Wednesday, 19 December 2012

Handwashing Her used panties


This is an update on O/our Tenerife holiday. i have started using the red thong as my nightdress.i have not taken epilator with me, so i use a long time each morning to pluck my hair with tweeters. i try not to give up against the stubble, though i have never tried to keep my belly and upper thighs hairless with tweeters.

On Thursday Mistress tightens my servitude. i wouldn't dare farting in Her presence. i can also easily refrain from masturbating, even though W/we have not taken the cb with U/us. She starts to control all my eating of sweets, giving me just half of a chocolate croissant after lunch as others get a full one. Instead She has poured me a glass of red wine and made me drink it up quickly - my first taste of alcohol here. i have to prepare and serve Her some 4 cups of tea each day, and occasionally serve Her a glass of red wine according to Her whims. If W/we are alone, i curtsy after laying the cup in front of Her. After preparing each meal (breakfast and lunch are prepared by me, dinner is mostly takeaway) i have to immediately wash the dishes. In the afternoon others decide to go shopping and i am left in the apartemento, i pluck hair all the time i'm alone.

On Friday morning i “epilate” long and shower, then it's time for me to get the fresh bread. After breakfast i am allowed to go to the beach while Mats still sleeps and Mistress and Lina go shopping. Mistress and Lina join me, Lina stays with me to swim in the sea, and later Mats joins me, i write my diary and finish reading The Villa of Friday. At 2pm we have got enough and go back through a supermarket, where i buy chicken and hamburger steaks for lunch. i fry the hamburgers and chicken, and afterwards old rice, potatoes and chicken for myself. i have to eat oldest leftovers so that nothing goes to waste, but Others can eat only fresh. Then tea for Mistress, coffee for me, washing the dishes. In the evening, after a walk and reading some books, i am sent with kids to get an Indian takeaway meal. At the apartemento i lay the table, pour the drinks and W/we eat. As i am clearing the table, kids get ice creams. Instead of dessert She makes me eat all the remaining relishes, the side dish that consists mainly of fresh onion. It is difficult, but manage to get it all down! Then to sleep. She orders me to kneel and sniff and choose that pair of Her used panties that has gathered the most odour. i sniff through the panties. Most of them are surprisingly smell free but one pair has clear Mistress's smell. 'you will handwash that pair in the morning as you have then good time for that' No other explanation.

Friday, 14 December 2012

Humiliating play during Tenerife holiday


Second evening i find a bright red men's thong - a thing you never normally come across - for 2 euros, and i get Mistress's permission to buy it. After W/we have eaten Indian takeaway, with me laying the table and providing the drinks, kids are tired and retire. Mistress takes me upstairs (W/we have a two floor condo) to show Her the contents of my bag. i have to get on my knees first and undress totally. i get a stiff hard-on right away. Then She orders me to take out the contents. i lay them out for Her: 9 clothespegs, 2 big clamps, 2 clover camps, ball weights, Her dildo, electric dog training collar, a leather hood with nostril holes only, a corset, stockings, a PVC skirt for Her, and 3 condoms. She thinks there's a lot of stuff there. First She orders me to show how i can make use of all the clothespegs. i put them all on my ballsac, except two on my foreskin on either side of the ring. Last one i place on the back of my ballsac. Then She orders me to add the two big clamps. i find places for them at the root of my penis, on both sides. Finally i have to put on the clover clamps on myself. i have saved my nipples in case i have to place them on me, so i touch on my nipples to get them erect (Mistress laughs on my efforts). She makes a test for me. She says She needs my weewee horizontal for it. With a little effort i can raise my penis till full mast. She puts a condom, still in its package, on top of my hard-on. i have to balance the package on my sissy clit. First it is easy, except for my penis bounces a little, the pegs and the ring at the end weighing in a pleasurable way at each bounce. As minutes go by, Mistress decides i need further challenge. She starts to manhandle the begs at my balls, twisting them and slapping them lightly. That's not a big problem, i can still balance the package, though some swaying occurs. Next She grabs the chain connecting the clover clamps and tries to hoist me off my knees by the chain. The pain is abdominal but the condom stays put.

So She decides to move on, and orders me to put the condom down for a moment, put on the electric training collar, electrodes to the front, and put my head in the leather hood and draw the zipper, hand Her the remote and replace the condom.

Now the game continues. She sends varying electric shocks to my neck, with varying intervals. i try to guess when the shock is coming, judging by the sounds i hear, but it proves unsuccessful. Each zap gets me by surprise, and makes me jerk. Anyway, the package apparently stays put, though my jerks probably put my penis in motion too. This goes on for a long time, and i still balance the condom successfully. Finally She says the package seems to be glued to my penis, as it still stays there though my penis is not horizontal any more, but pointing downward in an angle. She starts to take off the pegs, knowing how they hurt as they come off. The ones at my foreskin are soaked with precum, She doesn't want to touch them and leaves them on. The nastiest ones are the clover clamps. i whine as my nipples are freed from them and the blood returns. Finally She orders me to take off the hood and the foreskin pegs, put down the condom, and allows me to masturbate while She silently counts to 20. i start gratefully, this is my reward. However i don't dare try to edge, as She didn't mention anything about that. She continues to zap me while i jerk off, giving me finally a big jolt, which is the first to make me cry out, and orders me to stop, put everything away and put my night clothes on.

i ask Her about the setting of the last jolt: it was maximum - the only maximum jolt She gave. W/we talk about the session, and i praise Her for the idea of offsetting my pleasure with electric pain.

In the aftermath i start feeling pain in my prostate. It is an old trouble i've had. Years ago the prostate pain struck me after each orgasm. i even had my prostate examined back then by a doctor, but he found no overgrowth. As my orgasms were regulated and rare, the pain became absent and didn't hit me even after my rare full orgasms. Now that i am allowed orgasms more often, maybe the pain is coming back. As a coincidence, as my hairline is retreating, 4 months ago in August i got myself a prescription for finasterid, which is originally a drug for the overgrowth of prostate, but as a side effect stops balding. It caused some of the testosterone to change into estrogen so other side effects are breast growth and impotence. Sounds like fun. Well, my breasts have grown significantly over the last few years, but i cannot tell whether it has gained speed during the last 4 months. But what i am more interested in, is whether my prostate pain is also being cured by finasterid. Cannot tell.

Saturday, 8 December 2012

Quality cuckolding reading


On Tuesday it's time for O/our long awaited holiday in Tenerife. i took a random book from O/our bookshelf as my travel reading, Alberto Moravia's book of short stories, Friday's villa (La villa de venedri). i was surprised to find it exactly the right reading for me. The main theme is adultery and even cuckolding. The first story is about a couple, whose wife spends all weekends with her lover. Also some S/M included. Next story is about sexual encounters of a 18-year old and a nymphomaniac wife who cuckolds his husband with a multitude of men. Also some of the following stories include cuckoldry scenery.

Mistress has informed me that all meals, shopping for groceries and handwashing dishes in O/our apartemento are for me to do.   

Monday, 3 December 2012

Learning the modes


Next week goes uneventfully in Mode 1, and on Saturday Mistress is away on a fair. On Sunday She orders Mode 2 again, i make rice porridge for all, and after that Mistress wants U/us to take a walk. She decides the route, i follow, one step behind at the crossroads. Back at home She makes me iron Her skirt and my jacket and hang laundry. Then She wants U/us to go to a Christmas market in O/our town, She decides what W/we buy. Back at home, i am ordered to make lunch, and after that prepare cookie dough. This time Mats is making the cookies. There's a lot of cleaning up for me to do after that. In the evening i am allowed to do some of my professional work with my laptop, no fun. However, She asks me to prepare a bag full of S/M gear to take with me on O/our forthcoming holiday!

