watch Babe, then i have to warm up sauna.

In the sauna bathroom She orders me on my knees and throws a glassful of cold water on my face. ‘you have to wake up’, She says. ‘you cannot serve me asleep!’ Then She pours another glass of water into my mouth, i cannot swallow it all, the rest flow on my breast, i have to struggle to swallow as much as possible. my sissy clit gets erect. W/we are alone. Next i may join Her in the sauna and read a summary of today’s newspaper to Her. Lina joins U/us. Without Lina hearing i ask Mistress if i must do the water aerobics though the temperature of O/our pool is now only 24 degrees Celsius. She signals me to complete it anyway. i am in the middle of it as She leaves. She watches me for some time before She leaves and i get a partial erection. In the evening i prepare dinner.

In the bed She lets me show my cock cage to Her. She watches it, i get a sissy erection again. ‘Then to sleep’.

Tuesday, 6 December 2011

No sports today, a smelly job instead

In the morning She orders me to kiss Her cheek and neck before i get off the bed, then She falls asleep again.

During the day i get another small ejaculation while doing the big business in the office toilet, it was a long time since that had happened. This time i didn’t even have any warm up.

i am early at home. Girls have visited Ikea. Skiing world championships would be on tv today, but Mistress orders me out in the dark night to empty the winter compost, which is filled up. She sends me back as i have forgot the shed door open and light on.

Monday, 28 November 2011

cuckold sissy's prize - a sissy masturbation story

’you will pick Me up at 9am at My place.’ Phone call from Sir Steve was brief. He didn’t tell me where i would take Him, but my Wife made me help Her into Her bright red skirt, corset and garters, so it became quite obvious.

i got very excited, as i had been in chastity for 2 weeks and Sir’s visits - and only those - mean i may get release as well. Normally i do chores for Sir Steve at His place during the time that Sir Steve spends with my Wife. Because i’m heterosexual, my release always occurs at His place, while only Sir Steve is present.

‘Prepare a lunch box for yourself: the oldest leftovers soaked in milk. Take your bowl with you.’

i took care myself to leave early enough to be in time at His place. Sir Steve lived a semi-detached house in a nice green neighbourhood. i parked and went for the doorbell.

‘Get inside, sissy’, He hissed at the door. ‘After chauffeuring me to your place where I will spend Saturday with your wife, giving Her some divine sex She needs, you will return here, vacuum and wash ALL floors, mow the lawn, wash both my cars outside, vacuum and wash them inside. Is that clear?’
‘Yes, Sir, thank you, Sir’
He flung me His keys, and i opened Him the passenger door for a nice journey to my Wife.

A tedious day at His apartment followed. Wasn’t it enough i cooked and cleaned at O/our house? i had no free time as i had to be Her boyfriend’s maid as well. But i worked hard, my motivation was a chance to orgasm if all the tasks are completed and no flaws found.

At 12.30, my lunch time, i warmed up the plastic box and poured it into my steel dog bowl and ate my lunch in silence, thinking what my Wife, Mistress Sonja, was up to at the time. i would so like to be with Her, witnessing Her being fucked by Sir Steve, but They never let me. They don’t want me around.

i was just finishing the last chore, washing the dashboard of His SUV at 6pm as my mobile rang.
‘Get your lazy ass here sissy, it’s time for you to take daddy back home.’
During Sit Steve’s visits i was not allowed to use my own key so i rang O/our doorbell. Master Steve answered the door, but all i saw was His back as my Wife was so feverishly kissing Him goodbye. As They broke from the kiss my Wife spat out:
‘Kneel hubby, my Boyfriend is going to give you a souvenir of His visit’
i knelt just before the front door, that i had luckily closed.
‘Tilt your head up, eyes closed’
A flow of thick cum filled my mouth. It turned out to be the contents of a rubber as i was told to swallow and then lick the insides of a used condom. Luckily they didn’t make me swallow the rubber as well like they did last time.
‘Thank You, Sir Steve’ i politely addressed my Master, before i jumped to my feet as He was opening the door. The strong aroma of male cum lingered in my mouth and throat. i noticed i had become as hard as i could in the cb-2000.

Back at His place He checked everything, didn’t notice anything wrong with the SUV, though i had it partly unwashed.
‘It seems you had done a pretty good job. Get the ropes and other stuff and report at the toilet.’
Oh yes, oh yes, a chance for release! The thought was bouncing back and forth in my brain as i gathered the stuff, carefully, not to miss any item and joined Him in the toilet.

‘Undress to your corset and stockings’
i took my outer male clothes away, and my smooth white skin appeared, i was totally hairless down from my neck and the corset pushed up my small but pertinent breasts, result of mild hormone treatment. Now Sir Steve pointed at the floor. He was sitting on the toilet seat so i knelt before Him and He unlocked my chastity device.
‘Remove it. Then lie down, lips touching my right sock.’ i knew to drop on my belly and place my dick in the middle of my legs, pointing away from Sir Steve. my breasts were flat against the floor that i had today washed. Now Sir Steve took the toys, tied a rope tight around my ball sac, and as i bent my legs, He tied my balls to my ankles, making me pull on my balls if i moved my legs. He then pushed my right hand behind my back, and tied it to the back of my collar, so that any movement of my right hand would be choking me. Now He pushed the nose hook up my nose, and passed the elastic cord from it to the rope between my balls and ankles, so that i had to raise my chin and look straight ahead.
‘you know the rules. Only horizontal strokes with one finger. Any other touch to your dick and it’s over. If your dick touches your thigh, it’s over. you may start’
i reached back with my left hand, started flicking my finger over and over across the frenum. It was a bliss, i was allowed to masturbate finally! Not in a very manly fashion, but who cares. i liked being dominated, i liked it this way. i changed the place of my finger ever so slightly from frenum to penis head, but carefully always moving it sideways, no unallowed stroking along the shaft. i know, as a gurly sissy i must only masturbate like Real Girls do.
My Superiors like me to use my imagination to cum, and because of that i get no visual stimulation for sex. i see only the toilet seat and Sir Steve, regularly clothed, and His socks right before me.
All the while i pressed my hips against the tiles, as that helped to keep the dick in place. If i forget to press down with my hips, the dick would slip very easily to the side and touch my thigh. Twice has Sir Steve has stopped me short of cumming because of that.
Now Sir Steve takes a dildo gag. i open my mouth without being told to. He yanks it in, buckles it in place. my mouth is soon filled to the brim with a rubber dick. Next He goes for the inflatable vibrating butt plug. i have forgotten to grease my ass, so He just pushes it in without any lubrication . It smarts, and as He inflates the plug it hurts more. But the vibration soon starts and soothes the pain, carries me along to the pleasure dome.

Now Sir Steve opens His pants and takes out His dick!
‘Would you like to see how Real Men stroke?’ i nod ever so slightly, not to cause much harm to my balls. He starts stroking His Big Cock, long strokes along the shaft. i have to turn my eyes up to see Him play.
Now my little gurly stroking suddenly starts to have an impact. All of a sudden i am nearing the edge. i know that as i reach the edge i must plateau, keep myself so near the edge that i can cum in 2 seconds. i must keep my finger in place, if i have to remove it, it will not be allowed back. Suddenly the fierce stroking and struggling for pleasure turns into struggling to keep away from pleasure. Suddenly i have to stop all movement not to cum. Luckily i can keep my finger touching my dick so i can continue. Soon i can move it a little, in a while the momentum has passed and i can continue stroking at full speed. It is so difficult to keep on the edge, but not so near that i must take away my finger at any point.

i know that Sir Steve will notice from the slowing down of my finger that i am ready, and some time soon He will tell me to cum. Then He will count 1,2, and at 2 i will have to take away my finger and raise my ass in the air so that my dick doesn’t touch anything 2 seconds after His order. If i am lucky, He will put the vibration in my sissy pussy to full speed.

