Sunday, 9 August 2015

In a hotel with Mistress

Next weekend W/we went to my uncle's funeral to mid-Norway, and W/we stayed at a small hotel in a small town. Kids stayed at home, they have just reached the age that W/we can do so and that's great.

Mistress ordered me to take along a bag full of toys of my own choice. i took things like leather helmet, plastic black mini skirt, corset and stockings for Her, ball gag, restraints etc.

She called the shots during O/our stay, deciding W/we'll take a long walk first when W/we arrive, deciding the route etc.

At the hotel She ordered me to undress and put the electric dog training collar on my neck. But it had been on all the time and battery had worn off. Instead She ordered me ankle and wrist bracelets and the dog collar with a leash. She ordered me to remove Her tights. It was a bit cold so She decided to put on stockings and black leather boots.

She ordered me to kneel and lock the bracelets all together. i asked how She wanted my hands: between legs. She went to the toilet and i waited ass up between the hotel beds. As She returned She took the cat-o-9-tales and started whipping my ass, switching to hit my balls with the handle. i was howling uncontrollably, and i feared that my cries could attract attention. i asked for a gag, but Mistress said no-one hears as a dance band was playing just below U/us. She said i sounded just like a little fearful dog howling. She made me lick Her boots which was oh so lovely, and She even put my leash between the sole and heel of Her boot and yanked my head down to the boot by the leash, making me kiss and lick them. That made my penis stand at attention, but soon the noise from the restaurant or something else distracted me and made my penis stay soft throughout most of the evening. i was practically im
potent, something that has not happened to me after W/we started D/s. She put on the corset and made me suckle Her breasts, lick buttocks and finally lay on my back as She straddled my face and made me lick Her pussy, but i couldn't get myself hard.

Without fingering me She went to bed and woke up angry in the morning as i gently woke Her up by hugging Her.


This incident stopped O/our D/s until next Saturday as W/we talked through everything and i pleaded with Her to continue dominating me. She approved and became more demanding than before. She also said She wants three things from me: say and show daily that i love Her, kiss and hug Her daily and take care of kitchen - always, as She hates it. The following day was the busyest for me for half a year.

Sunday, 21 June 2015

Fucking, not cumming

Next day i epilated my crotch again in the morning. Mistress decided i will not do it on weekdays, but i will do it on weekends. i spent a long time shopping for groceries and then prepared lunch.

In the evening W/we sneak into bedroom early because She wants to fuck. She chooses for me leather ankle and wrist bracelets and ball weights, as i said they might make my balls bang sensually against Her clit while fucking doggystyle. She chooses a corset and stockings, high heels, nothing else.

First She makes me shave Her pussy lips and narrow Her pubic hair a bit. Next She ties me on my back to the bed, settles on top of me and moves towards my face until i could support my head with my arms and start licking Her sex. After a long while She moved back, and settled on my bare dick, taking it inside Her. She moved up and down, fucking me, then raised Herself letting me fuck Her. Next She freed my hands, sending me off to get a condom, which She rolled on my member, foreskin back. She warned me that i am not going to be allowed to cum.

She ordered me by the bed on my knees, and knelt on the bed Her backside towards me: 'Lick me from behind. I like it when you lick me from behind.' i had to stick my nose to Her anus to lick Her pussy. Then She wanted me to mount Her doggystle. i started intense, quality fucking, but just as She was nearing orgasm so was i and i needed to have a break. After the break W/we had to start again, me on my back, Her on top. W/we resumed doggystyle, but same thing happened, i was too close, and it started to seem too difficult to get Her to vaginal orgasm without me cumming too. W/we tried it on O/our sides, to no avail. Once more doggy style, now i kept deep inside Her all the time, moving only in little jerky motions. This turned out to be a success, She started to orgasm quickly, and i could fuck Her all through Her orgasm without the slightest risk of cumming. W/we stayed lying, my dick hard as ever inside Her, utilizing the last chances of getting wonderful friction inside Her pussy. i did a few fucking motions every now and then. Until She forbade that as 'masturbation'. Now it was time for me to wash up and go to sleep with my hard-on.


Sunday, 7 June 2015

A day with Mistress alone

The long awaited day, my day off together with Mistress. Preparations started already the day before, as She ordered me to prepare food so that O/our time together doesn't all be spent on chores. i made a large amount of chicken risotto.

It turned out a busy day for me: i was at Her beck and call from morning till evening. It started with a tea for Her and footwash-pedicure session. She sat on the sofa and ordered me to fetch a basin full of water with herbs, foot file, towel, nail polish remover and nail polishes. After a long pedicure session She ordered me to empty the water in the scullery sink, catch the herbs in the sink trap and take them away. However i forgot the last part, She found the herbs in the sink, and made me eat part of them - nice, soaked in footwash water, lain in sink trap in the scullery.

She made me get a corset and stockings, and provided me with a black lycra (spandex) t shirt and ordered me to take a wide short black skirt from the laundry basket. i was not to put them on yet, She ordered me to remove the cb and She gave me a supervised shower and also ordered me to take a swim in O/our coldish pool first. Then She ordered me to shave my crotch the same way i used to, and also armpits and nipple surroundings. i asked about pubic hair, and She approved my suggestion of a narrow landing strip. She ordered me to leave the door open. i had not been epilating any more in a couple of months so all hair had grown back. First i used electric razor's trimmer to shave myself all over, then used razorblades on the balls, and finished everything up with the epilator. Last i shortened the landing strip hair to 10mm. My dick was oozing precum like there's no tomorrow. i like shaving my crotch. She came back, inspected my work and took me with Her. She asked if it was too late to put on the cb now. My dick was hard, but i managed to pull the a-ring on, and left it half mast, hoping it doesn't act as a penis ring that way.