Saturday, 24 November 2012

Licking Her pussy


On Sunday Mistress informed me the Mode 2 continues also today. Lina is at her sleepover, so also a serving costume in the morning could be possible, but W/we hear noises: Mats is up early for the first time in years. So slave costume gets cancelled.

It's a morning of fetching, moving things, making tea etc: being at Her beck and call. That ends at midday, as W/we were invited to a party. i drive U/us there, open car doors politely to Her and escort Her to the ball. i wear the cb of course.

In the evening i warm up the sauna and prepare cold smoked salmon pasta. Mistress is not happy with my performance, i read the paper in the kitchen while i cook, and She doesn't give me any gifts as W/we get to bed.

On Tuesday night after two days in Mode 1 Mistress surprises me by wanting sex as W/we get to bed. It's only 3 days since O/our latest fuck that left me with blue balls. She orders me to squeeze Her butt , along with light touches on the nipples. Next She makes me lie on my back with my hands crossed behind my back (no ties), as She straddles my face and has me lick Her already quite moist pussy. Then She fetches a condom and makes me take off the foreskin ring and put the condom on. Then She mounts me and takes Her turn to fuck me by moving Her hips up and down so Her pussy slides along my shaft. She raises Herself a little giving me some working space to fuck Her from below. Later She wants to be fucked doggy style and She orgasms, throwing me over the edge as She cums, making me cum just moments after Her.

Tuesday, 20 November 2012

Slave mode Saturday


On Saturday night Mistress asks if i'm ready for Mode 2. i say i am, as it is already 6 days from my latest orgasm. i am wearing cb-2000 with large points of intrigue, foreskin ring lock to the end of the cb, and jeans and tight shirt on top of them. My crotch is epilated in the morning except for the small triangle of pubes.

First She makes me kneel and orders me to take garbage out, wash and dry the garbage bin and then make a cookie dough, and to be quick about it. As i make the dough Mistress comes by and wonders why it takes so much time. She makes me kneel again to bark at me. As i am ready, and the dough put into fridge for 10 hours, She makes me put on outdoor wear, take my wallet and cell phone and also fetch a rugsack. She takes U/us on a walk from O/our house, during the first turns it occurs to me W/we are probably going to an outdoor market, near U/us only this weekend. There She makes me follow Her and pay for Her purchases (some expensive yarn for Her handiwork).

As W/we get home, i get ordered to do some small tasks, and then prepare the lunch. She has approved my idea of cold smoked salmon with lensil-carrot sauce, but ordered also cooked carrots, corn and peas. During laying of the table She decides it's time for the Christmas theme, and i have to clear the table, and put on a red tablecloth of Her choosing, and candles. After the meal She orders green tea so that every kid hears. As i make it i start scraping the remains from an empty syrup box into my mouth. Mistress notices, and asks who allowed me to eat sweets, again kids hear. i say with a weak voice that i thought it's OK to scrape empty kitchenware... She is angry, and later makes me kneel and shouts at me for not obeying Her orders and slaps my face three times with a wooden paintbrush. Last slap hits me on the cheekbone, it stings a lot, makes me put my hand on the spot. She tells me harshly not to start weeping and sends me off. My cheeks remain red and sore.

i give Her the tea. She asks for biscuits with the tea. i give Her the cookie box. She eats the last ones, and then collects the pieces, makes me tilt my head so my mouth is up (W/we are alone now) and drops the crumbs to my mouth, makes me wait, gets the salt, and drops some salt directly to my mouth - now i may swallow. She asks if i would like some cookies. i say i would prefer chocolate pieces or ice cream. She says if i clean up the kitchen now so well She cannot find any dirty stains, i get some pieces of chocolate.
i try to do a thorough job, but as She checks out She finds dirt in a couple of cabinet doors and the fridge handle. No chocolate for me.

i follow Mistress around and She gives me various small tasks:
-'take those rotten apples from the porch to compost'
-'Get me my weaving from upstairs'.
Then She says She must not be disturbed for a long time, and mentions various tasks i must do in the mean time and makes me compile a list of them: empty dishwasher and clean up kitchen, empty washing machine when ready and put those that don't have lycra in the dryer, make Christmas menu , take care of the boat battery, make apple chisel, empty garbage bins, peel one carrot for Her, put my old magazines that i have saved in plastic bags, take them to recycling as i carry Lina to her sleepover at 5pm and make enchilados for dinner, plus sauna ready at 6pm.

That tells you how my next 3-4 hours went. i didn't dare take off my piercing ring this time, i went to sauna before the others, and did water aerobics. i fantazised about multiple slaves doing jumping jacks in the pool all with rings in their cocks. Pierced cocks are so full of symbolism. After sauna Mistress wants to have a try making Christmas cookies, i have to help and wash the surfaces that are now full of flour and dough.

Mistress decided W/we were having sex in the night, so i had to take off the ring anyway, with the help of Mistress, as She doesn't like the feel of the ring inside Her. No ooze, it is healing well. She put on a corset (the same i used some time ago) and stockings first. There was a lot of licking Her then, and She seemed to like the feel of a full flat tongue moving on Her clit very much, must take note of that. Also fucking Her with my nose in 69 position (without Her mouth on my sissy clit of course) was another favourite of Hers - She handed me a hankie to wipe my nose afterwards. First i was to make love to Her on my knees, as She sat on the edge of the bed. Then lying by Her side, and finally doggy style. My foreskin was partially covering my glans, at least the sensitive bulbous ridge that goes around it, so i did not orgasm, and Shed left me without one.

Monday, 19 November 2012

Maid's dress for me


So Mistress is away for this week. However She leaves me work to do: i must clean up all the rest of the mushrooms She picked and iron my mother's dress Mistress is going to wear at aparty W/we got invited. She says that after i have done these tasks, i am allowed to order me a maid's costume. She thought first She would do a maid's dress for me, but decided not to.

i will wear cb-2000 daily while Mistress is away. i have a set of keys, but i must keep them at home, so i am totally locked by my piercing all other times. Well, on Monday the foreskin is so sore i don't use the lock on the piercing, but all other days i do. i take the cb off only for sleeping, and i have so much self control that only on third night i masturbate, not for long and of course not to a conclusion.

i browse Fetlife and other net sites, in the evenings, work on my blog and on Wednesday i start going through the maid's dresses. Sissyheaven seems the only one that produces made-to-measure dresses so i choose their design. Next i measure my body. i decide to do it with Mistress when She comes back.

Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Problems with piercing


Now my piercing is 5 weeks old and as it has healed well, i must start taking it off for O/our all-family sauna times. First i take off the bead and roll the ring a full circle in the piercing. As the ring re-enters the piercing, it takes a little time until it finds the route to follow. When the first part of the ring re-emerged from the piercing hole, it pushed some ooze out of the hole. The hole has always seemed dry, so i was surprised, and thought it best to keep the ring, now without the bead, in the piercing anyway. i hid the ring with a magazine from Mats in the sauna. i remained last as i had lost time struggling with the ring. As i was showering i panicked: the ring had disappeared! i hadn't realized it can slid out so easily once you have removed the bead! i searched the sauna floor, nothing. i was already looking into the bathroom floor drain as i stumbled upon the ring on the bathroom floor. i had not heard a thing as it fell, odd. Now i had to put the ring back to the piercing after all, and it was difficult. The tunnel in the foreskin is long, and now, as the ring had been off longer, it took time and effort to find the right route for the ring. At last i succeeded but as the ring emerged from the other end of the hole, it pushed before it white matter - not much, but some. Also, the piercing was now sore.