‘That’s enough if that. No cummies for you tonight’ He unties me, locks my cock cage and sends me back home to make supper for Mistress Sonja.

Sunday, 27 November 2011

Another night on the floor


Back to work, a busy day. After work i have time to quickly change clothes and eat a little and i have to get back to a meeting in the centre.

As i get back Mistress and Lina are skiing. As they return i prepare an Indian shrimp dish and rice and clean the kitchen up after supper. i watch Simpson again lying on the floor, as Mats has conquered the sofa.

Mistress is working with Her company budget and calls me every now and then to assist Her. i start reading the letter from the funeral parlour, and try asking Mistress about some details, but She answers angrily that She can’t get Her work done as someone interrupts Her all the time. Whereas She interrupts me also all the time and it seems She doesn’t notice that at all.

She notices that i answer Her further questions a bit loudly, and She asks why i am angry. i answer truthfully. As i on top of that idle about in the kitchen, She asks me ‘Do you think you will earn a merit today’. i have not thought i get a merit, i know i have been bad and it depresses me. She orders me on my knees (kids are in their rooms) and asks angrily ‘Do you think you don’t need to please me any more because of that?’ i admit i have thought along those lines – no need to invest so much effort losing the game anyway. She gets visibly mad and says ‘you cannot turn this on and off!’. ‘Maybe I will make you sleep on the floor, what would you like about that?’ ‘It doesn’t feel nice, my spirits are quite low’It was just a few days since my mother died. i was sad, that was true. She interprets that i am rebelling against sleeping on the floor, but i didn’t mean that. ‘you will sleep on the floor or your right to serve is taken away!’ i agree of course.

i may sleep on a thin blanket lid on the floor, but i wake up every two hours

Monday, 14 November 2011

Ideas for slave's prizes

The winter holiday goes on. i wake up to my alarm at 6am. i epilate the stubble from three days from my crotch. After that i have some time for editing my blog. i prepare porridge, tea for Mistress, lay the table. She wakes up. i am especially subservient, i serve the tea and get the paper. i ask how yesterday went. ‘It was a clear demerit day. I am not going to masturbate you now, just after your mom died. That’s not appropriate’ She asks about my time allowance for MsRika, i say i used it all.

Drying laundry, asking price quotes for sofa, then i report downstairs where Mistress is doing patch work again. She wants to go on a skiing trip on the ice. We go along the lake, sky is clear – wonderful weather except for minus 10 and windy. From our beach i may bring the skis up to the house, prepare lunch for U/us and Lina’s friend. Mistress wants a good lunch with vegetables. A filled chicken steak for Mistress, sausage sauce for others, fresh ananas for dessert. i even lay the table most carefully. She comes, bites me at the neck, squeezes my balls grabbing them from behind through my legs. She’s content as a give up and arch my back.

Girls have done a big skiing trip also. After lunch Mistress wants yellow tea. She’s weaving in the living room now, sends me to fetch Her needles. She sends me shopping, groceries and an ice bore. i must measure the thickness of the ice with it.

Back inside, i get some free time first, but She interrupts me soon to run errands for Her and prepare sandwiches for the girls before Lina’s friend is picked up. i play with Lina and get Mats to eat some supper. W/we watch some tv and i stay to watch a movie.

Mistress returns to wonder why i am watching a movie without permission. Oh no, i must be having a recession in my submission right now. Anyway i turn the tv off and follow her upstairs. As W/we are ready for bed She sends me downstairs to get a pen and paper and makes me write down my wishes for my possible (!) future prizes. After i have written 5 lines She takes the paper. 1. Countdown – masturbation 2. In my own mouth 3. Buying a vibrating dildo to vibrate my sissy clit 4. Bondage and hand job. Then to sleep. This was again a demerit day.

Saturday, 12 November 2011

my mom dies - service continues


Still on holiday… In the morning i wake up at 6.20 and pluck my pubic hair as i can’t epilate. i update my blog before Mistress wakes up. i may kneel before Her as She presses my head in Her lap. After breakfast W/we go on a shopping spree in Bergen, to use the rest of some coupons W/we have, and to test sofas.

W/we get back to Her mom for lunch and visit my mom. It was the last time my kids saw my Mom alive. my mom was at that time at an intensive care department in an elderly people’s home. She had had pneumonia and fallen in a coma for a month, now she had surprisingly woken up, started to even speak. There’s a tube in her gullet, giving liquid food to her. She repeats some words i say to her, nothing else. i ask both kids by the bed one at a time. i tell my mom about there schoolwork and how pretty Lina is, and how big Mats is: ‘a big man’.

W/we drive to a spa for the next night. In the morning i wake up first, pluck some pubic hair in the bathroom. Mistress joins me in the bathroom. W/we go for a morning dip, then to breakfast with kids. A little time in the room, then W/we go back to the pool area with Lina. W/we do the big slide together (maybe the last time, she’s growing up) and she likes the cold water pool as well. At noon W/we check out.

W/we drive back to Bergen. W/we try to visit an old stone church, but that is closed. i get a little angry, so She gives me a self service snow wash on the churchyard. She orders me to take a handful of snow in my hand and wash my face with it. She oversees the wash by me. i cannot but obey.

At 2.15 i and Mistress visit my mom again. She is breathing heavily, making a sound by each breath. A nurse comes, checks her out, tells her she has visitors. ‘Yes’, she says, her last words. She understands we are there and she gets peaceful, she starts dozing off, eyes close and open. Soon she starts sleeping without breaks. i’m silent, i think it’s better she sleeps now, we leave to her mom who has made whitefish soup. It’s a sunny day, the morning was really cold, minus 16. W/we eat and have coffee. After an hour W/we leave for home. W/we are tired. After half an hour of driving Mistress gets a call. She seems alarmed, it's about my mom. i think someone’s calling from the department. She waits until the next junction before She tells me: my mom is dead. Only half an hour after W/we left she had been found looking quite grey, with a small pulse only. She had said her last words to U/us. W/we thought she fell asleep but it was eternal sleep. It was a real surprise, as She had just woken from her coma. Her heart couldn’t take the stress however. Mistress drives the rest of the journey, i talk to my sister on the phone.

Only at home the finality of the situation takes over and i start weeping powerlessly. She orders me to take care of the fireplace. The death of my mom doesn’t free me from Her service. MsRika’s book has arrived. She orders me to mke brekfast next morning and read MsRika only for 45 minutes each morning before She wakes up.

Monday, 7 November 2011

How to have sex if you don't have any contraceptive?

As i wake up in Her mom’s house, She is awake by me, and sexually active. She wants me to squeeze Her buttocks and lick Her pussy. She gives advice, wants me to lick Her clit. Then i may suck her breasts. She asks if i have packed condoms. i have not, but i suggest doing it bareback. She agrees, i settle on Her and She guides me in. i fuck Her a little, then She wants to change position. i may kiss Her buttocks and settle behind her. She guides sissy clit in again. Bareback it feels heavenly, but i am quite durable as i had a ruined only 6 days ago. She orders me first to stay still, She moves herself, thrusts Her butt. Then i may start moving, and i no time i get a good rhythm going and i can even accelerate into a final crescendo and She cums successfully. i have no trouble not cumming myself. Next She orders me to foot of the bed to suck Her pussy clean. This is the way to do it if you don’t have a condom handy!

As W/we are in Bergen i ask quietly mistress for instructions and obey. No chance for epilating here. Mistress programs me to visit my mom, and W/we visit my father, and i do the dishes there. W/we visit also Her sis, i help her husband to clear the table. In nthe evening i ask permission to massage her feet. She grants the permission and i don’t stop until i get permission for that – after a long time.