Now i was clean and shaved and allowed to dress up. She had to help me with the leather corset, tying a knot to the draw-in strings at my back. Then followed stockings, the tight lycra t-shirt and a nice ruffled skirt, all black. Now She ordered me to add a white Spanish lacy apron, and it was like a maid's costume. It felt wonderful, especially the silky underskirt against my sheer stockings and the pull of suspenders when walking. That feel was familiar to me since i was 13-14 and tried crossdressing for the first time and bought my first own female clothes. Still it was thrilling, maybe because i so rarely could do it, and almost never with my Wife. Hopefully it will change.

Now started the chores. i had to first clean up the mess of hair i had left in the bathroom. While i was working i managed to not think about sex and got myself back in the cb, though bulging through the bars. i didn't have panties, but i think i didn't drop precum everywhere. After i had also emptied the washing machine, brought dirty laundry from the basket upstairs and put a set of dark clothes selected by Mistress in the washing machine it was time to take Mistress to the town. i only replaced the apron and skirt with pants, so my ankles were clad only in sheer stockings, thrilling. Feet felt odd with stockings in man shoes.

Back at home i was to make lunch, and put effort into serving it. She mentioned candles, so i lit two candles as well, and pulled Her a chair as i had summoned Her. As i was wondering if i can sit on the other seat, She ordered me to eat by Her on the floor, so i moved my plate and utensils there, and started eating on my knees and elbows. i kept my head down and even started to lick the plate clean until She forbid that. It was so much like eating from doggy bowls. Next i provided Her tea and cleaned up kitchen. Every time as i was ready i approached Her, curtseyed and knelt before Her.

She ordered me upstairs, and took the jar with my session ideas on paperslips, took one, read both sides. Not happy with the content She took another slip, and ordered me to remove the cb and put clothespins to my balls. i took it i must put all of them, so eventually it was hard to find place where i could fit more.

She lead us to living room where i took my place kneeling before Her, legs slightly spread because of the pegs. She ordered me to masturbate without cumming. i lifted my skirt with one hand and started to wank with the other, easing the grip each time i was nearing the edge. She was taking time, and was surprised i could continue for minutes without having to ask permission to stop. i didn't have to slow the rhythm much, a light grip when near did the trick.

Enough of that, She sent me to make Her tea and a warmed slice of pie, to me She ordered coffee, and one ball of vanilla ice cream. The pegs, at least some of them were now starting to take their toll, and they were biting really bad to different sides of my balls. i managed to prepare the dessert, serve it and eat mine from a glass bowl on the floor with ever increasing hurt in my balls. As She ordered me to empty the washing machine, i asked if i could remove the pegs, as they were hurting so much. She allowed me to take just 5 pegs off. i chose them myself, and got rid of most of the strong, badly hurting pegs. It helped, but for a surprisingly short time. As i hung the clothes on the lines, the remaining pegs, especially a few of them, were making my life a misery again. i secretly changed some pegs to new locations. After the task i again asked to remove them. She ordered me to do 10 jumping jacks instead, making the pegs rock and hurt like hell. Then She did give me right to remove them.

As She sat on the settee again and i knelt before Her, She ordered me to masturbate again, but ordered me to stop soon, and go put on street clothes on top of my corset and socks over my stockings. Kids were soon returning from school.


As Lina was at home, W/we left again for shops, and while there now the tight corset started taking its toll, and i got a headache and became angry. At home i asked if i could remove it and was approved. i still needed to report to Her and She made me cut two man shirts to shreds in the evening. Then i had to take Lina to Her hobby.

Sunday, 31 May 2015

D/s or S/M

A few days later She made another lottery and chose another paper slip. She ordered me to strip naked and open the toy chest, don my little brown leather corset. She needed to help me draw the strings in at the back. Next She ordered me to put on the ankle and wrist straps. She tied me spreadeagled to the bedposts and only then She noticed She forgot to make me put on stockings.

Anyway, She got a condom, and and i was stiff as a stick as She started unwrapping it onto my shaft. She settled on my legs and started masturbating me, first coarsly later with short, fast movements until i started cumming. She stopped the motions, but kept Her hand around the base of my prick. That was enough for me to be able to experience about a normal orgasm. At least ejaculation was full, and i went through a down time after this.

As O/our D/S-relation had detoriated back to S/M-sessions, Mistress noticed where had been more chores for Her, She even had to prepare meals a few times as She was at home and me at work. She didn't like it and in early April She sent me an SMS inviting me again as Her meek slave.

At home She made me make Her tea and a meal and polish Her boots and show them for Her approval. She didn't approve them on first and not the second time, until they were spotless.


Wednesday, 20 May 2015

New session ideas


The fucking woke my sexuality up. Mistress noticed it. Her period was beginning, but She wanted to give me a session. She ordered me to update the paper slips with session ideas, and i wrote another idea on the flip side of the paper. A little more daring things like sucking my penis in my own mouth, predicament bondage: a potential handjob if i draw my balls far from my body, hanging upside down, holding an enema in me or kneeling with ball weights and masturbated to a ruined orgasm, drawing a small cart with my genitals, keeping myself on the edge masturbating for a long time + ruined orgasm on command, ginger butt plug + butt strapping, prostate milking.