In the evening Mistress wanted some fun, and i was made to find Her a white corset and stockings from O/our toy chest. She also made me remove the ring from my foreskin again, i had not tried to replace the bead so it was easy. She was in the last phases of Her period so instead of me licking Her i had to practise again light touches to Her breasts and somewhat more powerful caresses to Her buttocks. She made me put on a condom, foreskin back, as She wanted to give me a full orgasm as part of Her experiment and because She was going into a spa for next whole week. W/we hugged closely, and She flipped me on my back and mounted me, fucked me from above. She has great pelvic muscles and i have had some of the most mindblowing orgasms as i lay flat and motionless on my back until Her fucking triggered the orgasm. Now She wanted me to fuck Her from below, from the top, from the side and on all fours finally, until W/we both orgasmed, me a second before Her. She likes the simultaneous orgasms.


Sunday, 11 November 2012

Serving Mistress and Lina


Next evening Mistress surprised me by making out with me in the bed and making me lick Her pussy thoroughly as She lied on the bed on Her back. Then She ordered me to fetch the dildo, and She proceeded to use it on Her, ordering me to lie under Her, sucking on Her nipple until She came. Now W/we had both come by O/our own hand.

The rest of the week goes in relaxed mode, but on Sunday at 10am W/we have a talk and the rest of the Sunday is strict protocol, 'second mode' as W/we call it. Now She has combined 2nd mode with calling me off. As i obey, She tells me how stupid i am, if i don't understand Her commands right. She makes me put fire in the fireplace, get more firewood, clean the living room, and plan lunch, which must be something special, it is Sunday lunch after all. i propose chili chicken, and She approves it. Next folding laundry and putting it in place. After that She takes an old toothbrush that has been downgraded as a sink brush and washes my teeth with it as a gift. i try to get hard, but because of the points of intrigue my penis nowadays knows better, and gets only semi-erect.

She allows me to start with the lunch, and orders me to make an applepie as dessert. As i begin, i notice that i have forgotten to stock U/us with beans, so i have to change to Indonesian wok with rice, Mistress approves that. As the wok cooks i prepare the applepie, so that it is ready as W/we finish eating. i also lay the table.

After She has eaten, Mistress goes to Her laptop and orders tea while that Lina hears it. (Can't get Mats up from the bed before 1pm on weekends nowadays). i am still eating but i stop that and make tea and bring it to Her, asking if i can also bring some applepie. She says yes, and Lina, doing her homework by Her side, says yes too. i bring some pie to them both, and continue my eating. As i make coffee for myself, i ask if She wants more, and She does.

Next She tells me to pay the bills and put more money on Her account. As i am doing that She comes in with a banana She has peeled. It is rotten so i'll have to eat it instead of Her.

She's going to a walk in the woods, and orders me to shop for groceries, and purchase a new bed for Lina, and after that take Mats to his hobby and go to the gym myself. i have to hurry to be able to complete all this in the 2-3 hours time allocated. As we get home, Mistress is there with a really big amount of mushrooms She has picked i the forest.
The evening goes as i clean the mushrooms and warm up the sauna.

Tuesday, 6 November 2012

Into the slave mode again


In the Sunday morning Lina was on a sleepover and Mats always sleeps until 1pm in the weekends, so Mistress decided it was time for Mode 2. She didn't use any special sign, W/we just talked about it.

First She ordered me to strip everything and don the frilly small apron W/we bought from Spain. It left my whole backside naked. i had encouraged Her to show Her anger to me while i'm in drag, and as i reported to Her and knelt before Her, and told Her i took everything off but the cb with the medium PoI, She said:
-It's just right for a wanker like you. you are so stupid .

She seemed to really think that way and i just said
-'yes, Mistress'
-'Kitchen s dirty as hell, clean it up.'

i set out, scrubbing the stove well, putting all dishes into dishwasher and washing all surfaces. Mistress came by and poked my butt. i had just started washing cabinet doors as She asked me to report. After i reported, She let me continue with the doors.
She was taking bits of dirt off Her hair curler and gathering it in the sink. She told me to take the dirt away from the sink and i did it by my hands. The dirt was greasy so i had to wash the last stains off. Then She made me dissemble the plumbing under the sink and clean it. How appropriate for a half naked maid dressed in a frilly white apron to wash up the sludge from the sewers. i worked carefully, rinsing everything up many times. As i was ready, i was assigned to wash up the laundry room sink and then some juice bottles. After all this it was lunch time and She made me prepare lunch for the two of us. i prepared it with cold smoked salmon and potatoes, and W/we ate it, with me still wearing only the apron, sitting on the cold kitchen chair with my bare bum.

Then i needed to put my regular clothes on, as Mistress left to fetch Lina. The D/s mode continued the whole day. She ordered me to the gym with Her, and i had to make dinner with Her favourite dessert blackcurrant blancmange and warm up the firewood-heated sauna simultaneously. A few rounds of kitchen cleaning on top of that and i was through.

In the evening came the conclusion. She had given me a few hints earlier on that i might be made to masturbate, and in the evening She made me take off the chastity belt, put on a condom and kneel by Her. She ordered me to masturbate to a full orgasm, something She has never ordered. She wanted to experiment on a new orgasm regime for me, where regular orgasms keep my need for D/s at lower levels that are more manageable for Her. It took me surprisingly long to orgasm. i had had an orgasm 8 days earlier in O/our intercourse, and maybe that frequency is too much for me after getting used to a ruined orgasm once in 2-3 weeks only. The orgasm itself was a devastating experience, a supervised wank.

Saturday, 3 November 2012

Ball stretcher weights arrive


On Friday my ball stretcher weight arrived. It was from extremeballstretchers.com, and they had added a custom removable bolt on either side to hang additional weights from. Mistress is not much into stretching the scorotum but using it as a weight carrier at times. The steel was of good quality. i thought they would have been ring bolts, but they were regular bolts, but it doesn't matter, i can hang weights from these bolts too.

i tried it on right away, while Mistress was partying. With the cb-2000 the effect is a bit problematic in long term use. The width of the stretcher is only 25mm, but with the cb it pushes balls back between my legs, and makes walking uneasy. It may also cause pinching of skin between the stretcher and the cb. i used it for 24 hours, also without the cb


Tuesday, 23 October 2012

New article: training a slave to cum in its own mouth

i have added a new text about training a slave to cum in its own mouth. You can find it here

Monday, 22 October 2012

Outlining D/s in a new way


The next day W/we outlined O/our new relationship. W/we would stop 24/7 and start dividing O/our time to uptime and downtime. She can give me a sign (which She later defines) to put me into submission. i will have to start following Her orders right from that mark. W/we will arrange more time for just the two of us (after Her project at work is over in January) and i will be allowed to get a maid costume to be Her maid during those times (and many many times after kids leave home). i am encouraged to plan and arrange activities for kids so that W/we can be alone.

During downtime (most working days at least) i will be basically free, but in chastity, at least if i'm not with Mistress i will be locked through the foreskin ring. i will have to epilate everything that will show between a corset and the stocking tops, save a small, neat triangle of pubes, that i will now let grow back. i will have to do my fair share of the homework without any prospect of being dominated. i have no limitations for bathroom, net, nor TV.

After Saturday W/we have now had only downtime. For the first time in years i decided by myself on Sunday morning that i will take leaf piles to compost, protect plants with wire nets and carry firewood to our firewood shed. It was kind of cool. Then i made lunch for U/us and my mother-in-law, a Mediterranean vegetable soup with fresh basilica sauce. Veggie foods are Wife's favourites, and i had planned ahead that i will do that soup. Then She surprised me by ordering me to take Mats to his hobby and go to the gym while i wait for him.