Friday, 4 November 2011

Holding candy on my nose - a new trick

Saturday morning Lina’s alarm goes off at 6am. She’s at Her sleepover, so Mistress sends me to cancel the alarm. my own alarm rings soon, and i rise up, epilate and update my blog. Then i prepare barley porridge. Mistress wakes up at 8.45, i hug Her as She gets downstairs. i serve Her porridge, She reminds me to serve also jelly. i get Her the paper as She instructs. She’s a little unsatisfied because i have not done more homework this morning before She woke up. As i ask, She tells me that i didn’t earn a merit point yesterday, the main argument being that i offered Her dried turkey in the sauna which shows that i’m still not aware of her taste. i run as i obey Her, but on my tiptoes. i make fire in the fireplace, burn trash, get firewood. She sends me to pick up Lina.

She calls me to Her with a paper and pen. She’s with Her laptop in the living room. i kneel up and write down today’s chores. i have to look for certain couches in the net, also jetty companies. Then i prepare lunch, i lay the table and set out fajitas prepared yesterday. W/we are going on a short holiday to Bergen today so i don’t prepare much new food today, only grate some cheese for the tortillas. Mistress says that after lunch i may read the paper for a moment.

She orders me on my knees in the kitchen and places a candy on my nose. That has been one of my fantasies, it’s wonderful that it is realized now. i hold my head up carefully and She praises my concentration. Then i may eat the candy.

Mistress and kids compare the sofas now, and i am sent to find out more about a couple of choices. Mistress chooses the one to be bought. She asks my opinion, but doesn’t choose my favourite. Instead She makes me call a couple of stores and find out more about Her choice. At the same time i continue to take care of the fireplace. Then She sends me to pack – and put laundry to dry. She puts jointing mortar on the tiles She replaced, She’s better at men’s work than me. Still i lay the dinner table and after dinner W/we leave for Bergen. There D/s gets on a short break.

Wednesday, 2 November 2011

Mistress finds innovative ways to dominate me


i wake up at 5.12am again. i take a shower, but i have time for a bit of The Hotel. As Mistress wakes up i prepare breakfast, but it it by the laptop as Mistress is in the bathroom. She joins me, checks out what i read, laughs and hugs me. i apologize for my horniness. She’s not angry. It’s in Her interest too, to keep me hot by reading Femdom, but without possibility to cum.

At work i have a little time to finish MsRika text visualization and print it out. As i print the 50 pages i have time to read the rest of The Hotel. Mistress instructs me to do grocery shopping on my way home.

Lina has left for Her sleepover, but Mats is tired and sleeping, not going to swimming rehearsals. As i get home Mistress orders me: ‘Change to casual, then eat’. i eat an old turnip. Mistress orders me to warm up the sauna and help as She replaces the tiles i removed: i may bring the tools, and remove some mortar.

As it is sauna time i ask if i can have my weekly bottle of beer. She orders me to take it to sauna but says She has not yet decided if i may drink it or not. In sauna i offer a shoulder massage, She refuses. Instead She orders me to read aloud news from the paper as She lies in the hot. As i ask if i can have water or beer, She orders me on all fours on the sauna floor. i’m naked, even cb is off for sauna. She takes a dipper with a metal bowl. i am afraid, as all metal gets so hot in the sauna. And yes, She starts touching my buttocks with the bowl, trying to fit my buttock in the bowl. It’s really hot, but not burning hot. Then i may walk out on all fours, get the beer, put it in a glass, but not drink it. i wait on my knees, sissy clit hard. i have not tried to touch my sissy clit.
‘you may drink’
i raise the glass and start drinking. i am very thirsty already – how excellent Mistress can make the cheapest beer taste!
‘Stop. Count to 1000 and then you may drink two mouthfuls.’
‘Not aloud’
She showers and asks what figure i’m at.
She swims in the pool and asks again.
As i am in 308 She interrupts and i may take two gulps. Then i have to read to 100 and drink another two gulps. Then She just makes me wait and tells me when to continue. Finally i may drink the rest. i am afraid to stop in the middle so i pour the rest into my mouth in one go. Super erotic! Then She takes a hard washcloth, and rubs my pubes, then buttocks, nipples area and finally my crotch by making me spread my legs and drawing it between legs. Finally She orders me to shower.

W/we go soon to bed. There i may oil Her feet. As the first foot is ready She orders me to oil a bit further up. So that She would not have to repeat Her order, i oil Her legs all the way up including Her buttocks. Then to bed. She ties my hands to my neck to prevent masturbation at night, as i am super horny.

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

Mistress restricts my net use - a note about blog updating

Mistress just decided to take away my wee hours net time. She will in the future explicitly order me to update my blog, all other computer use is banned. So the updating of this blog depends on Mistress's whim from now on. Then back to the diary...


i wake up at 5.10 already. When i’m really horny i need less sleep. After epilation and other chores i have more than half an hour net time. i have no time for sex stuff at work today.

Mistress is not home as i get back from work, She’s working late, so i continue reading The Hotel. Only as i see Her car arriving i start cleaning up kitchen. She reprimands me for not changing into casual clothes. It seems i’m not getting a merit today either. However i can’t start goofing around, as two demerits would mean i need four consecutive merit days for a wish day. So after eating i ask Mistress to rate the new recipes i have tried lately. Then She approves carrot soup and chili con carne as the next dishes, and i start preparing them. According to Lina’s wishes i however have to change chili con carne into a sauce of cream, onion and minced meat. i prepare these dishes for tomorrow when the others have supper and watch tv.

W/we get to bed early. i put the cb on for the night with night settings and ask if i can give Mistres a foot bath, oiling, shoulder massage or read Tolstoi. i may read Tolstoi, until She starts to sleep. During the night the cb starts to hurt behind the balls, and i try to cope by pulling sissy clit out.

Sunday, 30 October 2011

Masturbation postponed

During the night i wake up and notice i don’t think about sex but work. i try if i can get an erection with thoughts only, and it succeeds as i think of The Hotel story (see Stories list for a link). i wonder if the masturbation would have worked with only three fingertips. i try: yes, well. It works with even one fingertip if one strains the muscles of sissy clit hard. i think of a variation to the masturbation scene, in which i am tied to a ceiling hook on my tiptoes: a leather helmet/hood in my head, a hook in my nose is drawing my head back, the hook is connected to my right wrist that is drawn behind my back, up near the shoulder blades. the other hand is free, i may masturbate with one or two fingertips. It feels too masculine to masturbate with a full hand, even on my knees.

‘my ejaculation yesterday went a bit too far, i’m afraid’, i say to Mistress as i pluck my ball hairs in the morning, as Mistress applies make up and then uses the toilet in the same bathroom. i look at my pubic triangle and consider plucking the form a little bit towards the for of letter T.

i stand up and clean kitchen while i eat breakfast. During the day i’m again addicted to sex stuff, even at work, i even read a little bit of The Hotel at work (i have saved it).

After work at home i report to Mistress right away. She is doing patchwork, orders me to change clothes and eat. i fry more chicken to go with the fajitas. Lina joins me in the dinner table. Cleaning the kitchen, folding laundry, putting new laundry to dry, then to living room, where Mistress is pretesting Lina before her school test. i settle on the carpet by Mistress’s feet (W/we have a large living room). Soon She sends me to lay out a supper buffet table and prepare some for me. As i eat i wash part of the fridge and the microwave spontaneously. W/we start watching Simpsons, i start drifting to sleep. She sends me to bed at 9pm. i tie my hands to my neck with shoestrings. Otherwise my temptation to masturbate would be too big. As She later joins me i ask if i got a merit today – ‘No’. So the next wish day is Saturday at the earliest.