She entered the bedroom and chose a paperslip without letting me see it. As She read it She said 'Are you sure you really like these things'. Then She asked me what i mean with a penis ring. i didn't remember what i had written and whether this was new or old ideas. As i wore the cb-2000 with POI i said the a-ring (the ring around genitals) is a sort of penis ring. 

She told me to strip, get some string and put on wrist bracelets. Then She connected the wrists bracelets behind my back and tied them tightly to the back of my a-ring through my crack. Then She left me kneeling by my bed and locked the door as She left. i could do nothing, with the cb on. My knees started hurting and i had to rest my forehead on the floor to ease the pressure from my knees. As She came to check on me She was not happy with that, She had not ordered that, and the session ended with that, no masturbation privileges.

Sunday, 3 May 2015

Mistress's growing interest in sex

A few days later, on a Friday night, Se lead me to a nearby deserted forest road, ordered me to drop my pants and briefs and sit in the big pile of snow. Just as i was sitting there having my butt frozen Her phone rang and W/we had to leave, as it was time to get Lina to her hobby and W/we had forgotten it.


Due to the unusual number of orgasms i had been allowed

my sexual interest went through the bottom for nearly two weeks. During that time Mistress had me fuck Her twice without me having orgasm. The latter was special. She wanted sex as i entered the bedroom quite late, after reserving Her and Mats a summer trip to Paris.

She made me start by licking and kissing the insides of Her thighs. Then She wanted my shirt off and settled on top of me, made me lick Her pussy from below. After a while She moved back, drew my head up and made me suck Her nipples, and turned to face my legs and sat on my face again, which enabled me to fuck Her with my nose as i licked Her clit. This is one of Her favourite plays. 

She took my thong away and took to masturbating me while i vigorously worked Her clit. She kept the same rhythm with Her hand on my cock as i did with my tongue on Her clit. 

Next She turned again and sat on my bare dick, taking it in Her pussy. It was wonderful to be inside Her without a rubber, and She started moving about, then ordered me to fuck Her from behind, of course without cumming as She's not on the pill. Though it was 2 weeks or more since i last came, i managed to fuck Her to an orgasm without getting to the edge myself. i fucked Her all the way through Her orgasm and then pulled out, hard and ready. 

As an extra treat She allowed me to get on my back and lick Her pussy as She squatted on my face.

Monday, 27 April 2015

Fucked by Mistress

Next evening Mistress mentioned She would like to have good penetrative sex. She was in the bed as i entered the bedroom wearing a sleeveless shirt and thong and asked Her whether to lock the door or not. She answered affirmative, and i joined Her cuddling Her. Soon She stood up and told me to open the toy chest and She dressed up in black stockings and a white corset, told me to remove my shirt and locked a dog collar with a leash to my neck. She used the leash to yank my head down to the bed (i was on my belly on the bed) and made me keep kissing Her feet a long time. She leaned over me and bit both my buttocks so i had to yelp twice. Then She turned around and used the leash to draw my head to Her ass with the inevitable licking consequences.

She told me to sit on the bed and sat on my thonged lap, making me suck Her beautiful breasts. She enjoyed and and kept sighing and breathing hard, rubbing Her naked pussy on my member.

Next She told me to lie still on my back and settled on my face. Her clit was clearly swollen, She was hot. She had me licking for a healthy time, then it was time to put on the condom and consummate the session. She had me fuck Her from behind until She came but i didn't.


However, it was not over this time. She climbed on top of me as i laid on my back, mounted me and pushed Her legs between mine. i was to stay totally motionless, She even rested Her hands and the weight of Her upper body on my wrists, nailing me to the bed. She started slowly fucking me, Her moist pussy sliding on my dick as She laid on top of me and moved Her butt. i raised my legs up, knees bent, on either side of Her and concentrated on the supreme fun, being fucked on my penis. She used to make me cum this way a few times in the past, but it was 3 years or more since the last time. i started drifting towards the edge and not until long i came. It is a strong experience to cum in a pussy without moving. i screamed, i felt the semen being pumped into the condom, i felt wonderful, but only light caresses of Her pussy, while Her hands were pinning my hands to the bed. She really took me. i have always loved to orgasm like this, it's authoritative but loving.

Sunday, 19 April 2015

Longer bondage experiment

Sunday night W/we reserved time together also. i was waiting for Her in the bedroom, and She appeared with skin cream. She made me massage moisturizer into Her skin, all over. Handling Her nipples was much fun for the both of U/us, and made Her breath heavily. W/we noticed Her pussy is self-moisturizing, so there i used only my bare hand, massaging Her. i was lying on my back and She took position on all fours, facing away. i had to support my head on a pile of pillows, and lick Her clit as i pumped first one finger and then two in Her pussy. She appreciated this dual approach, and nearly climaxed. As it seemed She cannot orgasm on licking and fingering, She told me to fuck Her without a condom. i was strictly forbidden to cum, as She isn't on the pill. It may sound difficult, but as it was still just a few days from my full orgasm, i could easily fuck Her with my bare penis until She climaxed, not even edging myself.

Next week still saw extraordinarily lot caressing between U/us spouses. On Tuesday night She ordered me to undress and open the toy box, fix straps on my wrists and ankles and lie down on my back on the bed. She fixed my hands to the bedframe on top of my head and my ankles on the headboard as well, rendering my ass helplessly in the air. She didn't spread my legs much, as She was going to sit by me and read Her book while i waited tied up.

