Sunday, 29 March 2015
Dear Diary, surprising things have happened. We had O/our conversation Thursday night in Her pc room. It turned out She was still in love with me and wanted to continue with me. She wanted to start O/our relationship all over again. A little crying, a little hugging, and i couldn't leave Her. W/we would reinvent O/our D/s relationship.
As W/we went to bed, She settled Herself on top of me, and some hot petting followed, kissing on the mouth, stroking of some crotch areas through O/our undies, some wetness in O/our pants, some sucking on Her nipples, some vigorous biting on my nipples, undressing the rest of clothes, removing the foreskin ring, condom on, on my back so She can mount me. We fucked, like never before, so energetic, so sweet it felt. She made a kind of a rope out of the sleeveless shirt i had worn, and pressed it into my mouth like a gag as She fucked me. Soon She wanted me to fuck Her from behind and W/we erupted in an orgasm, first Her, me trailing right after Her.
As for the new start, W/we decided to start with a date. The next day i took Her to a cafe, and there W/we outlined what would eventually become a feasible, sustainable D/s relationship.
First, instead of rigid, long periods in D/s or non-D/s-mode, W/we will go into D/s mode every time Mistress wants it. She simple gives me some order, and that means i will now be Her slave and i have to thank Her if W/we are alone, carry out the command and afterwards curtsey if alone and report. Now if She continues to command me, D/s continues, if not, W/we continue automatically in vanilla mode.
Besides, i will be responsible to find and arrange mutual time and suitable place for being privately together especially in the evenings before W/we get too tired. It's for Her to decide what W/we will do during those moments. It can be me pampering Her, just hugging and kissing, or something else. But once a week, probably during the weekend She will use this time to a sexual D/s session.
She will also require intellectual input, ideas and plans from me. She doesn't want just a slave who only says 'thank you' to everything. W/we also decided that for the time being i don't epilate nor wear the cb as these are not to much interest of Hers.
Saturday, 28 March 2015
Saturday dawned cold as the whole winter. My piercing had been a bit sore for some time, but now it had felt cured, so i locked my penis again with two locks, epilated and put fire in the fireplace.
Mistress woke up, maybe i made tea for Her i don't remember. During weekends Mistress has put me in Mode 2, 'the D/s mode', but i have always been the one to ask if W/we go into that mode. For some reason i wanted to see if She puts me in Mode 2 or takes up that subject if i don't. She didn't take it up. Instead She went to the laundry room to take care of laundry. i followed Her there and thought whether to ask it or not. Finally i didn't.
i had free time. i had to think what to do myself. i fetched a book i had got as a Xmas present, and started reading it by the fireplace.
Later She asked what i was doing and i said i thought i would like to read. Still later W/we talked about the issue itself and it turned out She had thought i wanted a day off, which i actually didn't. i only wanted to see that She puts me in submission.
i was sad without O/our connection, the weekly dose of D/s. It turned up i spent the whole day in Mode 1. i took care of the lunch anyway, and informed Her (from now on just 'her') that i go to the grocery store. i did most of the chores, now just the D/s element was missing and it felt lousy.
In the evening She said She had some health problems, and said they may be due to the fact She has not been head over heels in love since She was 10 - implying She has never been a lot in love with me. i got so sad.
Monday, 23 March 2015
On Sunday She left in the morning to a work assignment of Hers. I know She was doing some work together with a male colleague, but i'm pretty sure She isn't secretly cuckolding me. For me She left a challenge: if i can think of 10 tasks which improve O/our home and complete them, i get a reward. i said right away this is really difficult. i could easily COMPLETE 10 tasks, but to PLAN them, hard for a slave, not used to thinking.
Well i explained my predicament to Lina, my daughter, who brought me to the laundry room. We piled dried laundry, started the washing machine and ironed two jackets and a tablecloth that had been stored for some time waiting to be ironed. Then i washed O/our fireplace, cleaned up the kitchen, brought firewood inside, kept fire in the fireplace. However i didn't quite get 10 tasks together and did not get any reward. Instead She took me for another walk with Her deciding each turn as She always does. In the evening i had to warm up the sauna and prepare a large amount of creamy salmon soup as the rest of us were watching TV.
Next week went without much to report, Mode 1.
Sunday, 15 March 2015
Being in slavery for most part of 2,5 years has changed my behaviour in many ways, not only by making it feel awkward to masturbate without permission. Also, it has become self-evident that i eat always the oldest leftovers from the fridge, take care we always have all necessary supplies in the kitchen, take care there is a meal ready in the fridge as kids come home from school and i am still at work. These happen automatically now, my behaviour is modified.
Slaving away during weekend consisted of work, not much fun. Friday night She already programmed my Saturday morning. i'll have to get up early and do the groceries shopping before She wakes up. That effectively diminished my possibilities of net surfing. i was in my small car before 8am, and surely doing shopping was easy as i was nearly the only customer. As i got home, Mistress was awake and had made Herself tea. i brought Her the paper and joined Her for breakfast. She told me to put warm clothes on, She took me with Her on a long walk. Back home i prepared a delicious chicken soup for lunch, and did some cleaning up, dishwasher emptying and filling and other usual chores like that. W/we were in Mode 2 (slave mode) so i reported to Her after each task, curtseyed and thanked for the new command.
