Friday, 26 July 2013
Being in slavery for most part of 2,5 years has changed my behaviour in many ways, not only by making it feel awkward to masturbate without permission. Also, it has become self-evident that i eat always the oldest leftovers from the fridge, take care W/we always have all necessary supplies in the kitchen, take care there is a meal ready in the fridge as kids come home from school and i am still at work. These happen automatically now, my behaviour is modified.
Slaving away during weekend consisted of work, not much fun. Friday night She already programmed my Saturday morning. i had to get up early and do the groceries shopping before She wakes up. That effectively diminished my possibilities of net surfing. i was in my small car before 8am, and surely doing shopping was easy as i was nearly the only customer. As i got home, Mistress was awake and had made Herself tea. i brought Her the paper and joined Her for breakfast. She told me to put warm clothes on, She took me with Her on a long walk. Back home i prepared a delicious chicken soup for lunch, and did some cleaning up, dishwasher emptying and filling and other usual chores like that. W/we were in Mode 2 so i reported to Her after each task, curtseyed and thanked for the new command.
In the afternoon She arranged me some dog training, after Lina had been taken to Her sleepover. Sitting on O/our big sofa She said some dog schooling is necessary and started with 'Sit'. i failed immediately, i raised my hands below my chin like paws and knelt. She corrected my posture and made me kneel my butt on my heels. Then 'Roll over'. Again a mistake, i kept rolling over many times, She corrected that i must only roll over once after each command. Next one's were easier, though 'Stand' confused me for a moment and i stood up cautiously. Then 'Sit', 'Roll over' and 'Stand' were repeated until i knew the drill. Points of intrigue were biting painfully to my clitty as i wobbled to the kitchen to make Her white tea.
Later the evening W/we went to a ball looking so neat and sexy, me in a suit, Her in an evening dress and stockings.
Saturday, 20 July 2013
On Sunday morning i wake up before the alarm at 6.20. This is the every other day that i epilate only my perineum, around genitals and ass crack, so i have time to update my blog and browse the net. As my cb-2000 starts to feel painfully crowded, i have to shut the pc and get the paper. Soon Mistress wakes up and orders green tea. i prepare that and my own breakfast. After that i clean up and switch on the dishwasher.
She has some work to do on Her laptop, but as Lina is away and Mats sleeps late, She orders me to choose one of Her nail polishes and paint my toenails! It's new to me, i choose a bright red polish, go over the toenails carefully, put pencils between my toes as i have seen done, and let them dry. i succeed without stains, they look great: my feet are quite small and narrow, and they need just nail paint to seem very feminine (and some shaving). i show them to Mistress. She orders me to stay barefooted and dust the wall panels: a job that O/our hired cleaner never does. i take some pictures of my toes to post here as well.
Next i must check the ceilings for cobwebs in the whole house and then wash all doors, especially near handles, as they tend to get dirty. i'm afraid that Mats wakes up and sees my painted toenails. Soon it is lunch time, Mistress chooses enchilados, which is one of O/our favourites. i always make the cheese salsa for it myself, so it is an arduous dish to prepare. Mats wakes up, but i notice and put socks on. i lay the table, and for myself i put a deep saucer, as i will not be eating the fresh enchilados, but the last existing portion of the quite old thai salmon soup.
After the meal i clear up, wash the surfaces and fill Mistress's next order, black tea with milk, and She gets a nice surprise as i remind Her of the last Danish i baked yesterday. She eats it happily. You might get the impression that i never get any sweets, but that's actually not true. For instance this week Mistress brought especially for me white chocolate with blueberries. i have it on a sweets shelf, and help myself quite freely to it. i do selfregulation on how much sweets i eat. Only less than 4 pieces per day, but that's my own target, not Mistress's order. As W/we are normally in non-D/s mode 1 on weekdays, it would not make sense regulate my sweets consumption only during weekends.
She orders me to pick up Lina at the bus station, and then to the gym with Her. i fill up water bottles for U/us without being ordered to. At the gym i become always very aware of the chastity cage, though it doesn't hurt or otherwise hinder any way. Hard cage under tricot, changing in the locker room, hitting the cage lightly each time you pull the weights down...
Mistress has many things of Her own professional life to take care during this weekend, so She gives me a long term assignment: to plan the family a domestic round trip for the summer. That's nice as i may use the computer to do that, and steal some Femdom-time for myself.
Mistress wants to go to sauna today too, so i warm it up again. Before W/we go to sauna W/we eat some more. The others get the delicious enchilados, i may sit by the same table and eat yesterday's smoked salmon and potatoes.