On Saturday She ordered me to prepare lunch, and said after that She will tie me up for a longer time before i will prepare a cream cake using a recipe She chose.

i was allowed to wish for a position, and i asked for spread-eagle, and She decided to use that. She made me strip, take all necessary straps from the toy box, fix the ankle and wrists straps in place, and then She strapped me to the bedposts. i was still in my cb, and the points bit badly into my penis, as i was extraordinarily excited. She said She would leave me to meditate, and locked the door from the outside as She left.

i had never been tied up for a long time. Without any stimulation it was difficult to make the time pass. Initial excitement wore off soon, though it was exciting to raise my head and look down on my pink cb. Spreadeagled i could only wave my hands a bit, i was really stretched. There was nothing else to do than follow the slowly moving pattern that sunlight made on the wall

There was no clock i could watch so i didn't know how much time had passed when Mistress opened the lock and visited me. She asked how i was. i answered i was OK. She said She was not happy i answered so lukewarmly. She just touched my thigh and went away.


More time passed, the pattern on the wall made its way all the way to the corner. i could just lie and wait, think and meditate. After a very long time i heard footsteps approach the door, a key turn, and She entered again, freeing my hands and letting me up. i asked how long it had taken. It had been more than 2,5 hours. i was surprised how long i had been there.

Sunday, 12 April 2015

Puppy play and humiliating erection test

On Saturday W/we both slept in. Cuddling in the bed after waking up. She orders me around in the morning, serving Her tea, doing the laundry. She says She wants me to prepare a 3-course meal on Sunday, including laying the table really neatly. i study the cookbooks and propose a few variations for the menu to let Her choose. Then i go grocery shopping alone to get the ingredients.

As i get back home She reminded me it's lunchtime, so i prepared a meal out of old leftovers, eating the oldest stuff myself. For Saturday dinner i prepared a full fajitas meal.

Then by 7pm i reported to Mistress now W/we could have O/our 'time together'. She decided W/we sneak into the bedroom and lock the door. Then She outlined O/our future D/s sex: i was to write my sex ideas on 12 small slips of paper. There was not much space on one slip, only for 6-8 words. i wrote down things like 'being tied on my back legs up by my head + spanking', 'being made to masturbate with one finger, penis bent backwards', 'licking pussy while tied down', 'kneeling, pressing a coin to the wall', 'puppy play session in a collar and leash', 'cbt session with ball weights', 'penis whipping' etc. She put all the paperslips in a bowl and would draw one each time She decides we'll play. Besides, She asks me what's my current favourite session type. However, She decides Herself if She realizes the type of session on the slip She draws from the bowl, my current favourite or something totally different.

She drew a slip, and as She asked my favourite, i answered it would be tied on the bed legs up and spanked and teased. She made up Her mind, ordered me to undress and open the toy chest. She took out the big dog collar and placed it in Her lap, inviting me to settle my neck on it for Her to collar. She yanked the collar tight around my neck, i felt it taut around my neck. She clipped on a leash, twisted it until the leash was fixed to the back of my neck, and started my dog training session.

With a huge hardon i heeled Her on my knees as She walked around the bedroom. She dished out commands: kneel, sit (on my haunches), squat, kneel, stand, sit... She said i was quite a well-trained puppy and She rewarded me by making me open my mouth and shoving bits of toffee in. Then some more heeling, with more toffee treats.

She also liked my beg-pose, with hands held like paws by the chest, and as the dog was 'begging' She started patting it - but innovatively She patted the dog's male member which stood at full mast. She soon changed into patting my penis with Her foot, causing whimpers of delight emitting from the dog's mouth. 'Down'-command made me lie on my belly. i didn't dive quickly enough, so She pressed on my naked butt with Her foot. She ordered me back to kneeling and tossed me the rest of the toffee crumbs which i missed with my mouth. i gobbled the candy off the floor.

Finally it was time for my endurance test. She put me back to the kneeling position, placed the leash on my shoulder, unwrapped another candy, and placed it on my boner. 'I will be reading my book in the bed, you will maintain your stiffy and you will be either punished or rewarded if you are horny enough to stay erect for a long time without other stimulation but that candy on it.' She had placed me sideways to the bed, so She had a full view. She would also hear the candy fall. i just had to kneel naked, collar tight round my neck, keep my hands by my sides and stay erect.

At first it was easy. Maybe 10 minutes saw little movement. Then the angle started to drop, as did my penis. By straining my muscles i managed to raise my pecker an inch, then it dropped again, putting the candy in danger. The rest of the time became an ongoing struggle between gravity and my willpower. i tried to think of sexual thoughts, and succeeded in staying erect and dripping precum on the hardwood floor for about 20 minutes.

i didn't know the time, or how long i should keep it up to qualify for a reward, but as the candy dropped to the floor with a clang, Mistress told me i was a good boy to last 20 minutes. She stood up, took the candy, coated it in the juices that had collected at the penis head (sharp edges - ouch), told me to open my mouth and shoved it in. Then She took my leash, yanked backwards and told me to lean back, supporting myself on my hands, while sitting on my bent legs. She rubbed my penis with Her foot again and gave me my watch and told me to masturbate 90 seconds sharp, with possibility to release.


My foreskin ring had been sore for some time now, emitting ooze, so it took me a moment to figure out best way to masturbate. i was quite wet and started caressing my bare penis head with small motions which were steadily bringing my closer to orgasm. However, the clock was ticking fast, and at 90 seconds i had not even been able to edge myself. Well, i had had an orgasm just two days earlier, so it was no wonder. Then i needed to put everything away and lick the floor clean of my precum and wash it so that it doesn't become slippery.