After that i had to warm up the sauna, so it was pretty much like it used to be with the exception that i could browse the net freely in the evening looking for maid costumes, and boy, did i find some beauties. W/we went through the dresses with Mistress, and She decided She will make me a maid's costume, next year after Her project.

Everything has been fine after the showdown, i think. This new system seems much more feasible.

Saturday, 20 October 2012

Back to being a Domme


On Friday night She told me She wasn't into being a switch any more. She was a Domme, but She wanted also intellectual input from me as an equal from time to time, and wanted sometimes to give and receive little and sensitive caresses. She also said She wanted me to have simultaneous orgasms with Her, as that rendered better orgasms for Her. Also fucking with my foreskin drawn forward inside a condom didn't feel as good as with bare glans. i said that maybe it is good that i am allowed more orgasms and my sexual drive diminishes somewhat.

W/we watched Eyes Wide Shut and proceeded to fuck, Her way. W/we caressed each other lightly, She wanted me to touch Her breasts, nipples and the insides of Her thighs very lightly and then with my fingertips only. She got very excited from that and made me lick Her pussy and fuck Her from behind with my nose. With every thrust of my nose i licked Her clit or made contact between the tip of my tongue and Her vulva. She let me go on for a good while and got more and more excited as my nose got wetter and wetter. Then She ordered me to get the dildo and fuck Her with the dildo. i held the dildo in my hand, fucking Her under Her, on my back on the bed as She was on all fours. i pushed the dildo gently halfway in, started flicking it in and out in a small movement. She lowered Herself to an almost sitting position, and i started licking Her clit as i fucked Her with the dildo. She liked it, but not to a conclusion. She said later the feelings didn't back up each other. When She uses the dildo on Herself, She gets a precise, targeted action which results in a strong orgasm, but if the dildo is handled in a wrong way, it may cause pain. Eventually i was allowed to put on a condom, foreskin back, and fuck Herself and me to an orgasm. It was great!

Thursday, 18 October 2012

The biggest crisis of O/our relationship


There has been ups and downs in O/our D/s saga. As you may know, the texts i'm posting are my old diary entries. Current posts describe things that happened two years since the beginning of O/our D/s relationship. The first year had been superb, but then a slide started. The all time low of O/our relationship was reached one a sad November Tuesday. After that a new, but slow rise started and currently O/Our D/s is again well and strong.

On that fatal Tuesday Mistress bossed me around unlike most days, but i decided this time i'm speaking my mind. i said to Her things like 'you don't have to say please to me', 'you don't have to apologize for me' and so on, every time She said something that seemed lame from the D/s perspective. She hissed back at me 'Don't try to change what I am', and W/we had a serious discussion in which i confessed i long for trying out being a sissy maid with appropriate costume, being a slave to a couple or having a fellow slave, or being cuckolded. Well, i think She knew all of that, but it was new that i said thinks like those being part of my innermost feelings, and a need, and that i have been considering seriously my life since the first D/s break-up that had happened two months ago.

i really wanted a change. i had understood for months that the D/s like W/we were doing it was not developing, and W/we needed to break it up and think of something else. She didn't really want to overpower me, to force me into anything. i wanted the discussion to concentrate on the new dynamics of the relationship, but it revolved around the breakup issue, and the next day was so gloomy i can't believe it, with much crying, W/we sleeping in separate beds etc.

On Thursday i had got Her convinced i didn't want a breakup, just get O/our thing together. She was earlier a switch, so i suggested dominating Her. i ordered Her to strip and dress in a corset, stockings, high heels and a pvc skirt, topless. Then i had Her pose for me. She didn't look so happy so i ordered Her to smile and proceeded to dominate Her like i thought She liked to be dominated: no pain, just kneading Her breasts and buttocks. i even ordered Her to arch Her back and stick Her ass in the air as She was waiting on all fours to be taken by me. She was as wet as can be, and i fucked Her for the first time with my foreskin ring on. The ring made Her feel uneasy, and She didn't cum.

Monday, 15 October 2012

Supervised masturbation with foreskin ring


The week goes by, Thursday at 8.30 is the playtime. Clothes off, cb off, Mistress settles in bed under the blanket. She decides i put the big new clamps in my titties and ball sac. Then She orders me to put on a corset and stockings! First time in years. Then She made me alternate between waiting on my knees and stroking 30 second batches. She made me take time by myself and looked unhappy, something's wrong. She gave me permission to remove the ball clamps, which hurt very much from the beginning. She informed that 2 minutes were left, and asked me what i wanted to do. i had been quite close, though the foreskin ring is a bit painful while masturbating, and i asked to be allowed to try ruined orgasm in 30 seconds. She granted it without further ado, i tried my fast handiwork but the ring and the clamps in my nipples maybe caused me to fail perform in 30 seconds. Time's out, you lost.

During the weekend the D/s improved again. Little signs, acknowledging the power... 'Get me another cup of tea' and so on. Sunday was the father's day. i got smallish presents: a flower and a toilet paper hanger. In the morning Mistress announced that i was supposed to prepare a better-than-usual father's day Sunday lunch. However first i was instructed to join Her out. i didn't know what for, but She ordered me on the beach, empty O/our rowing boat and take poses in the rowboat for Her pics. Then i needed to put on the rows and row Her out on the sea for some more pics and a stroll on an island. i rowed Her back and needed to take care of the boat again, She didn't bother to help at all, which was cool. She ordered me to take various things from the beach sauna to the house, and get on with the lunch. i made whitefish the veracruz style with rice, She liked it and left of course everything for me to clear up after the meal.

Thursday, 11 October 2012

Piercing lock trouble


The piercing lock i used stop working, i couldn't get it locked anymore. Now i had time to find a new one, and on Sunday morning, after epilation it was double lock time again. The piercing is healing fast. i even hung the new, quite heavy lock from the piercing ring, and it wouldn't hurt. Piercing lock is quite practical. The only problem is the locks i have used are quite sharp-edged, and sometimes they turn and touch glans, which sends a shock wave. However that is very rare, experienced only once, and been using the now 4 days. Anyway, i will try to find a smaller and smooth-edged lock. i have started to draw my foreskin back before putting it into cb, so the foreskin ring rests on top of penis and it easy to lock to 'C-ring'.

Mistress also allowed me to order ball stretcher weights, and I browsed them after locking myself in. i tried my dimensions by tying a thin rope around the base of my sac many times, wearing it and measuring the diameter of the rope (by dividing the perimeter of a loop by 6,3). Surprisingly the diameter only showed less than 2cm. All weights i found had 1 3/8'' diameter, which is about 3,5cm. The smallest i found were 1'' (2,5 cm), and they had no ring bolts for hanging extra weights. My Mistress even made me wear a 2kg weight once. Anyway, i emailed the manufacturer about delivery to Norway.

Today Mistress decides i am blowing leaves from O/our yard once again. Then making lunch, and She sends me to the gym before i have to warm up the sauna.

Tuesday, 9 October 2012

Mistress's odd randez-vous


i had not had time to epilate in two days, so i had a much bigger pluck & epilate work to do on Saturday morning. As Mistress came downstairs, i greeted Her with the usual
-'good morning, may You have green or black tea, Madam'
After breakfast Mistress told me to make lunch bags, and put on warm clothes. She directed me to the car, and told me to drive to Lillehammer. She said She has a date there. As W/we reached the destination, She told me to wait in the car. i saw She greeted a woman by a near farmhouse, and spent maybe 40 minutes inside. I didn't know what was going on. As She returned She disclosed what was the purpose: to purchase some material She needs at work. Then She guided me to a nature trail nearby and we walked, ate lunch sandwiches in the forest, picked last mushrooms of the autumn.