Saturday, 29 October 2011

Mistress defines the rules

Before W/we fall asleep She defines the rules so that after three consecutive days with merits i may make a wish list where She chooses. Preparing the wish list will be the first prize after the first 3 successive merit days, as preparing the list itself is a big pleasure. Besides, after one very good serving day i my get an on-the-spot prize, which is whipping of my bare buttocks, a paradox: a punishment as a prize.


i wake up early and epilate carefully and happily, partly as She applies make-up. i mention Mistress how i thought i would raise the place of my pubic triangle, and She agrees, as i show that the new place wouldn’t be excessively high.

During the day i prepare my MsRika translation with pics. In the evening i have a meeting, home at 7.40pm. i start preparing a fajitas meal right away. There’s so little time to earn a merit! The tiring effect of my 12,5 hour working day must not show now. As i have the fajitas laid out i warm myself the oldest leftovers, meat stew from Mistress’s Saturday night party and yesterday’s leftover potatoes. Then i prepare some rice, for Mistress’s lunch box that i prepare. This time it consists of rice-tofu-sauce. There’s no time for tv tonight: i put laundry to dry and look for a turnip recipe instead. Later i suggest reading Tolstoi, and i may read aloud a long time. Afterwards i ask and yes, i had earned a merit.

Friday, 28 October 2011

the best sex ever - countdown squirting as foreplay


i wake up before the alarm again, before 6am, but the cb has not interfered with my sleeping, i have not waken up once during the night. i epilate and pluck my pubes carefully. i also have some time for the net before Mats wakes up next. i have a shit without peeing again at work, no cum appears this time.

i get home through a grocery store. Mistress arrives much later. Before that i clean up, cook potatoes as W/we have a lot of other food ready. i lay the table for me and Mistress, Lina comes to eat also and W/we eat together, i eat oldest leftovers (smoked salmon).

As Mistress arrives, i meet Her in the hall and offer to take off Her outer clothes and follow Her as Her servant looking for chances to serve Her. i fill Her glass with water, taking care the temperature is just right. Later She orders tea. Our cleaner lady is coming tomorrow, so She shows me how to prepare for that: cat’s cups to the shower stall, all dried laundry to be folded and drying rack put together, laundry taken to closets. Everything has to be off floors, surfaces that are wiped must be free of things, kids must be ordered to take their stuff off the floor in their rooms.

A little before 8 i Mistress orders me to lay out supper buffet, and by asking i find out what kind of sandwiches Mistress and Lina want and i prepare such. Lina wants her sandwich warmed. W/we watch an episode of Simpsons together like W/we have been accustomed to, i clear the table and fill dishwasher as Mistress visits Lina’s room to put her to bed, customarily.

i wait for Mistress in O/our dark living room, and W/we get upstairs together. i tell Her i have read She comes first –book today and learned cunnilingus. ‘i have done it in a totally wrong way until now, i would love to show you what i have learned’. She doesn’t seem interested, but as i am ready in my thong and sleeveless shirt by the bed She does put me to work, licking Her as She sits on the bed. i try out my new skills, lick from the bottom up, press the tongue tightly against the vulva, then lick the lower part of vulva and keep touching Her clit with the tip of the tongue. She orders me to lick with more pressure as it becomes tickly. She also says licking the lower part is unnecessary. Then i put my finger in Her pussy, first a little and then deeper, and start hooking the finger, and licking simultaneously. She says i could proceed a little bit quicker, no need to be so cautious and slow. She puts an end to my show, and i have not finished reading the book, so the orgastic culmination is yet to be learned.

Suddenly a prostate pain hits me. i have tendency for it, but it has always occurred only after an orgasm not before. i have to sit on a hard chair for some time to get over with it. As i sit there i confess to Her that my feelings are in a turmoil, after waiting so hard i fear what is about to happen. Is the level of androgen in my veins risen because of the slavery? As the pain goes by i kneel by her bed again and tell Her i’m functional again. She asks for my wish, and i state some choices:
-masturbating while She counts down from 20 to 0, it’s ok without anything extra that Mistress thinks would cause it to not work and lead to a disappointment
-tying me down, legs up and over my head to the ‘in your own mouth’ –position, and a little handjob
-bying a vibrator to masturbate my sissy clit with in the future instead of my hand
i forget to mention buying a perforated paddle that i also had in mind earlier.
Mistress chooses masturbation, orders thong down. She asks about the starting figure, i say it could be 20 to 30 with a novice. She also asks how to prevent full orgasm. i say that i have to withdraw my hand at 0 and only after that any cum may ooze out.
She starts from 20, slowly, with a steady pace (last time the unsteady pace was a problem). i masturbate quickly, then work into a steady pace, which keeps me ready for the final spurt. As She gets to 4 i start to accelerate, but at 3 i otice that the orgasm is already coming and i withdraw my hand already. A few squirts of cum fall from the sissy clit, as much as in a full orgasm. Mistress says She thinks the first squirt only occurred after She said 0, so i performed according to the rules. However i learned that the final sprint must only start after 2. No feeling of orgasm really.

Now a surprise, Mistress orders me to get a condom and after putting it on with the foreskin back, like She expressly orders, She gets on all fours on the bed. She says She has been excited for some days already. Now She thinks after initial masturbation i can fuck without cumming with foreskin back. That’s a brilliant idea, that never occurred to me! So W/we do, i have no problems with starting to fuck again right away after the ruined orgasm. After getting into a good rhythm which ends with a loud thud as my loins hit her buttocks She cums. i have to pull out quickly at last, as it feels i’m close to the edge again! But it works nearly perfectly. i tell Her it was my best sex act ever, and i would have talked girlishly with Her forever and ever, if She hadn’t ordered ‘Lights off and start to sleep’.

Wednesday, 26 October 2011

A long Sunday 2/2

Lina comes to ask if she can go to the neighbour to Her friend, i say W/we must eat lunch first. i prepare the lunch, eat oldest leftovers myself and continue with cutting undies before the laptop. Soon Mistress arrives. She tells me to use another set of scissors which makes cutting easy as play. i finish the chore and collect the shreds finally into a large ball. After taking the ball away i go through the budget with Mistress. Then there are still two items on the chore list. i have to install with Mats’s help some software to Mistress’s laptop. Finally i must remove three broken tiles from laundry room floor, also the mortar below them and brush the floor.

i suggest pleasure services – massaging etc. - to Mistress next, i have done that daily since i started needing plus points to receive pleasure myself. She chooses reading Tolstoi aloud, but soon Lina starts needing attention again. i ask if T/they want the tv on, but instead i may choose some music.

i have to leave for a meeting for an hour. As i return Mistress is trying to get some sleep and Lina’s friend is visiting. Mistress complains that She couldn’t sleep last night after the party and now the girls are keeping Her awake. So i leave Her sleeping and She manages to sleep a couple of hours. In the mean time i help Lina with her homework, learning credo. After that i read Elise Sutton’s FemDom Experience.

Mistress wakes up. i prepare some rice and W/we eat leftovers from the party that Mistress brought home. Then i read a lot of Tolstoi for Mistress, after which W/we eat supper and watch tv, with me sitting on the floor by Her legs. Furtively i check Her that i am receiving a plus point for today, even though She says i seemed grumpy at the dinner table.

After brushing teeth i may grease Mistress’s legs and put on Her socks, but She doesn’t want other comfort services. W/we are getting tired both, but She asks me if i have thought of a wish. i ask if She wants one wish or 4-5 to choose from. i wish a chance to masturbate as She counts down from 20 to 0, and a possibility for a ruined orgasm at 0, my sissy clit in the air, while a leash would connect my balls to a hook in the ceiling so that i have to stand on tiptoes. Mistress slashes the idea as too complicated. ‘you lost today’s opportunity for presenting a too complicated wish’ i nearly burst into tears. i had so much looked forward to this. i say i need the chastity belt for tonight, i’m so horny. She allows me to put it on.