Sunday, 29 March 2015

Reinventing O/our D/s relationship


Dear Diary, surprising things have happened. We had O/our conversation Thursday night in Her pc room. It turned out She was still in love with me and wanted to continue with me. She wanted to start O/our relationship all over again. A little crying, a little hugging, and i couldn't leave Her. W/we would reinvent O/our D/s relationship.

As W/we went to bed, She settled Herself on top of me, and some hot petting followed, kissing on the mouth, stroking of some crotch areas through O/our undies, some wetness in O/our pants, some sucking on Her nipples, some vigorous biting on my nipples, undressing the rest of clothes, removing the foreskin ring, condom on, on my back so She can mount me. We fucked, like never before, so energetic, so sweet it felt. She made a kind of a rope out of the sleeveless shirt i had worn, and pressed it into my mouth like a gag as She fucked me. Soon She wanted me to fuck Her from behind and W/we erupted in an orgasm, first Her, me trailing right after Her.


As for the new start, W/we decided to start with a date. The next day i took Her to a cafe, and there W/we outlined what would eventually become a feasible, sustainable D/s relationship. 

First, instead of rigid, long periods in D/s or non-D/s-mode, W/we will go into D/s mode every time Mistress wants it. She simple gives me some order, and that means i will now be Her slave and i have to thank Her if W/we are alone, carry out the command and afterwards curtsey if alone and report. Now if She continues to command me, D/s continues, if not, W/we continue automatically in vanilla mode. 

Besides, i will be responsible to find and arrange mutual time and suitable place for being privately together especially in the evenings before W/we get too tired. It's for Her to decide what W/we will do during those moments. It can be me pampering Her, just hugging and kissing, or something else. But once a week, probably during the weekend She will use this time to a sexual D/s session. 

She will also require intellectual input, ideas and plans from me. She doesn't want just a slave who only says 'thank you' to everything. W/we also decided that for the time being i don't epilate nor wear the cb as these are not to much interest of Hers.

Saturday, 28 March 2015

A day off

Saturday dawned cold as the whole winter. My piercing had been a bit sore for some time, but now it had felt cured, so i locked my penis again with two locks, epilated and put fire in the fireplace. 

Mistress woke up, maybe i made tea for Her i don't remember. During weekends Mistress has put me in Mode 2, 'the D/s mode', but i have always been the one to ask if W/we go into that mode. For some reason i wanted to see if She puts me in Mode 2 or takes up that subject if i don't. She didn't take it up. Instead She went to the laundry room to take care of laundry. i followed Her there and thought whether to ask it or not. Finally i didn't. 

i had free time. i had to think what to do myself. i fetched a book i had got as a Xmas present, and started reading it by the fireplace. 

Later She asked what i was doing and i said i thought i would like to read. Still later W/we talked about the issue itself and it turned out She had thought i wanted a day off, which i actually didn't. i only wanted to see that She puts me in submission.

i was sad without O/our connection, the weekly dose of D/s. It turned up i spent the whole day in Mode 1. i took care of the lunch anyway, and informed Her (from now on just 'her') that i go to the grocery store. i did most of the chores, now just the D/s element was missing and it felt lousy. 

In the evening She said She had some health problems, and said they may be due to the fact She has not been head over heels in love since She was 10 - implying She has never been a lot in love with me. i got so sad.

Monday, 23 March 2015

The most difficult assignment

On Sunday She left in the morning to a work assignment of Hers. I know She was doing some work together with a male colleague, but i'm pretty sure She isn't secretly cuckolding me. For me She left a challenge: if i can think of 10 tasks which improve O/our home and complete them, i get a reward. i said right away this is really difficult. i could easily COMPLETE 10 tasks, but to PLAN them, hard for a slave, not used to thinking.

Well i explained my predicament to Lina, my daughter, who brought me to the laundry room. We piled dried laundry, started the washing machine and ironed two jackets and a tablecloth that had been stored for some time waiting to be ironed. Then i washed O/our fireplace, cleaned up the kitchen, brought firewood inside, kept fire in the fireplace. However i didn't quite get 10 tasks together and did not get any reward. Instead She took me for another walk with Her deciding each turn as She always does. In the evening i had to warm up the sauna and prepare a large amount of creamy salmon soup as the rest of us were watching TV.


Next week went without much to report, Mode 1.

Sunday, 15 March 2015

Puppy training

Being in slavery for most part of 2,5 years has changed my behaviour in many ways, not only by making it feel awkward to masturbate without permission. Also, it has become self-evident that i eat always the oldest leftovers from the fridge, take care we always have all necessary supplies in the kitchen, take care there is a meal ready in the fridge as kids come home from school and i am still at work. These happen automatically now, my behaviour is modified.

Slaving away during weekend consisted of work, not much fun. Friday night She already programmed my Saturday morning. i'll have to get up early and do the groceries shopping before She wakes up. That effectively diminished my possibilities of net surfing. i was in my small car before 8am, and surely doing shopping was easy as i was nearly the only customer. As i got home, Mistress was awake and had made Herself tea. i brought Her the paper and joined Her for breakfast. She told me to put warm clothes on, She took me with Her on a long walk. Back home i prepared a delicious chicken soup for lunch, and did some cleaning up, dishwasher emptying and filling and other usual chores like that. W/we were in Mode 2 (slave mode) so i reported to Her after each task, curtseyed and thanked for the new command.