At home i had to prepare lunch for all, W/we ate, then Mistress asked me to get pen and paper so She can list me outdoor chores for the rest of the day. i was allowed to make myself coffee, but She ordered me to take it with my in a thermos mug and drink it while working! i had to clean the boat, store the battery for winter and cover the boat. Afterwards i managed to cut a bunch of flowers, next on Her list, before it became too dark. Then i had to bake a chocolate cake for Mats's birthday party, and rent a movie for the party with Mats. After getting the movie They started to watch TV, i could go to Fetlife.

PS. First time more than 1000 pageloads per day (6th Oct). Thank you readers.

Saturday, 6 October 2012

A wet dream and a thorough kitchen cleaning


On Friday morning i woke up with memories of something happening during the night, and my wet willy confirmed it: i had got a wet dream. Maybe provoked by last night somehow? Some tend to think wet dream is a good way for a chastity slave to keep the plumbing working. Yes - the only problem is it removes some of the sexual energy.

Right after work i did grocery shopping for the weekend in 3 shops, getting all the best deals from each shop. Mistress SMS'd me that They are going to have a coffee at a new nearby cafe/restaurant that opened. i was allowed to join Them, and have a hamburger meal. Great!

Then i had to take Lina to Her hobby, and as i got home, Mistress ordered me to use the next hour to make a thorough kitchen cleaning: all doors, surfaces and bottoms of drawers. i started the work, did a lot of work removing all stains from the stove, cleaned all surfaces, and after 45 minutes i came to Mistress and said i'm ready. She looked very annoyed, i looked very small, She pulled first drawer open, and then i knew it: i had forgotten the insides of cabinets and drawers. i started to empty kettle drawers, washed the bottom, and then the next one. Now it turned out i didn't have enough time before i had to leave for Lina. I had to finish the drawers in the late hours of Friday.

Thursday, 4 October 2012

Supervised ruined orgasm


The piercing seemed fine in the morning so, after consulting Mistress, i am today again in piercing-enforced chastity.

In the evening Mistress takes command and orders me to change clothes after eating, make fire in the fireplace, and attend to it while cleaning the fridge up, all shelves, walls, doors - it has to be immaculate. As i slave away, i notice it really needs cleaning. Mistress says that She had to clean up the micro also, i have been doing poorly in kitchen. As i report to Mistress after the fridge is cleaned, She tells me in Her study that She is busy and if i don't find anything to do myself, i may have free time. Well, free time it is, me updating the blog.

Finally as i have made supper sandwiches for myself, Mistress comes to me and asks 'Are you now going to start to eat?' i rose politely, and looked like a question mark, so She continued 'It's 8.30 pm'. As I still didn't get it, She added 'It's Thursday'. i had forgotten my weekly half an hour of play time! How embarrassing! i have no idea how it is possible.

Anyway, i was soon upstairs in O/our bedroom. Mistress ordered me to strip everything, also the cb. She looked closely as i unlocked my new piercing. Next She told me to open the chest and put on a dog collar and a corset. She has not many times asked me to wear a corset, so i was positively surprised. i tried on a strict white corset of Hers, but could only close a couple of hooks. Then i changed into a lacy, not so tight corset, originally my present to Her. i closed it at the front and then i had to turn it 180 degrees on me, really tight fit, but succeeded.

Next She wanted handcuffs, and cuffed my hands behind my back. She ordered me to time myself, and masturbate a minute on my knees, like i was. Putting my left hand further behind my back i managed to grab my clitty with my right hand even though I was cuffed. The ring hindered me from grabbing my glans in my hand, but concentrating on the underside i could masturbate quite successfully. After the minute i had to take my hand off, and wait silently on my knees, clitty throbbing, until She ordered me another minute to masturbate. i accelerated to a quick rhythm, and thought i could maybe succeed, but not enough time. Then i had to wait another longish time, as She read Her book, and '30 seconds'. During that i asked if i could edge, She answered 'definitively not'. i started thinking maybe She doesn't allow it this time, but after another pause She ordered me to move and kneel on my side of my bed. She doesn't want my cum on the floor by Her side of the bed. Like i guessed, She now ordered me to wank for 30 seconds, with an option to edge if i can. With intensive hand movement i was able to reach my limit in 20 seconds, and with a little sigh caused by the release i withdraw my hand, and in a second a couple of white drops leaked from my erect penis on the floor forming a little pool there. It was over, my first ruined orgasm with the foreskin ring.
After washing up my penis and changing back to my normal clothes, i licked it all up from the floor without having to be asked.

Wednesday, 3 October 2012

Tight discipline day


Mistress continued the tight discipline on Tuesday. She ordered me to eat oldest leftovers, potatoes and beetroot cassarole only and scrape clean the bowls that family had emptied. As i had eaten She was sitting on the sofa and told me to load the cd-player with Her favourite music and if She didn't like it, i would be made to redo it. Next i was ordered to have a cake with a glass of white wine, the cheapest sort that i may buy for myself, and sit by the oak table while eating.

i stood on Her left looking at Her hands for possible hand signals each time i had completed the order. As i had folded all laundry, ironed my trench, i asked if i could have some free time, but Mistress told me to prepare tomorrow's meal for the kids – it must be waiting for them when they get home. i prepared enchilados, double amount, and had to go and shop for groceries in the middle. When it was ready, it was supper time and kids ate already big part of it. i ate sandwiches. After that a little free time in the net and to bed early.

Monday, 1 October 2012

Treated as a servant in front of O/our kids


Monday was the first day i was piercing-locked at work, without any means of escaping. It worked fine, some pee went on the lock the first time i peed. In the evening the area was however a bit red, so Mistress decided i don't use piercing-lock tomorrow, only cb, to ease the healing process. The piercing also oozed a little, found it hardened on the ring in the evening.

i was home before Madam, a thing that has not happened lately. i welcomed Her at the door, fixed Her and myself a dish and served it. She ordered me around the whole evening, which was excellent. Small tasks like 'Make me a cup of tea', 'Get me my sketch book from my study', 'Take the garbage out, empty the biowaste into compost and wash up the biowaste bucket'. There was no time to watch my favourite TV tonight either, as i was kept cooking, cleaning up the kitchen, painting boards for Mistress's and Her carpenter's project, getting apple juice from the cellar and taking summer coats to the basement, emptying all waste baskets, planning the menu etc. Madam started watching TV and allowed me to lie at and partially under Her legs and warm up Her cold legs though Mats was present.

There was one thing in O/our household that still reminded of the old days and had to be changed. i had the larger compartment of the cloth cabinet by O/our main door. Today that was changed, as i emptied all my clothes and shoes from it, washed it up, and moved Mistress's clothes, shoes, scarfs, hats etc. in it, and put my clothes in the small sidecabinet.

After all the work i went to salon where Madam and the kids were watching telly. Madam didn't thank me but asked me not to block view to telly, oops, i was standing partially in Her way. Then She asked me to make Her tea and two tomato-emmental sandwiches - treating me as a servant in front of O/our kids. The result was extraordinary, my penis tried hardest in many days to get erect. Public humiliation seems to be my kink. i asked Her permission to eat myself too. After that i still had to prepare food for tomorrow: kebab. No playing in the bed. Madam seems not use me for sex anymore.