As W/we talk in bed it turns out i had misunderstood Her. She had meant i may suggest a daily routine which i miss if i don’t ear a merit that day. So it is necessary the routine is simple. She says i have a new chance tomorrow. i get happy again and fall asleep.

Monday, 24 October 2011

A long Sunday

i wake up for some reason already at 6am and cannot fall asleep again. 6 hours is less sleep than i need normally. Routine epilating, leaving me more than 30 minutes net time. i hit on a new idea: a slave could be made to use computer on his knees.

Porridge, laying out the table more carefully than normally, as W/we have a guest. The guest – mother-in-law – wakes up, gets the paper. i serve the coffee, porridge is also ready. Mistress wakes up, W/we hug in the kitchen. She goes into the bathroom, i follow Her asking what tea She wants for breakfast, and then prepare it and put the porridge on Her plate.

As each one of U/us finishes breakfast i clear the dishes. Mistress summons me to the living room. i get a pen and paper as i get today’s orders. First it’s folding laundry. In the midst of that i need to go to the loo. i sit on the toilet bowl, but remain a bit above the rim without touching it. As i empty my bowels i hold my cb in my hand to help not to pee – i only pee twice a day. As i wipe i notice i have got a little wet at my sissy clit. i taste and notice it is cum! Again! As i am excited and denied, defecating acts as Aneros and milks me! There’s nothing orgastic involved, it feels only good the same way shitting always does. i wipe the cock cage and eat everything. i also tell Mistress these good news.

i think to myself that this may happen every so often, but one never notices it as pee flushes the cum away. i only noticed it as i had to learn to shit without peeing.

Next on the list is cleaning my own clothes closet. It means taking everything down from the shelves, go through them – useless must be taken away to be cut to shreds later – washing the shelves and putting everything back in neat piles. No used clothing is allowed on the shelves. i have to put to laundry especially sweaters, which i have used and put back on the shelf. Years ago i used to wear each of my pants and shirts in turn, but Mistress put an end to that custom last year, because i had really many used clothes in my closet those days and it smelt.

i am proud and glad of the fact that Mistress has changed a lot of my ways. After a little learning Mistress’s new rules become my new customs.

Mistress leaves to take Her mom to the bus stop and continues to yesterday’s party site to lead the dismantling of the party. In the mean time i finish off the closet really neatly, pairing all my socks and all family members’ socks as well. Then i continue the list and go out to chop firewood. It’s raining so i give myself permission to stop quite early, after a few blocks of wood and some branches. Inside i start cutting my old long johns to shreds. It takes a sickeningly long time and i continue to do it by my laptop. i notice on the list updating Mistress’s company’s budget for next year and i decide to take a break from cutting shreds and do that. Then i continue cutting. It’s so tedious to cut long pants into a long 2cm wide strip. Even the scissors seem dull and hurt my hand.

Continued in A long Sunday part 2/2

Sunday, 23 October 2011

A busy Saturday


i wake up early, 6am, for sissy clit pain having slept with the cb-2000 on. i epilate thoroughly. W/we have purchased a new Vidal Sassoon hair clipper kit and it is excellent for shortening my pubic triangle hair a few millimetres long. i get excited as i clip it short, but manage not to masturbate. At 6.55 two a-rings go back on and the cock cage as well. Next 50 minutes is my daily net time, at 7.45 i start preparing breakfast and lay the table. My mother-in-law wakes up next, and gets the paper as i serve Her the coffee. i don’t have time to read much of the paper like she does. It has been snowing and i exhaust myself first shovelling it. Then voluntarily some laundry work, folding, putting in closets. Making the bed and ironing. Next i am sent to pay bills online and i wander on unallowed sites as well, but report back to Mistress before She starts to miss me and ask for further chores.

We end up cleaning both cars inside with Lina who wants to earn some money doing homework. Mistress soon calls out ‘The car must be ready by 12.15, i’m leaving then for my book club’ i hurry up, get my car ready by that time, and the other after She has left. Her mom has made the lunch.

As Mistress returns i notice a silk shirt of Hers not ironed and i ask if i could iron it, with kids hearing me. Of course i can. Later She wants to check the preset assignments, and She orders me to find chimney sweep’s phone number so She can order him. Doing that sort of things has shifted to Her. In the evening W/we go to a party, where i’m polite but nothing more. After that in the night no D/s this time.

Saturday, 22 October 2011

Double a-ring

So here's the right pic for yesterday's post. This is what it looks like with two a-rings on a cb-2000 (i do n't know if that can be done with cb-6000 or the other models):

Friday, 21 October 2011

My first prostate milked orgasm - accidentally

In the morning i discover that the largest a-ring that i use during the night, can be left on and another, smaller a-ring can be used with it (or how many you can fit). i decide to try that for today, shower, then epilate the regular areas, and also a strip of hair from the top of my pubic triangle so that it is no longer connected to my chest and tummy hair, but forms a “separate” neat triangle. i get so excited i do a few masturbation strokes. It’s funny i have got so rid of that habit i almost never use the possibility i would have each morning to masturbate. Now i have to comb my hair and shave before my sissy clit gets so flaccid i can put the extra a-ring and cock cage on. So now tht i sleep with the cock cage i get out only for less than an hour each morning between 6-7. Two ring system feels sturdy and good and now i notice i have one pic in my collection that depicts a similar arrangement with the rings. i never realized before what it was. [it is not tis pic, but looks a bit similar. i don't have the right pic any more, but i'll take a new pic later]

At work a funny thing happens. i go to the toilet in the morning for big business – without touching the seat, squatting above it like i have done after i became a slave. This time after wiping i notice that my sissy clit, which i don’t use for peeing before noon – i have learned to do the small business and big business on separate sessions – is slimy, with light grey slime. i taste it and notice a clear taste of cum! It must have been caused by pooping. In my state of excitement pooping has probably massaged my prostate and caused my first prostate-milked cum! How degrading!

i have a little break at work and collect pictures for my MsRika text collection which i am compiling for Mistress. i am using the same laptop at home for my hobbies and at work which makes me a bit nervous at times. As i am giving a powerpoint presentation i somehow fear that i have a window of porn open and it might pop out accidentally. It never happens to me, but once i notice at a team meeting when my colleague’s laptop is connected to the projector that as he types a www address his browser suggests something like ‘a big-breasted blonde giving head’. That’s so embarrassing, but i don’t know if he or anybody else notices that.

my mother-in-law is still at home. i am very tired in the evening and mistress sends me for a nap. Then i must take Lina swimming. The evening doesn’t go just like in the movies, She has to order me to peel garlic and prepare Her favourite marinated garlic. After that i must prepare sandwiches after everyone’s wishes (except Mats’s who’s also tired and sleeping already) and pick up Lina.

In the evening i tell Mistress about the semen leak (Poppet describes a little bit similar event in his blog also). The chastity belt again for the night, but this time it hurts quite a lot during the night, i keep waking up and in the morning i think if i should ask Her to just tie my hands for the night instead of the cock cage.

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Learning to sleep with the chastity belt

During the day i get a text message from Mistress: ‘Suggest three things to please me in the evening’. i text right back: ‘shoulder massage, reading your book aloud or making a fruit salad’ i have an evening meeting however and get home only at 6.30pm. Programmed i change clothes, eat, prepare fresh tomato pasta sauce. Then supper, cleaning the kitchen, preparing a lunch box for Her, lights off as per Her instructions. Upstairs brushing teeth, little nightwear on, nightly settings to the chastity belt like yesterday. She still sends me downstairs to feed the cat and fetch Her book and Her knitting.