Lina likes to go to sauna alone now that her breasts are growing. She goes there first. In the sauna i'm again afraid that Mats comes and sees my toenails. Next Mistress gets in, Mats is watching a movie. W/we agree that if Mats sees them, i may say Mistress made me do it, as a joke. Then comes the surprise. Mistress commands me matter-of-factly to kneel and start masturbating. This comes out of the blue, but such is the life of a a slave. As your Mistress commands it is the time, ready or not. i was not at all prepared, with no sexual thoughts, but i started quickly to masturbate kneeling on the tiled floor. Soon i got to the edge, and asked permission to cum. She said 'go on', and i did. As the spurts started, i stopped the motions and just held my penis lightly, i am so accustomed to ruined orgasms i couldn't keep moving through the orgasm. The cum landed on the floor tiles. i have been sideways to Her, and now i glance to Her and notice She has not been even watching. She is lying with a moist cloth over Her face to prevent the skin from drying. However, She has heard me. i made some noise as i went over the edge, and She knows i am ready.
'Now clean up quick before Mats arrives'
i get anxious. What if my son walks in now and finds pools of semen on the floor. Well he must enter through bathroom, so i have some time, and i drop my head to the floor and quickly gobble most of the slime up and swallow it. Then i get some tissue and wipe it clean.
'you didn't leave it slippery, did you'
'No, it's the precum that leaves the floor slippery, cum's not that slippery'.
And W/we continue to bath, me released and without tensions, also with diminished subspace.
Wednesday, 17 July 2013
During the week there were some cold nights, and i volunteer to warm up first Her side of the bed and then move to warm up my own cold place. That becomes soon the standard procedure, if i get to bedroom before Her.
Saturday means another day in Mode 2, and i clean up in kitchen, get the paper for Her and after breakfast She orders me to start moving notes from the old address book to the new one. A long and tedious job that it interrupted as W/we take Lina to the bus, She's going to Oslo for a sleepover at Her friend's.
Back home She decides to pluck my ears again. i have hair growing in my ears, Mistress dislikes it, and regularly orders me to bring tweezers and skin cream and lay my head ear up on Her lap. First it hurts a lot, but you get used to it and it is kind of relaxing eventually. Finally She takes a dollop of skin cream on Her finger and greases the ear, including the inner part, pushing Her finger deep, the grease making it feel and sound wild and making me feel penetrated. Next i'm made to fetch firewood and start warming the house with the fireplace, the cold weather continues.
i make lunch, it's leftover thai salmon soup this time, but for dessert Mistress wants Danish pastries filled with apple sauce and whipped cream. i take the dough sheets from freezer, then work with the fireplace, serve Her a big mug of black tea with milk which She has ordered in Her study. She orders me to look up Her camera, and bring it to Her. When i bring it, She makes me help Her doing some photographing. After that i may prepare the pastries and start warming up the sauna.
As everyone eats more pastries with rooibos tea Mistress ordered with them, i am allowed to go to the sauna first, without the cb like always. There i am, alone, naked, my penis free. However i don't start masturbating. i feel up my penis lightly a few times, but it would seem somehow odd and even awkward to start masturbating. i later come to think that the reason is that after nearly two years in the cb, and with minimal masturbation, and absolutely no masturbation after the piercing as the pullout was prevented, i have forgotten the habit, i am... cured. i do often browse Fetlife and other sites and leak precum and am constantly in a state of arousal, but when i get a chance to masturbate secretly, i don't do it.
The moment goes by, Mistress joins me and i begin water aerobics. This time doing the jumping jacks and other motions hurts on my piercing. The ring swings from side to side as i move and in the end of my penis it gains leverage. i ask Mistress whether to stop or put on swimming trunks, and She chooses the latter. With trunks on there's no pain.
Monday, 15 July 2013
On Sunday i woke up early so that i could after epilating take care of my blog. i had got feedback on the blog, and
it was positive which made me glad, and i spent time translating a lot to publish next days. Then i got the paper and had to do quite a lot of work clearing the paths from snow again, as it had snowed enormously more.
Keeping my foreskin locked was irritating my tender bits. i was not required to keep the foreskin ring locked, as the existence of the ring itself made pulling out very painful, and i had even considered it after getting pierced. On Saturday i locked the foreskin ring, and had no major issues nor concerns. But Sunday morning, every slight semi erection, during my morning net browsing, caused a hell of a pain. i got upstairs as i heard Mistress woke up, and with Her permission removed the 2. lock.
She was relaxed today and let me read the paper with Her. She was going to Oslo to visit some art galleries, and decided to leave me home with a list of chores. First and biggest was to clear the insides of all the cupboards. She was going to check the results and maybe give me a prize or punishment again.
i started the job, She left and the girls woke up. i laid breakfast table for them and acted again as a good father figure by emptying and washing up cupboards and arranging stuff in them in good order, as they were having breakfast at the kitchen table.