Monday, 24 September 2012

Piercing already in chastity use


i woke up before my vibrator alarm. i had found a small lock for my foreskin piercing. After epilating i put on the cb-2k over my piercing, and then circled the foreskin ring and the cb-2k 'B-ring' with the lock. i was truly locked now, no pull-out possibility. Besides i wore the medium points of intrigue, like always. Now i could start using a larger A-ring as pull-out is o longer an option.

i took new pictures of my piercing-locked penis and then i uploaded them in Fetlife. Then i had to start preparing breakfast and laying the table. As Mistress woke and sat at the table, i thought it was laid well but She made me fetch cinnamon for Her as it was missing . i handed it to Her with a curtsey as W/we were alone. Then She mistook salt for sugar, and put too much salt in Her rice porridge. i offered to eat it and W/we exchanged plates.

Mistress decided W/we lift the boat from water today, so that's where i spent next hours. i suck at men's work like that. i even suggested to Madam She should do that in the future with a man, or even with another woman it would be easier than with me. She lead the whole operation, i was a helping hand.

Back at home i was in my own territory, as i prepared lunch, chicken in mustard sauce and red rice. It is essential a slave's duty is not mistaken for only cooking - when W/we eat, i also lay the table, fill Mistress's glass with water, and clear the table, put everything in dishwasher, clean up the whole kitchen after my cooking, including the sink trap. Then i run the dishwasher and empty it. Without having to be asked to. It is all part of making Mistress happy.

It's funny how i now get my biggest erections not from net porn, which i may browse in my very limited free time, but from those Mistress's orders that emphasize Her status. Like when after a tedious lunch and cleanup She makes me run errands, make Her tea, bake U/us an applepie.

The new piercing sometimes causes misconfort. First pee with the piercing lock ended up with most pee wetting the lock. When penis tries to erect inside the cage, some pinching may occur. When Mistress decided we'll go to the gym, and once at the gym the ring in the piercing pinched against something and i had to go to the toilet to draw on my foreskin through the bars of cb-2k. After that i could exercise in my chastity piercing quite normally.

After gym i was exhausted. i was allowed a break and i slept almost immediately on the couch for 30 minutes. Then work continued: Indian shrimp curry, rice and more chicken fillets for dinner. Kids eat so much nowadays. At the same time warming up the sauna. Third time today i laid the table nicely. In the sauna i hid my penis ring from kids' view with a paper i read. As it heals, i will be removing it for sauna/swim. No sauna beer any more for me once a week, only diet coke.

After sauna W/we ate, i forgot to eat old leftovers myself, that was a pity. After cleaning the kitchen up the umpteenth time today and spooling the dishes, i reported and thought to get freetime, but no, still i had to fold laundry, iron Her skirt and still make a beetroot cassarole as per Her request. Others were watching TV while i worked. i got only half an hour net time and missed my favorite TV shows.

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Foreskin piercing's healing well


Next day (Saturday) started with the new alarm clock. The vibrating is quite strong, so Mistress woke up a little, but (he said later it is much better than using my phone as alarm. i fixed my Fetlife-profile after epilating and made breakfast. Mistress was organising training for Her workers today, and She provided me a long list of chores to do: emptying boat, putting garden furniture in the shed, blowing leaves away, collecting and moving them, mowing the lawn, going to town to shop for certain listed items, taking care of laundry etc. i started doing the chores right away, before She left. At 10am arrived Her carpenter bringing the last boards, as i was blowing leaves away from the front yard. He parked his car there, so i had to stop that and go emptying the boat while Mistress and carpenter discussed their project.

The fresh piercing inside my cb-2k was healing well, there was practically no pain. Skin getting stuck between the parts of the cb is much bigger pain than any related to the foreskin piercing. So i could even run without trouble, all yard work was possible right away.

After i got back from town, and had completed the town chore list, i was to make lunch for myself and the kids. After that i took a break and worked on my Fetlife profile.

As i was mowing the lawn Mistress returned. i still mowed nearly an hour, and walked in exhausted . Mistress gave me time to rest before made me vacuum Her study.

In the evening She ordered me to drink some wine with Her. It went soon to my head, as i had been weeks without any liquor. i thought She was going to seduce me, but no such luck. i was allowed to bed before others.


Sunday, 16 September 2012

i got my foreskin piercing


Today i finally got my first piercing, a 12 gauge captive bead ring, diameter 19mm, in my foreskin, middle in the top side, horizontally near the end so that the ring rests beautifully on and around my penis head. After getting Mistress's approval a few days ago i called a piercing studio in Oslo beforehand, whether they do foreskins (found it on the net saying “genital piercings”). He said i can come whenever i like, but many make an appointment after hours as only a curtain separates the waiting room and the chair. He said it is however normally quite peaceful, so i decided i go without appointment.

i took keys to cb-2000 with me, but left it on, as i intended showing it to the piercer to ask his opinion on the jewelry that could not be opened easily if the ring is in the cock cage.

As i entered the studio i was happy to notice i was the only customer. But as i had just had time to mention the piercing's going to be for a chastity belt, a group of noise teenage girls entered. After that they heard everything: as i asked about the gauge, the diameter of the ring etc. From many of the comments they heard i'm going to have a genital piercing on loose skin. However i couldn't ask about my cb because of their presence.

We settled on 12 gauge, which he suggested, and i had thought about exactly the same.

Finally it was time to open my pants and sit on the piercing chair. He said i can scream, swear or yell if i like, but the pain will be short-lived. i pulled mysissy clit out of the pink cb-2000 (well that's the reason for being here, i could have said) and for the first time a man (a young slim piercer, his arms full of tattoos, shaved blonde head, tunnels in ears) started fingering my penis, disinfecting, marking with ink, changing gloves many times, taking hold of the skin with his tools, asking if i'm ready, saying that i should try not to move too much, and that i seem very peaceful. Then he said the lousy part comes now, and pushed the piercing needle through my penis skin. i had anticipated, say a piercing pain, but it was much, much less. Less than a vaccination. i didn't make a sound. The most painful part was pushing the jewelry into the piercing. i mentioned about that and he said they use a little thinner needle than the jewelry to make a tight fit that blocks the bleeding. When the ring was in place i still felt no pain. Magnificent, i was in a bliss. In the end of my penis was now hanging a rather impressive ring, i had done it and fought my fears.
my new foreskin piercing

In no pain i walked to a nearby store where i got the vibrating alarm clock so that Mistress does not have to get disturbed by my early rises any more. At least now, 30 hours later, the ring is painless and i can roll the ring around in the piercing without pain.

As i got home i had barely time to eat, and needed to go get Lina to her hobby, shop for groceries and have Mistress's car washed. She has not yet commented much on the ring. I think She doesn't like it much, because it was originally my wish not Hers.

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

Supervised countdown masturbation in a hood


Thursday came, again my meeting with an investor in Oslo was postponed, so was my piercing, which i was going to do in a studio which required no reservations. However i was happy as Thursday meant my weekly half an hour of fun with Mistress. To help Mistress i prepared one paper sheet with possible gear and things to do besides supervised masturbation. i worked on Her net pages until it was 8.30, and then She sent me up, and had me open O/our toy chest.

She ordered me to strip totally, take off the cb and put on my leather hood which has only nostril holes. It was fun being made to wear the all leather hood Mistress made by Herself many years ago. We were twentysomething then. But it was not so fun to put on ball weights, 2kg. My balls ached from the prolonged excitement without a release, and it was really painful to carry the 2kg weight with just my balls. My ball sac went long, the balls were down, and the strap (we don't own a parachute) was resting on the balls. i could walk to Mistress according to Her order, but only resting the weight partly on my knees, which i kept together, while feeling my way to Her with the hood on. It must have looked funny.