A reading session begins with me on my knees by the bed, Her sitting on the bed knitting. After reading long and enthusiastically She orders me to stop abruptly. i stop after the next sentence, but She orders me to find a suitable place to stop so i finish the paragraph. Then i thank Her, like after receiving any order, and praise Tolstoi’s book, like it turned out to be. As i started i didn’t know what book it was, and Mistress had already read first half of it alone, so i started from the middle.

During the night i wake up a few times because of sissy clit pain, which is however bearable, and there is no ball ache (ache behind the balls) this time. i also learn an easy trick for alleviating sissy clit pain: just draw the cock cage away from your body as far as it goes.
[this is me in the pic]

Monday, 10 October 2011

Mistress's new rule

In the morning i epilate part of my pubic triangle so that it becomes smaller and the epilated area between sissy clit and pubic triangle gets larger. So no time for net.

During the day i keep thinking what i would wish from Mistress as a reward on Thursday. Would it be:
-tied from my balls to the ceiling so that i must be on tiptoes, left hand free, and after being tired being allowed to masturbate with 1 or 2 fingers.
Or dog tricks:
-balancing a dog treat on my nose, and learning to fling it in the air and catch it with my mouth. A successful catch could mean a prize like one edging.
Or learning the countdown method.

i am allowed to take the Mercedes today as i will have to have a light bulb changed to it. At home i understand that i was supposed to also have the exhaust pipe fixed, and i make the mistake of saying to Mistress that She should have reminded me of that. Later i still once go on about making an official complaint about Lina’s shoes that broke down too soon. She has to say She already knows my opinion about it.

So in the evening W/we have a severe discussion, and Mistress decides upon a new rule: i may suggest a reward only after three excellent days. During all three days i must have gained merits by for instance suggesting footbaths or doing spontaneously chores i am not doing routinely. A blunder wipes off all previous days and it starts anew. If i make two blunders one day, i must get a series of four excellent days, three blunders requires five excellent days etc.

This means bathing and oiling Mistress’s feet today are wasted except that Mistress says Her feet feel wonderfully soft and She enjoyed it very much, and also i enjoyed very much giving Her such pleasure. Especially as She soaks Her feet a long time in the warm water and orders me to read Her book (Tolstoi) to her aloud for a long time, then lets me oil them thoroughly and put on warm socks. Then She sends me to prepare supper sandwiches, with detailed instructions, and Lina asks me to make Her supper sandwiches also, and gives also exact instructions…

A little net after supper and then that severe discussion i mentioned, and after that i may try keeping the cock cage on through the night, no points, largest a-ring, longest locking pin. i wake up durin the night, but the pain is not so bad i would have to remove the cock cage. Maybe this will become the custom?


Friday, 7 October 2011

Chained at night

At work i use a little time to find more pics to illustrate my MSRika printouts for Mistress. i get home through the Spanish course. At home i ask whether She wants me to change to casual clothes and eat. ‘Yes, but first find me the telephone number for the local furniture dealer’. After eating i march upstairs immediately and ask Mistress whether She want a foot bath etc, Mats overhearing. She doesn’t want one, but i get to massage Her feet as She sits on the sofa. Next She orders me to book us a holiday at a certain spa hotel for February.

Bedtime nearing, She goes upstairs, orders me not to follow yet, but later with a pen and paper so She can dictate a chore list for the weekend. Her mom is coming to stay with U/us again and commands have to be in a more hidden form then. Upstairs She orders me to brush my teeth. i take the cb off, but i cannot get the a-ring off as i get a stiffy as soon as i get the cage off. i am really horny. i put on a thong and a tight sleeveless shirt and check my appearance in a mirror. In the morning i epilated the triangle of pubes a bit smaller, now it “stands” on the a-ring. i decide to reduce it a bit further. i get reprimands, as i have forgotten to remind Mistress to take Her magnesium, but i can fix it by fetching the pill and water from the kitchen. i have also forgotten pen and paper, oh Lord. i scurry to get them and write down the list.

She orders me to kneel by the bed and She massage my extremely swollen glans through the thong. ‘How does it feel?’, She asks. i reply i’m in paradise. She orders me to lie by Her in bed and W/we hug but She says She is too tired to fuck me. However She orders me to squeeze various parts of Her body, especially buttocks. As W/we have already stopped making out, She orders me surprisingly to lower the curtains, lock the door, take a condom and get on my back on the bed, then remove my thong and put the condom on my stiff pole. She fucks me, She’s on top. i am so thick that i feel friction in all the odd places. She turns on Her side, wants me in from behind, and finally on all fours until She cums. my pelvis keeps slamming loudly into Her soft butt, and i can accelerate without a risk for orgasm, as i drew the foreskin forth with a lot of effort. She doesn’t like the felling with foreskin forth, though: ‘It was like a soft Q-tip’. W/we talk about me getting only ruined orgasms from now on. She orders me wrist bracelets connected to a leather collar for the night as i am so horny and start sleeping with a hard dick. i have a strong urge to masturbate a little.

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Just another cosy evening

i get home from work early. Lina is preparing a birthday party for her hamster: chocolate mousse. i help her. Mistress has not come home yet. As She has arrived, i help Her with ordering some software. Then it’s the mousse party, and i clear the table, clean the kitchen which is already cheerfully clean. i ask Mistress for further chores, and there ain’t any, i go for weekly grocery shopping with Lina. Then i prepare food for tomorrow, which i think gains me a merit, at least She is positively surprised. In the evening i get stratight to bed. Weaning from tv has succeeded.

In the bed i wear a thong and i raise my hips from the bed as She gropes me. i turn on my belly and take the corner of the pillow in my mouth as i guess that She wants to bite my buttock so hard that i cry. Wonderful. W/we hug.

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

Breach of contract right away

The contract was the starting point for a period of strict discipline and active service. On the sme Sunday She first lead U/us the gym, then She chose veggie food recipes for the whole week, and i prepared shopping lists based on that. W/we got Lina from Her sleepover and She ordered me to warm up the sauna. After that i had to hurry to prepare leek-potato soup and a pie She wanted for tomorrow lunch.

i did actively many things during the day, put laundry to dry, filled water bottles for gym etc. As i am cleaning the kitchen She comes for an inspection. She praises my initiative and says i may place a wish already today. She says She will check out the stove, so i continue to rub it spic-and-span. However later as i prepare food i have some problems, and get angry with myself which She notices. Later in bed She asks whether i think i deserved wish something. i must say i don’t and i apologize for my poor conduct. She wonders how i could right away breach the contract i signed myself (by getting angry). i try to explain that it is hard to be able to maintain the level of service throughout the day and also in the evening as i start to get tired.

So in the evening it is no wish time, She only makes me lift the new heavier weights i got as a Christmas present and read Her aloud her book kneeling by the bed.

Sunday, 2 October 2011

First sissy contract

Sunday is hard work. In the morning i epilate, prepare breakfast, get the paper. Later She wants for a walk into town. i prepare lunch, and then She wants me to fell a big tree, but it falls partly into the sea and i spend until dark sawing it into pieces. After that inside preparing dinner etc.

Next week i get a flu with secondary diseases, among others an ear inflammation, which keeps me out of play even next weekend and i call in sick even the following week. The orgasm i got keeps sexual thoughts away, i don’t even view net porn as i am ailing at home.

Only next Sunday morning things start rolling. Mats is sleeping and Lina on a sleepover. W/we discuss in Her study O/our life and i say that i wish W/we could practise a little bit more T&D. She doesn’t remember the term at the time, but wants to make Herself familiar with it again. She wants me to print out the material from MsRika’s netsite i translated for Her. i do it and add pictures, similar like what i have posted here. She wants to make it into a small folder. As it is ready She starts reading it with me at Her feet on the living room floor. In the text She finds immediately confirmations for Her opinions: i should not await any rewards, i should be more active as a servant, offer foot baths etc. i have been preparing all meals all the time, but i have still been slipping with preparing weekly menus and having Her approve them.