Next on the list was clearing the yard (well!) of the snow, filling up firewood containers, making chili con carne for the kids, paying the bills and taking care of the accounts. Then i went through some personal email neglected for too long, PTA stuff etc. Next i text messaged Mistress and asked if i can skip the gym. i was glad She replied 'Ok'. Last on my list was heating up sauna, and i had used my day just as Mistress had planned as She bot back home and started ordering me around with little tasks, bringing Her stuff, while remembering to curtsy if kids were not around etc. She did check the cupboards and didn't find any issues there.
i was wondering if a prize was in order as She retired early, and i trailed Her upstairs. As W/we were ready for bed, Mistress tossed me a big bottle of skin moisturizer and said 'This may be a reward or a punishment, but now you will grease Me up, and do a good job about it.' She made sure all dry parts were moist, and deliberate amounts of cream were used, i was since a long time allowed to touch and massage Her breasts and buttocks, along with all other parts of Her body. Except for pussy, as it is self-lubricated as She put it. Well it was a reward, of course. i'm happy W/we get back to normal step by step.
Thursday, 11 July 2013
(Continuing the description of the day from the previous post)
Mistress woke me up as She wanted a cup of green tea, and then i needed to prepare a lot of chicken pasta soup and warm up the sauna. Lina's 4 friends were arriving soon to sleep over, and sauna and swims in O/our pool were in order. i am happy kids get a good example in O/our home that daddy can also be the one to cook and clean. i had to eat the leftovers of the earlier tortilla meal myself, and as i was making dough after the meal to prepare fried bananas for dessert, Mistress ever so kindly helped me to clear the table and fed me the remains of cold chicken sauce. Mistress wanted to fry loads of bananas, so much to use up all the dough, and i was insolent enough to state as my opinion - which of course did not count - that less would be enough. Well, Mistress was right and everything was eaten with good apetit
Mistress sent me to get more firewood and girls went to sauna after i had brushed its floor and checked it was OK. i bathed alone, Mistress wanted sauna on Sunday. i did unsupervised the whole set of water aerobics. i was unattended with the cb removed, but i didn't masturbate. However i did put my penis backwards, upside down on a bench, pretended my ankles were spread wide and tied to its legs and i flicked my finger across my frenum – the sissy way to masturbate - without cumming of course. i know it was wrong, but couldn't help it.
As She had punished me today, i was very surprised that in the evening She made me kneel by Her side of the bed, drop my thong and masturbate for a full minute, full hand, watching the time from my wrist watch all the time. It was a present for working hard for Her today. i was somehow unprepared and could not even edge during that time, though it's a long time since She made me spill my semen on the floor last time. We fell asleep holding each other.
Monday, 1 July 2013
Friday evening She ordered me to clean the glass windows and the doors of O/our wrought
iron fireplace in the morning so that it's ready as She wakes up. i always use alarm to wake up early also during weekends as mornings are my only allocated times for net browsing. Now i had less time for that on Saturday morning.
i complied and everything was clean at 8am. As She woke up She had me first clean the yard, then used me as Her chauffeur, without telling me beforehand where we were heading. It turned out to be a tour of two second hand shops and a grocery store for me. After W/we ate a tortilla lunch prepared by me. With kids overhearing She ordered me to make rooibos tea for Her as i make coffee for myself.
Then it was time for a lecture that my long term chore excel was not updated for nearly a year. It's a list of chores that are due seldom, like once a year. For example cleaning the inside of Her car, cleaning the pool, moving certain plants to bigger pots etc. The excel file includes last dates when i have done it, and next dates when i should do it next time. However, there were many chores that were overdue. So now She ordered me to do two dirty jobs that were much overdue. First i needed to clean up air conditioning machine and its filters, then empty central vacuum cleaner's waste container. The filters were very dirty and the waste container was crammed full, filters already unoperational.
As i reported back She forced me to kneel, as She was sitting on the sofa, and said that i had dropped dirt from the AC filters on Her stuff, and i will be punished for that carelessness. i needed to also remove shit from hamster's cage. Nice addition to emptying cat's litter box each day.
As i wanted to report to Her after that, i faced a problem. i didn't know where She was, so i had to knock on many closed doors as i am not allowed to open doors without knocking. Finally as i found Her in the bedroom, She said it was my punishment time. i wondered whether it would be electric shocks, eating restrictions, the riding crop or what, and i try to get hard in my cb. It hurts and i have to bend. She orders me to bring the cayenne pepper. Now i believe She's putting it under my foreskin. As i have offered it to Her kneeling, She orders me to tilt my head and open my mouth. She scatters a healthy dose of cayenne in my mouth and makes me swallow, open up my mouth again and i feel the powder drop on my tongue as She repeats the process. My mouth's on fire and soon my stomach's too. Then She orders me to make Her black tea and after that get lost. i write this and have a nap, to be able to offer more service when it is needed.