She said She had planned puppy play, but that it seems impossible with that weight. i was allowed to exchange it for O/our bulkiest butt plug, maybe half a kilo. Soon i knelt up straight before Her. She said i must move silently, as kids were watching cartoons exactly below us. 'Sit' - meaning squat with fingers on the floor but heels up. 'Lie down on your belly', 'Sit', 'Lie down face up', 'Sit', 'What does Beg look like?' i showed the position panting inside my hood. 'Lie down face up', 'On all fours', 'Sit'. Then She ordered me to do 20 push-up's on the bed in my darkness and ordered me to sample back exercises as well. She said in half an hour there's time to do nearly everything on the list. She wanted me to sample 'stay erect with mental power only'. i knelt up facing the bed hands cupped and concentrated on my erection. i said that this is a good way for Her to kill time during my fun half an hour. Another would be holding a coin against the wall with my nose for 10 minutes. It was easy to keep fully erect with the middle sized,A-ring of cb-2000 still on.

She kept me kneeling a long time with the order to concentrate to stay erect. my dark wait was finally disrupted by Her voice: move back. i backed until my feet met a cabinet. 'Now you may masturbate, i count down from 20 and at zero you may have a ruined orgasm. 20, 19,... ' i started masturbating. My organ was very big, hard and the veins could be felt on it even though i saw nothing. How right it felt. A boy with black hood, otherwise naked, pink cockring, totally shaven from the belly down, kneeling quietly for a long time before his Mistress, then on order starting masturbation. It must have been a pretty sight. It is not easy to masturbate without lube a overswollen penis. At 15 i understood i must do my best to make it in time. i started vigorous wanking, and Mistress helped maybe a little by slowing down the count, but nevertheless i didn't get to the edge before She reached zero. Game over, next try next week!

Monday, 10 September 2012

Being very service oriented


i wonder whether it was the supervised masturbation session after a long while, or just my biorhythms, but i was the next days a very service-oriented slave. i had to work late on Monday, but i ate the oldest scraps i could find in the fridge and fried new food for the family . When my service-level is high, i voluntarily use less food, drive in a colder car in the winter and warmer in the summer, shower with colder water, be stricter with my partly self-imposed “extra” rules like not sitting on the toilet seat but above it without support.

On Tuesday i got home on 8.30pm, but made new food for next day. On Wednesday i was about to go to foreskin piercing, but i had to change the plans. Instead i came home earlier, uploaded Mistress's new website and prepared fajitas ingredients ready for tomorrow evening. i have to make next evening's meal the day before, as i get always so late from work.

i joined Fetlife. So many interesting groups and discussions. It'a a pity you cannot google Fetlife, as the amount of info and fantasy cumulated there must be enormous.

Saturday, 8 September 2012

Japanese sissy video blog highlights

Here are some highlights from Japanese sissy blogs. These all have free sissy shemale videos.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-225.html sissy Natsu gets his sissy ass red by her Master usimng a carpet beater, and gets her ass fucked with a butt plug, she has her ass up and hands in metal handcuffs - video and pics

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-238.html sissy natsu eats from a bowl on a road, naked with just a collar and leash. her balls show dangling between her legs as she reaches down to eat.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-238.html continued in this one, finally ordered to raise herself into a squat, genitals showing; and raise hands like paws

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-240.html sissy lapping soda from a bowl outdoors, doing submissive gestures, and another video of her walking on a public (empty) road naked with a butt plug

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-245.html sissy is the target of Master's hot wax, then candles are lit to stand and burn at her strategic places

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-248.html continued: wax is removed from genitals and ass with crop and whip, sissy submits to this even though she is not tied

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-250.html sissy is tied, gagged and hooded, all clamps of a small airer have been fixed on sissys tits and belly and they are yanked off. Apparently very painful (thus gag?).

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-251.html continued: sissy is tied spread eagled on her back, and Master whips her belly which show cruel marks from clamps. sissy looks so pathetic lying naked & hooded.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-252.html Master doesn't spare the rod and sissy doesn't have a say as she is still tied up, now on her belly. Master tries different implements, and sissy can only lie down or raise on his knees so that her balls show. sissy looks rather spent after this.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-281.html Oh my, sissy has three nose hooks drawing in different directions. she looks degraded. On top of that she is made to crawl on her hands and feet outdoors naked. her balls show well.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-283.html More degradation. Master pees in sissy's mouth as She kneels in a tub. Piss stream makes funny noises in sissy's mouth. He could play her mouth as an instument?

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-295.html While sissy's clit gets almost no attention on these videos, the same cannot be said about her ass which is definitively not virgin. Here she is all prettied up in a  frilly little dress and she shoves substantial butt plugs in Her ass and rides a monster dildo while collared, leashed and cuffs in her ankles and wrists. Maybe her Master prefers blow jobs...

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-329.html sissy is walked outdoors on a leash connected to her nosering. her nipple rings are visible as she is naked.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-344.html Two very sexy videos about sissy sex. she is very vocal as Master fucks her with a Hitachi attachment as she's blindfolded an tied in her cute sailor suit. she can only curl her toes.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-345.html Hitachi continued. sissy has been turned and her ass stuck high up in the air.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-346.html If you ever wondered is sissy ever allowed to get off: well yes! Of course she cums in her panties, stimulated girlishly with Hitachi on her clit.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-352.html Humiliation at its best. sissy is puss-in-boots, dressed in cat's ears, nose hook and two pairs of boots only, and taken on a walk on some road on a leash, her balls give away she's a happy tomcat.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-358.html An example of a more typical video of sissy natsu.  she's tucked and taped so that she is passable even naked. Master makes her go naked, in boots to a vending machine to by Coke. Yes, there's nobody else to see her right then, but someone COULD appear.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-420.html Master makes His slut go naked in the park wearing only stockings and shoes. she's again tucked and taped.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-431.html Master has sent sissy shopping in a plaited miniskirt, and clearly ordered her to bend over so that passers-by see her panties.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-446.html This time sissy gets interrupted while made to expose herself in the park. Pics show she also pleasured her Master.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-451.html sissy is squatting on a (probably public) mountain road giving a blowjob  her Master. she must keep her hands behind her neck, and she wears her nose ring and nipple rings, boots and corset that leaves her breasts visible, and a lock-on collar. Mister fucks her head, and as He stops, she tries to get eye-contact with Him: 'Should i continue to suck, or what does Master want?'. What a submissive feminine sissy! Neat!

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-452.html continued: next She is walked on a leash on all fours. her titties show nicely.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-460.html i must confess, this video made me lose control of my own sissy clit. It engorged inside Jailbird, and the sharp control stud hurt so much i had to leave my laptop and go about my morning chores a while. Master has chosen to degrade sissy by making her wear a hood, nose hook, leather waist cincher, stockings and a thong, and makes her give Him a blow job on her knees, while He sits on an easy chair and whacks her back and ass with a whip. sissy is well trained as Master is not afraid she would accidentally bite on Him. It sounds like Sir cums in her mouth after which He focused the whip on her buttocks and pinch her nipples. Hits are hard and make her yelp.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-461.html continuation: sissy gets spanked with her collar. Master says the collar was not painful enough.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-464.html continuation: still in the same degrading attire, sissy is made to stand legs spread, hands behind head, as Master first whips her ass while she moans and struggles to keep still, and then whips her very sensitive tits (sensitive probably because they are being grown by estradiol) while she moans much more. Later Master attaches clamps to her tits, and uses Hitachi on her clit while she has to stand still holdingh  the demeaning posture.

http://motokosatou.blog129.fc2.com/blog-entry-479.html sissy is made to walk in a public (deserted) road in high heels, stockings and red rope bondage only. Rope bondage makes sissy's tits stand out. Also her small clit shows. Finally T/they are again interrupted!