In the afternoon She arranged me some dog training, after Lina had been taken to Her sleepover. Sitting on O/our big sofa She said some dog schooling is necessary and started with 'Sit'. i failed immediately, i raised my hands below my chin like paws and knelt. Hands were Ok, but She corrected me and made me kneel with my butt on my heels. Then 'Roll over'. Again a mistake, i kept rolling over many times, She corrected that i must only roll over once after each command. Next ones were easier, though 'Stand' confused me for a moment and i stood up cautiously. Then 'Sit', 'Roll over' and 'Stand' were repeated until i knew the drill. Points of intrigue were biting painfully to my clitty inside cb-2000 as i wobbled to the kitchen to make Her white tea.


Later the evening W/we went to a ball looking so neat and sexy, me in a suit, Her in an evening dress and stockings.

Sunday, 8 March 2015

Painted toenails on sissy & surprise wank

On Sunday morning i woke up before the alarm at 6.20. This is the every other day that i epilate only my perineum, around genitals and ass crack, so i have time to update my blog and browse Fetlife. As my cb-2000 starts to feel painfully crowded, i shut the pc and get the paper. Soon Mistress wakes up and orders green tea. i prepare that and my own breakfast. After that i clean up and switch on the dishwasher (my job some 80% of the time).

She has some work to be done on Her laptop, but as Lina is away and Mats sleeps late, She orders me to choose one of Her nail polishes and paint my own toenails! It's new to me, i choose a bright red polish, go over the toenails carefully, put pencils between my toes as i have seen done, and let them dry. i succeed without stains, they look great: my feet are quite small and narrow, and they need just nail paint to seem very feminine (except for some hair that has to be removed). i show them to Mistress. She orders me to stay barefooted and dust the wall panels: a job that O/our hired cleaner never does. i take some pictures of my toes to post here as well.

Next i must check the ceilings for cobwebs in the whole house and then wash all doors, especially near handles, as they tend to get dirty. i'm afraid that Mats wakes up and sees my painted toenails. Soon it is lunch time, Mistress chooses enchilados, which is one of O/our favourites. i always make the cheese salsa for it myself, so it is an arduous dish to prepare. Mats comes down, but i notice and put socks on. i lay the table, and for myself i put a deep saucer, as i will not be eating the fresh enchilados, but the last existing portion of the quite old thai salmon soup.

After the meal i clear up, wash the surfaces and fill Mistress's next order, black tea with milk, and She gets a nice surprise as i remind Her of the last Danish i made yesterday. She eats it happily. You might get the impression that i never get any sweets, but that's actually not true. For instance this week Mistress brought especially for me white chocolate with blueberries. i have it on a sweets shelf, and help myself quite freely to it. Mostly i do selfregulation on how much sweets i eat. Only less than 4 pieces per day, but that's my own target, not Mistress's order. As W/we are normally in non-D/s “mode 1” on weekdays, it would not make sense to regulate my sweets consumption only during weekends.

She orders me to pick up Lina at the bus station, then She commands me to the gym with Her. i fill up water bottles for U/us without a specific order. At the gym you become always very aware of the chastity cage, though it doesn't hurt or otherwise hinder any way. Hard cage under tricot, changing in the locker room, hitting the cage lightly each time you pull the weights down...

Mistress has many things of Her own professional life to take care of this weekend, so She gives me a long term assignment: to plan the family a round trip in Norway next summer. That's nice as i may use the computer to do that, and steal some Femdom-time for myself.

Mistress wants to go to sauna today too, so i warm it up again. Before W/we go to sauna W/we eat some more. The others get the delicious enchilados, i may sit by the same table and eat yesterday's smoked salmon and potatoes.


Lina has started to go to sauna alone now that She has grown small breasts. She goes there first. In the sauna i'm again afraid that Mats comes and sees my toenails. Next Mistress gets in, Mats is watching a movie. We agree that if Mats sees them, i may say Mistress made me do it, as a joke. When comes the surprise. Mistress commands me matter-of-factly to kneel and start masturbating. This comes out of the blue, but so it is for a slave. As your Mistress commands it's the time, ready or not. i was not at all prepared, with no sexual thoughts, but i started quickly to masturbate on the tiled floor. Soon i got to the edge, and asked whether i should cum or not. She said go on, and i did. As the spurts started, i stopped the motions and just held my penis lightly, i am so accustomed to ruined orgasms i just couldn't keep masturbating during the orgasm. The cum landed on the floor tiles. i have been sideways to Her, and now i glance to Her and notice She has not been even watching. She is lying with a moist cloth over Her face to prevent the skin drying. However, She has heard me. i made some noise as i went over the edge, and She knows i am ready. 'Now clean up quick before Mats arrives' i get anxious. What is my son walks in now and finds pools of semen on the floor. Well he must enter through bathroom, so i now i have some time, and i drop my head to the floor and quickly gobble most of the slime up and swallow it. Then i get some tissue and wipe it clean. 'you didn't leave it slippery, did you' 'No, it's the precum that leaves the floor slippery, cum's not that slippery'. And W/we continue to bath, me released and without tensions, also with diminished subspace.

Sunday, 1 March 2015

Cured from the masturbation habit?

During the week there's some cold nights, and i volunteer to warm up first Her side of the bed and then move to warm up my own cold place. That becomes soon the standard procedure, if i get to bedroom before Her.