She orders me to get Her some tea, then pen and paper, and i may write down Her new theses:
-i will obey all orders
-i will walk prettily, no striding
-i will be active (suggesting footbaths)
-if i get angry (even rolling my eyes counts, She has the right to judge), i get a punishment from the following list:
-wet briefs (to feel like i had a period)
-nettles in pants
-clamps in ballsac
-licking the dish brush
-eating cat food

-if i think i have deserved a reward, once a week i may make a wish

i had to sign this document and make a copy at work and bring the original to Her. Once a week, on Thursdays, i may suggest something for myself.

This was the first slave contract W/we have made.

Friday, 30 September 2011

Mistress does house planning with another man

i wake up without alarm at 6.40, shower and shave my armpits altogether and groom my pubic triangle into a short stubble, and shorten the hair at the tops of my thighs. Then i epilate and pluck the tender spots, put my hair nicely and shave my face closely. According to Mistress’s orders given last night i put fire in the fireplace next, and after that i can have some net time. i read maid stories written by “Deborah Ford”, especially “The Hotel” strikes me. At that time it was posted in Xaxasissy’s weblog, but nowadays i cannot find it anywhere. i have a copy myself, but i guess Deborah has ordered it’s removal so i don’t post it.

After Mistress wakes up i serve the tea and porridge i have prepared. i ask permission to get today’s paper, and i give it to Her to read (She gives me a smaller paper). Then working under Her command: cleaning the kitchen, putting clean laundry away, getting firewood, maintaining the fire. i ask to be allowed to prepare the carrot soup (according to the menu) as i have to leave soon to see my mom who’s taken to hospital. i prepare the soup. Housewife’s duties suit me very well. Just a couple of day’s ago Mistress specifies some changes to the facade of O/or house to an engineer W/we know, living in the same block, for him to do the drawings for U/us. i just greeted the man, i was not involved in any other way. Men’s work suits my Wife better – i mean men’s work that requires thinking. Before i leave i eat a housewifes light lunch: carrot soup and bread.

In the evening Mistress’s wants to fuck again. This time i may fuck a little without a condom, which makes me very sensitive, and i must take a break as it becomes too nice. As i continue, with a condom, it’s still quite nice, as She ordered foreskin to be drawn back, so i cum together with Her, and during fucking i had to stop a few times not to cum too early.

Thursday, 29 September 2011

Mistress finds a pretty dress for me

i have a flu and i am very tired, but according to Mistress’s orders i visit two grocery stores, get Mats from his hobbies and take kids swimming. As i have left the kids at the swimming hall at the rehearsals and return home, Mistress orders me upstairs. ‘Give me two suggestions of slave costumes for you’. It’s so difficult when something like that is asked without a warning, i cannot think of anything, find anything suitable, i’m so lousy at decision making. i just keep rising stuff out of the toy chest, so Mistress chooses stay ups, a long and very tight black corset, and orders me to undress and put them on. On top of them She orders a red and white dress and a wide black belt, which gives me a very pretty narrow waist. ‘If you had bigger breasts, you would make a very pretty, curvy woman. Cock cage stays on, it has medium spikes, but it doesn’t bother me much, i have grown used to being so restricted.

Dressed as a woman i will have to complete a lot of chores, empty ashes from fireplaces, sweep the floors, and especially cleansing the kitchen thoroughly. Afterwards i spend time kneeling in from of Mistress in the living room chatting with Her.

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Fucking with Her PVC skirt on

Early part of next week goes in a flu. i am not at my best, and food stuffs are running low. i prepare meals though. Wednesday night Mistress gropes my thong-clad ass under the blanket and i wiggle my ass for Her.

Thursday night things start to happen. i get into the bedroom before 10pm, Mistress tells me to lock the door. i wait on my knees as She puts on the black pvc skirt and stay ups. i am allowed to fondle Her thighs, bare breasts and pvc-clad buttocks. She settles crosswise over the bed on Her back and i lick Her pussy on my knees between Her legs. Then She turns on all fours, and i lick Her from behind, my nose next to Her asshole – a scene rich in atmosphere.

Next She wants a condom on me, and i may lie on my back for Her to ride me. After riding She wants on Her side from behind, the doggy style. Eventually i can accelerate the rhythm without an evident risk for cumming, as i reasoned to Mistress that i should pull the foreskin forth, otherwise i could cum too fast. i came close to orgasm as She ordered me to stop while W/we were doing it doggy style: an unexpected stop always nearly makes me cum.

Monday, 26 September 2011

She cums, i am rewarded with a nice moment of masturbation

Walking on Montjuic mountain - great views over the city, then funicular down and walking on Ramblas. W/we come too late to Palau Guell again. A great lunch, a mediaval church, then to shops and apartment, early to pack. Back to shops to buy presents.

W/we wait nervously for the leaser to return O/our warranty payment, he comes in time. Last purchases on the airport, the plane is an hour late. Back at the old, cold house! Mistress gets the cat, it has been taken car by Her mom. i get the hamster with Lisa from Her friend. Still no sex drive.

No alarm, i wake up only after 9, prepare a quick breakfast and wake Her up. Still no net time. i prepare lunch for 12am and then W/we take Mistress to Her literature club, and buy skates to Lina and a present for O/our goddaughter. After the club W/we continue to the goddauhter’s anniversary. Mistress drops hints about sex, but in the evening She’s too tired.

i wake up with an alarm at 7am. Now i have time to groom my nether regions; in Barcelona i didn’t have my epilator, and it is impossible to epilate everything that has grown at a time.
Mistress orders me some woodwork and takes Lina with her friend to swim. i prepare lunch and She orders me with Her to the gym, then to swimming hall’s cafĂ© (nice!). W/we pick up Lina, then some computer work and warming up sauna.

In the evening i prepare Mexican chicken for kids to eat next week, and then hotfoot upstairs there Mistress very promisingly orders me to lock the bedroom door (a sure sign something’s gonna happen).

Next i wait on my knees as She has reached a convenient place in the book She is reading, lying on the bed. She orders me to remove my shirt and socks (leaving only my thong) and open the toy chest. i get posture collar and leather ankle and wrist bracelets.
-‘Remove your thong’
She undresses and puts on Her corset and stay ups, She makes me mad by Her looks. i may suck Her nipples on my knees, then lick Her pussy. She takes me inside Her pussy for a few pleasurable bareback thrusts.
-‘Get a condom’
i pull out, cover myself with rubber. i pull the foreskin forth without asking, i don’t want to cum yet as last time i lost my appetite for nearly a week. i want to remain hot.
-‘On your back on the bed’
Her knees hurt, so i get to fuck Her only a short time from below, then on my side from behind. She cums quite soon, and i can accelerate into crescendo without a risk of cumming myself. i continue until She tells me to stop. i ask and get permission to masturbate a little watching Her precious butt between Her corset and stay ups, as She lies on Her belly on the bed.
-‘Now to sleep!’

Sunday, 25 September 2011

Getting a handjob in Barcelona

Sunday morning
Mistress surprises me by wanting sex. i'm allowed to fuck Her with a condom on, foreskin draw forth, so i manage not to cum myself. She states that it’s long enough from my previous orgasm, so after fucking i may lie on my back, hands by my sides, as She masturbates me. She let me cum, continuing stroking all through my orgasm, even slower pace. Its wonderful, but my sex drive is gone for the rest of the Barcelona trip.

On Sunday W/we visit Palau Guell and the gothic old town, find the pillars from August’s time and visit Picasso Museum. And zoo, and Barceloneta beach until W/we slump at home. There’s even a parade at the nearby square this evening.