http://video.fc2.com/a/content/20110225h6tzkVCs/ naked, erect Master whips standing sissy, which has her titties clamped again. Eventually sissy gets to kneel and give a blow job in exchange.



http://ayakainn.blog130.fc2.com/blog-entry-79.html Ayaka is a further trained sissy. she can take her master's long whip.

http://video.fc2.com/en/a/content/20110227GEEQatGC/ Ayaka sissy too has breasts. Here she wears peek-a-boo bra with nipple clamp chain which show them off. Otherwise she has her standard outfit: a corset, stockings and pumps, besides only a thong. She is on all fours, Master beats her ass with different implements.

http://ayakainn.blog130.fc2.com/blog-entry-77.html sissy keeps her legs obediently spread while Master drips hot wax on sissy clit and balls.

http://ayakainn.blog130.fc2.com/blog-entry-64.html sissy on all fours as Master sits on her back and drops wax on her ass. sissy reacts to each drop, but only with her mouth.

http://video.fc2.com/a/content/20110802Ru0RYXXx sissy ayaka is tied ass up. she gets whipped, then hot wax which is whipped off with cat-o'-9-tales. Finally Master fucks her.

http://video.fc2.com/en/a/content/20110120x2GHMkvf Master ties sissy's hands in rope breast bondage, sissy gives Him a blow job. Master attaches nipple clamps to her titties and shows her the desired rhythm by pulling from the chain. Later sissy gets beaten, also on genitals.

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Finally completely epilated pubes


On Sunday i was a very motivated slave, waking up before 6.00, epilating the rest of my bush: finally i was totally hairless between my belly and upper thighs. i took pictures through the mirror. i made plans for the foreskin piercing and used the extra time for web surfing, my cb-2000 with medium PoI on of course, like always. i cooked porridge, but when Mistress came down, She was very tired. She had come to bed when i was already in sleep, at 12pm. She said i should not wake Her up with my alarm, especially at weekends. i have to look up a system for alarm that wakes up only me.

After the new turn in our D/s yesterday i have been very happy and service-oriented today. First She sent me do firewood, and as everything was chopped, i reported back, and got an assignment repairing Lina's bike and preparing rabbit shields for our plants towards winter. Mistress and Lina left for a cat expo, and i got a list of things to do: more shields, light for the bike, paying bills and preparing lunch from yesterday's leftovers.

i managed to do everything and sneaked into Fetlife, which was new to me, seems like that's the place to be, with my idols Mistress 160, Ms Rika actively present there. After They returned, and ate, and i cleared the table after them, i was sent to set up the rest of the plant shields, which took long. Then i needed to report back, and Mistress wanted me to simultaneously make an apple pie, set fire in the fireplace and warm up O/our wood-operated sauna. There are subtleties to good service to your Dom/me. For instance, i think i did a good job, as i organized my work, first setting up the fires, then putting together the dough and putting it in the oven, then attending to the fires while the pie cooked PLUS cleaning all debris that the firewood left on the floors, without Mistress having to ask me.

my own pic!
Still after the sauna and full water aerobics in fairly cold pool i prepared tomorrow's dinner, more chicken fillet.

Monday, 3 September 2012

Supervised masturbation - no cumming



On Saturday W/we had Wife's relatives on Lina's birthday visit. Mistress mentioned in the morning that i will get my first half-an-hour session already today, which motivated me throughout the day. Mother-in-law arrived already on Friday, and witnessed me bake a chocolate cake AND cookies on Friday evening, after a busy day at work, only to wake up early and make U/us coffee, tea and porridge... then start making a salad and later the main coarse of turkey fillet, fruity salsa and pasta. i continued to fry the turkey when other guests had arrived. i didn't have to lay the table, but after the meal i washed the plates before placing them in the dishwasher, made whipped cream to go with the cake and laid the table for coffee, which i made along with green tea for Mistress. After coffee i stuffed the dishwasher again, switched it on, and emptied it while discussing with my brother-in-law, who later gave us some advice on men's work, namedly plumbing.

As the time for O/our half-an-hour arrived, Mistress ordered me into bedroom. Kids were watching TV. She sat on the bed and pointed at the floor before Her. i knelt there, only to be commanded to take my pants away, and the cb. She opened the two lowest buttons on my shirt and tied it to a knot at my waist. She then commented on my bush, which was epilated as a triangle, which was situated far up midway between my bellybutton and penis. She said the hair there was too sparse, and the triangle not straight, and i may epilate that all away, and grow a new triangle nearer penis, where the hair is thicker. We talked a little, She said i could make Her an idea list of things to do during these 30 minute sessions. She corrects my posture as i slouch, demands me to kneel up, back straight as W/we talk.

i gave Her my watch, and She gave me permission to masturbate. If i would approach the edge, i would need to stop early enough, no cum showing. i started eagerly, with full speed. After maybe 30 seconds She ordered 'stop'. After similar interval She had me going again. Now i was reaching my Limits, and i slowed down significantly. She noticed it and ordered me to stop. i remained at full mast the whole time. She shortened the intervals, and it took less and less time for me to edge. She continued this some 12 minutes. Eventually i would edge in just 2 seconds after starting the masturbation again after a circa 10 second pause. If the pause was longer, it took maybe 5-6 seconds. Though i was near the edge all the time, i could masturbate at least slowly each time until the stop-command. i thought finally She would give me a chance for a ruined orgasm by a countdown, as She mentioned it while W/we were talking, but She didn't , and i just had to put my hard penis in my pants to soften there, and clean the floor from my precum.

Sunday, 2 September 2012

Permission for a foreskin ring


Mistress is having Her period now, and is not intrested in sex. i just have to continue with the household chores next week without chances for release. A chaste week. Making meals, shopping for food.

Next week W/we have a cabin near Tromsö. W/we drive there by car, mainly me driving, 13 hours a day. In the cabin i make meals, and drive the family where they want to go.

First night W/we try to have sex, Mistress has asked me to buy condoms. She makes me lick Her intensively and bites my buttocks hard as a prize. But when it's time for sex, my hard-on becomes only semi-hard, and W/we'll have to call it a day. It's always so sad to face impotency, i have been so proud of not needing Viagra throughtout O/our a long marriage. Well, my Wife is still very attractive, that's the main reason for this, but i used to have erection problems before D/s.

The rest of the week goes by. Mistress surprises me by making me lick Her dirty plate clean, a lot of hot Mexican sauce!

After W/we get home W/we have a serious conversation. Mistress has been angry with my whining and insolence. i am bored with O/our D/s relation deteriorating. Mats and Lina are no more going to their hobbies together on Friday nights, which has caused W/we have very little time together with Mistress. i miss the sexual aspects of D/s and gifts from Her. After a lot of serious and sad talking She decides i can get a foreskin piercing, even though She doesn't like the mutilation of the genitals and is afraid She will not get sex for a month during the healing period. i will also get half an hour of weekly sexual D/s every Thursday at 8.30pm. i will have to make all meals and keep kitchen clean. i will also continue to wear the cb, in the future locked through my foreskin.

i have studied chastity piercings a lot, and found that it is simpler to take a regular foreskin piercing at the top end of my foreskin. i will wear a captive bead ring in it permanently. It hangs from the end of my foreskin, and after putting on the cb, i will put a small lock through the ring and the ring in the cb, finally preventing masturbation and pullout. Maybe i will put a rather large ring in it so that it can encircle my glans. If i could open the captive bead ring after all with pliers, W/we could instead purchase a a model that opens only with a special tool.