Saturday means another day in Mode 2, and i clean up in kitchen, get the paper for Her and after breakfast She orders me to start moving notes from the old address book to the new one. A long and tedious job that it interrupted as W/we take Lina to the bus, She's going to Oslo for a sleepover at her friend's.

Back home She decides to pluck my ears again. i have hair growing in my ears, Mistress dislikes it, and regularly orders me to bring tweezers and skin cream and lay my head ear up on Her lap. First it hurts a lot, but you get used to it and it is kind of relaxing eventually. Finally She takes a dollop of skin cream on Her finger and greases the ear, including the inner part, pushing Her finger deep, the grease making it feel and sound wild and making me feel penetrated. Next i'm made to fetch firewood and start warming the house with the fireplace, the cold weather continues.

i make lunch, it's leftover thai salmon soup this time, but for dessert Mistress wants Danish pastries filled with apple sauce and whipped cream. i take the dough sheets from freezer, then work with the fireplace, serve Her a big mug of black tea with milk which She has ordered in Her study. She orders me to look up Her camera, and bring it to Her. When i bring it, She makes me help Her doing some photographing. After that i may prepare the pastries and start warming up the sauna.

As pastries are ready Mistress has some with rooibos tea She ordered with them, and I am allowed to go to the sauna first, without the cb like always. There i am, alone, naked, my penis free. However i don't start masturbating. i feel my penis lightly a few times, but it would seem somehow odd and even awkward to start masturbating. i later come to think that the reason is that after nearly two years in the cb, and with minimal masturbation, nothing after the piercing as the pullout was prevented, i have forgotten the habit. i am cured! i browse Fetlife and other sites and leak precum and am constantly in a state of arousal, but when i get a chance to masturbate secretly, i don't do it.


The moment goes by, Mistress joins me soon and i begin water aerobics. This time doing the jumping jacks and other motions hurts on my piercing. The ring swings from side to side as i move and in the end of my penis it gains leverage. i ask Mistress whether to stop or put on swimming trunks, and She chooses the latter. With trunks on there's no pain.

Sunday, 22 February 2015

Sunday alone with a chore list

On Sunday i woke up early so that i could after epilating take care of my blog. During this time i got first feedback through the blog, and it was positive which made me glad, and i spent time translating a lot of my diary to English. Then i got the paper and had to do quite a lot of work clearing the paths from snow again, as it had snowed enormously more.

Keeping my foreskin locked was irritating my tender bits. i was not required to keep the foreskin ring locked, as the ring itself made pulling out very painful, and i had not even considered it after getting pierced. On Saturday i locked the foreskin ring, and had no major issues nor concerns. But Sunday morning, every slight semi erection, during my morning net browsing, caused a hell of a pain. i got upstairs as i heard Mistress woke up, and with Her permission removed the foreskin lock.

She was relaxed today and let me read the paper with Her. She was going to Oslo to visit some art galleries, and decided to leave me home with a list of chores. First and biggest was to clean the insides of all the cupboards. She was going to check the results and maybe give me a prize or punishment again.

i started the job, She left and the girls woke up. i laid breakfast table for them and acted again as a good father figure by emptying and washing up cupboards and arranging stuff in them in good order, as they were having breakfast at the kitchen table.

Next on the list was clearing the yard (well!) of the snow, filling up firewood containers, making chili con carne for the kids, paying the bills and taking care of the accounts. Then i went through some personal email neglected for too long, PTA stuff etc. Then i text messaged Mistress and asked if i can skip the gym. i was glad She replied 'Ok'. Last on my list was heating up sauna, and i had used my day just as Mistress had planned as She bot back home and started ordering me around with little tasks, bringing Her stuff, remembering to curtsey if kids were not around etc. She did check the cupbboards and didn't find any issues there.

i was wondering if a prize was in order as She retired early, and i trailed Her upstairs. As W/we were ready for bed, Mistress tossed me a big bottle of skin moisturizer and said 'This may be a reward or a punishment, but now you will rub my skin up, and do a good job about it.' She made sure all dry parts were moisturized, and deliberate amounts of cream were used. i was since a long time allowed to touch and massage Her breasts and buttocks, along with all other parts of Her body. Except for pussy, as it is self-lubricated as She put it. Well it was a reward, of course. i'm happy W/we get back to normal step by step.


Thursday, 12 February 2015

Things getting back to normal (24/7 D/s)

Next evening She kisses me on the mouth as W/we lie on the bed. She has not kissed me on the mouth for months. i say i'm happy She has started to kiss me and make love to me again. She says She's starting to accept that She is still going to be married to me. Feels good!

Friday evening She ordered me to clean the glass windows and the doors of O/our wraught iron fireplace in the morning so that it's ready as She wakes up. i always use alarm to wake up early also during weekends as mornings are my only allocated times for net browsing. Now i had less time for that on Saturday morning.

i complied and everything was clean at 8am. As She woke up She had me first clear the paths of snow, then used me first as Her chauffeur, without telling me beforehand where we were heading. It turned out to be a tour of two second hand shops and grocery store for me. After W/we ate a tortilla lunch prepared by me, She ordered me to make rooibos tea for Her as i make coffee for myself, kids hearing.

Then i got a lecture for not updating my long term chore excel for nearly a year. It's a list of chores that are due seldom, like once in three months or once a year. For example cleaning the inside of Her car, cleaning the pool, moving certain plants to bigger pots etc. The excel file includes last dates when i have done it, and next dates when i should do it next time. However, there were many chores that were overdue.