Monday: W/we leave Mats sleeping and visit Caixaforum, then back home for coffees and get Mats, and to Pueblo Espanol and Mies van der Rohe pavilion. W/we take the metro to the seashore as the big Christmas parade is today and starts there. The parade tours around the whole centre and W/we go to Plaza Catalunia to see it again. Kids collect the candy they throw. Quite a parade it is, miles long and more and more elaborate costumes and scenes. The winter market is open throughout the night, it’s a nice feeling to visit it in the night.

Tuesday: Parc Guell is a wonderful experience, but it starts to rain, W/we get straight back home and i prepare steaks. There’s not much room and energy for any other kind of kinky play n this sort of trips.

Wednesday: In the morning the art museum without kids, then Sagrada Familia, Torre Agbar, which is Lina’s favourite, and in the center Casa Mila and art nouveau blocks, then shopping at el Corte Ingles, Zara etc. i wait at McDonald’s as the Girls shop with Mats.

Saturday, 24 September 2011

A trip to Barcelona

After Christmas holidays my mother-in-law joined U/us on O/our way home, to stay with U/us until the New Year. Mistress has a longer holiday, i return to work. In the evenings i may e.g. lie on the floor by Mistress’s feet, get Mistress and Her mom wine as per Her instructions. W/we study travel guides: W/we are going to Barcelona.

Friday at 4am the alarm goes off for Barcelona. Everyone’s awake at once. i have prepared sandwiches for the morning and cleaned the kitchen in the evening. Everything goes fine and in the plane W/we enjoy the sandwiches. In Barcelona it drizzled as W/we get into O/our apartment by a beautiful square. Once there, the roles settle. i make sandwiches, do the dishes (no dishwasher), She picks the targets for O/our trips. Here are still separate meat, bread, vegetable etc. shops, so i have to visit at least 4 shops to get O/our small purchases, which is annoying as i am already so tired. So they send in the evening in advance to the apartment to prepare dinner, as the O/others still make a tour round the seafront area.

Saturday morning i wake up at 7, it’s still dark. She’s awake as well, i try to seduce Her but She feels sexless, in advance of Her period. She orders me to rub Her back, long strokes from the neck down along the spine. ‘Are you very needy’, She asks. i explain that i didn’t cum during Christmas time, and not one way or the other after that. That’s it – She just wanted to know it, not help it.

W/we walk a lot, also visiting modern art museum where they are playing a funny Queer Orlando –movie. In the evening W/we are all very tired.

Friday, 23 September 2011

Fucking with a-ring on

Next day (Christmas day) W/we drive for Her mom’s. As she and the kids are playing in the garden Mistress leads me to the bathroom, and gives me permission to open the cb with keys. my sissy clit gets erect so fast i cannot remove the one-piece a-ring of the old cb-2000. So i may make love to Her with the a-ring on. It works as a penis ring, my sissy clit gets huge. W/we've forgotten condoms, so i may fuck Her bareback. The narrow ring makes normal pleasure impossible, so i succeed giving Her an orgasm without cumming myself. If She preferred a bigger dick, this would be something to do on purpose.

After a while sissy clit gets soft on its own and i can fit the cock cage back on. In the evening W/we go to repeat O/our first date, it’s 25th anniversary today. W/we are very much in love still.

On Boxing day i strain my back in a situation that appeared perfectly harmless. Maybe being tied up legs up was the reason.

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

A kinky present: being tied ass up and spanked

Christmas at a D/s home

23rd Dec
i may leave work early. i do the rest of the Christmas shopping, presents for kids, stockings for Mistress. She has done quite a lot of Christmas preparations. i feel guilty - i should have done more.

Christmas Eve
i wake up first and prepare rice porridge and do rest of the morning chores. i start preparing the rest of the salads and other Christmas dishes.
As W/we have eaten the porridge She wants out, for a trip with the rowing boat, as the sea is not yet icy (climate change…).
Back at home Mistress puts on a beautiful dress. It’s really sexy with a stiff pleated skirt, and i seek situations where i could fondle Her a little. We discuss my fantasy. She says ‘I will not be touching use if you are wearing female clothes’.
W/we eat the Christmas dinner, after i have done the finishing touches to it. Then killing time, Christmas coffee with chocolate cake, and handing out presents.
In the evening Mistress informs me that as a special Christmas present She will fulfil my wish. ‘Lock the door, take out the toys’. i say i will rather not be wearing stockings if it means She might touch me, masturbate me.
i may put on the posture collar, connect a leash to it, put on ankle bracelets. She orders me in bed, ties my elbows quite tightly together behind my back, then ties my wrists. i am lying in bed the wrong way, my head to the footboard. i raise my legs up in the air and She ties my wrists to the headboard tightening the rope taut. Then She ties my ankles according to my wish to the legs at the corners of the footboard, so that my knees rest on the bed each side of my head. Next She tightens my leash to the footboard, it goes by my chin. i’m now tied nearly immobile, i’m not going anywhere.
She leaves me now for a longish time, does something behind the footboard, probably puts on something sexy. She has removed my glasses so the sexy outfit will be mostly missed. my hands are getting numb quickly, i mention that to Mistress, but i don’t ask Her to stop. She says that She is not going to stop before She wants to. Now precum starts to drop from my sissy clit, and it falls between my nose and mouth, and it runs down my face. my elbows tied together behind my back, there’s no way i could move so that the precum wouldn’t drop on my face annoyingly. ‘Mistress, could you masturbate me a little?’ She doesn’t answer, instead She takes a small 9-tailed leather penis whip from the toy chest. It’s an old toy She has made Herself in the early days of O/our S/M experiments, now not used for years. She starts flogging my sissy clit, balls and my face with it. It’s surprising that my face hurts most. ‘Why did you think you would get some pleasure, slave?’, She asks. She puts a clothes peg in my ballsac. i try moving a little as my hands are now totally numb and my neck is hurting after being on my neck for so long. She pinches my buttocks, then starts removing my hands – i was already looking forward to that – but i have to land on my own on top of my numb hands. Then She frees my hands, and – gives me a minute to masturbate on my knees. My numb hand recovers to the extent that i can stroke myself, but it feels so odd masturbating with a half-numb hand. i am about to start without a permit to begin, but She takes a watch first and only then i may begin. i don’t quite reach the point of no return. Then to sleep. i thank Her for fulfilling my fantasy.

Tuesday, 20 September 2011

Balls pulled, neck bitten

Buying Christmas presents after work. At home preparing garlic-chili marinade for Mistress the whole evening. i have to peel every garlic glove individually for the marinade, and She wants a lot of it. This is one of Her favorite dishes. Of why the garlic gloves are so small - W/we have grown them by O/ourselves.

In the evening i am the first in bed, i’m so tired. As She joins me She starts groping my thong-clad buttocks, orders me to raise my ass up in the air, head down. She starts digging out my balls, takes them out of the thong. As She pulls on my balls and bites my neck i start fantasizing. The fantasy goes like this: i’m tied on my back on the bed, my legs are up in the air and spread, elbows tied between my back. i have lacy stockings. Between the stockings my view consists of a hairless crotch, it’s known that i have myself plucked all hair in advance with an epilator, regardless of the pain. my feet are tied to the headboard of the bed, so low that my sissy clit hangs in front of my mouth. i could reach out and touch it, but with my mouth only. i am not allowed to touch it. A spreader bar is fixed above my knees. Mistress settles by the headboard and starts masturbating me. i’m not allowed to cum without permission. i don’t know if i get permission later or not. She changes to the whip, whips my buttocks and asshole area into hot pain. She can stick pins into my buttocks like into a pin cushion. She might milk me using an Aneros. Probably i will not get to cum, but if i will, it will be into my own mouth and after stimulation to my sissy clit and anus have stopped a good while before my actual squirt.

As She has stopped manipulating me, i am able to tell Mistress about this fantasy.