So now She ordered me to do two dirty jobs that were much overdue. First i needed to clean up air conditioning machine and its filters, then empty central vacuum cleaner's waste container. The filters were very dirty and the waste container was crammed full, filters already non-operational. i had to walk in deep snow to get the dirt emptied in compost. As i reported back She forced me to kneel, as She was sitting on the sofa, and said that i had dropped dirt from the AC filters on Her stuff, and i will be punished for that carelessness.

But first She made me remove shit out of hamster's cage. Nice addition to emptying cat's litter box each day. As i wanted to report to Her after that, i faced a problem. i didn't know where She was, so i had to knock on many closed doors as i am not allowed to open doors without knocking.

Finally as i found Her in the bedroom, She said it was my punishment time. i wondered whether it would be electric shocks, eating restrictions, the riding crop or what, and my clitty tries to get hard in my cb. It hurts and i have to bend over. She orders me to bring the cayenne pepper. Now i believe She's putting it under my foreskin. As i have offered it to Her kneeling, She orders me to tilt my head and open my mouth. She scatters a healthy dose of cayenne in my mouth and makes me swallow, open up my mouth again and i feel the powder drop on my tongue as She repeats the process. My mouth's on fire and soon my stomach's too. Then She orders me to make Her black tea and after that get lost. i update this in my diary and have a nap, to be able to offer more service when it is needed.

Mistress woke me up as She wanted a cup of green tea, and then i needed to prepare a lot of chicken pasta soup and warm up the sauna. Lina's four friends were arriving soon for a sleep over, and sauna and swims at O/our pool were in order. i am happy kids get a good example in O/our home that daddy can also be the one to cook and clean.

i had to eat the leftovers of the earlier tortilla meal myself, and as i was making dough after the meal to prepare fried bananas for dessert, Mistress ever so kindly helped me to clear the table and fed me the remains of cold chicken sauce. Mistress wanted to fry loads of bananas, as much to use up all the dough, and i was insolent enough to state as my opinion - which of course did not count - that less would be enough. Well, Mistress was right and everything was eaten with good apetite by Mats and the girls watching a movie.

Mistress sent me to get more firewood and girls went to sauna after i had brushed its floor and checked it was OK and then i bathed alone, Mistress wanted sauna on Sunday. I did unsupervised the whole set of water aerobics. i was unattended with the cb removed, but i didn't masturbate. However i did put my penis backwards, upside down on a bench, pretended my ankles were spread wide and tied to its legs and i flicked my finger across my frenum without cumming of course. i know it was wrong, but couldn't help it.


As She had punished me today, i was very surprised that in the evening She made me kneel by Her side of the bed, drop my thong and masturbate for a full minute, full hand, watching the time from my wrist watch all the time. It was a present for working hard for Her today. i was somehow unprepared and could not even edge during that time, though it's a long time since She made me spill my semen on the floor last time. We fell asleep holding each other.

Sunday, 8 February 2015

Mistress accepts sex from me again

Back to the diary:

i ask Her every night if She would like sex. She is surprised, She thought i would not be interested due to my orgasm. She says She takes care of Her pleasure Herself. i am sad i am not allowed to participate.

Thursday morning as my alarm rings at 5.50, She sticks out Her hand and touches my head. Many times something like this has been a sign for Her willingness to sex. i start stroking Her, gradually start to hug Her body, and She allows me to lie on top of Her, kissing Her neck, feeling Her. i get immediately a hard-on that presses against Her belly. She doesn't want to take advantage of it, She just wants closeness and affection. i'm happy She wants as much.

Mistress is having Her period. On Saturday W/we go and have the swine flu shots. Mistress gets worse after the shot, and the weekend is spent basically in Mode 2, She ordering me around, but besides that, the only D/s is as She orders me to act as Her teacup holder after i have once again fulfilled Her order to prepare Her a cup of tea. As kids are around, watching TV with Mistress, She discreetly orders me to sit by Her on the floor. We are also used to sitting on the carpet, so the kids don't pay attention to me. The cup warms my hands as i wrap them around it, holding my hands folded near my neck, where She picks the cup as She likes. The weekend is of course filled with chores also: making all meals, churro dough (Mistress helps by baking), spreading ashes to the kitchen garden, filling up bird feed tray, fetching firewood and warming up with the fireplace (still really cold winter here), going to the gym, water aerobics, bringing Her various things, tending to the stove and oven and using special cleaner to them, paying the bills etc. i am also made to go over tops of all cupboards in the household with a vacuum cleaner and a wet washcloth.

In the evening She says She's not having sex with me any more. It cannot be discussed. She asks if i would need masturbation. i say i don't. She says She doesn't use that opimion as a basis for Her decision, but She doesn't make me masturbate.


Tuesday night there's a surprise. It was a very long day at work and after work i shopped for groceries so i got home very late. We got early to bed. We normally hug in bed, but this time She even rose on top of me. And let me stroke Her skin, and butt and breasts through Her nightie. However She was silent and thoughtful and i didn't understand what She was thinking about. Then She said She is in need of an orgasm and said that She puts on the new set of undies and stockings i brought Her for Xmas, and W/we will fuck without any foreplay, no licking Her sex etc. i remove my foreskin ring as She doesn't like its feel inside Her and put on a condom. i fondle Her from the back as She sits on the bed, W/we remove Her pretty new knickers together, and W/we fuck. i have drawn my foreskin forward to cover the glans so i don't get too excited and managed to fuck Her to an orgasm (from the back, on O/our sides) without cumming myself.