In the afternoon She arranged me some dog training, after Lina had been taken to Her sleepover. Sitting on O/our big sofa She said some dog schooling is necessary and started with 'Sit'. i failed immediately, i raised my hands below my chin like paws and knelt. Hands were Ok, but She corrected me and made me kneel with my butt on my heels. Then 'Roll over'. Again a mistake, i kept rolling over many times, She corrected that i must only roll over once after each command. Next ones were easier, though 'Stand' confused me for a moment and i stood up cautiously. Then 'Sit', 'Roll over' and 'Stand' were repeated until i knew the drill. Points of intrigue were biting painfully to my clitty inside cb-2000 as i wobbled to the kitchen to make Her white tea.
Later the evening W/we went to a ball looking so neat and sexy, me in a suit, Her in an evening dress and stockings.
Sunday, 8 March 2015
On Sunday morning i woke up before the alarm at 6.20. This is the every other day that i epilate only my perineum, around genitals and ass crack, so i have time to update my blog and browse Fetlife. As my cb-2000 starts to feel painfully crowded, i shut the pc and get the paper. Soon Mistress wakes up and orders green tea. i prepare that and my own breakfast. After that i clean up and switch on the dishwasher (my job some 80% of the time).
She has some work to be done on Her laptop, but as Lina is away and Mats sleeps late, She orders me to choose one of Her nail polishes and paint my own toenails! It's new to me, i choose a bright red polish, go over the toenails carefully, put pencils between my toes as i have seen done, and let them dry. i succeed without stains, they look great: my feet are quite small and narrow, and they need just nail paint to seem very feminine (except for some hair that has to be removed). i show them to Mistress. She orders me to stay barefooted and dust the wall panels: a job that O/our hired cleaner never does. i take some pictures of my toes to post here as well.
Next i must check the ceilings for cobwebs in the whole house and then wash all doors, especially near handles, as they tend to get dirty. i'm afraid that Mats wakes up and sees my painted toenails. Soon it is lunch time, Mistress chooses enchilados, which is one of O/our favourites. i always make the cheese salsa for it myself, so it is an arduous dish to prepare. Mats comes down, but i notice and put socks on. i lay the table, and for myself i put a deep saucer, as i will not be eating the fresh enchilados, but the last existing portion of the quite old thai salmon soup.
After the meal i clear up, wash the surfaces and fill Mistress's next order, black tea with milk, and She gets a nice surprise as i remind Her of the last Danish i made yesterday. She eats it happily. You might get the impression that i never get any sweets, but that's actually not true. For instance this week Mistress brought especially for me white chocolate with blueberries. i have it on a sweets shelf, and help myself quite freely to it. Mostly i do selfregulation on how much sweets i eat. Only less than 4 pieces per day, but that's my own target, not Mistress's order. As W/we are normally in non-D/s “mode 1” on weekdays, it would not make sense to regulate my sweets consumption only during weekends.
She orders me to pick up Lina at the bus station, then She commands me to the gym with Her. i fill up water bottles for U/us without a specific order. At the gym you become always very aware of the chastity cage, though it doesn't hurt or otherwise hinder any way. Hard cage under tricot, changing in the locker room, hitting the cage lightly each time you pull the weights down...
Mistress has many things of Her own professional life to take care of this weekend, so She gives me a long term assignment: to plan the family a round trip in Norway next summer. That's nice as i may use the computer to do that, and steal some Femdom-time for myself.
Mistress wants to go to sauna today too, so i warm it up again. Before W/we go to sauna W/we eat some more. The others get the delicious enchilados, i may sit by the same table and eat yesterday's smoked salmon and potatoes.
Lina has started to go to sauna alone now that She has grown small breasts. She goes there first. In the sauna i'm again afraid that Mats comes and sees my toenails. Next Mistress gets in, Mats is watching a movie. We agree that if Mats sees them, i may say Mistress made me do it, as a joke. When comes the surprise. Mistress commands me matter-of-factly to kneel and start masturbating. This comes out of the blue, but so it is for a slave. As your Mistress commands it's the time, ready or not. i was not at all prepared, with no sexual thoughts, but i started quickly to masturbate on the tiled floor. Soon i got to the edge, and asked whether i should cum or not. She said go on, and i did. As the spurts started, i stopped the motions and just held my penis lightly, i am so accustomed to ruined orgasms i just couldn't keep masturbating during the orgasm. The cum landed on the floor tiles. i have been sideways to Her, and now i glance to Her and notice She has not been even watching. She is lying with a moist cloth over Her face to prevent the skin drying. However, She has heard me. i made some noise as i went over the edge, and She knows i am ready. 'Now clean up quick before Mats arrives' i get anxious. What is my son walks in now and finds pools of semen on the floor. Well he must enter through bathroom, so i now i have some time, and i drop my head to the floor and quickly gobble most of the slime up and swallow it. Then i get some tissue and wipe it clean. 'you didn't leave it slippery, did you' 'No, it's the precum that leaves the floor slippery, cum's not that slippery'. And W/we continue to bath, me released and without tensions, also with diminished subspace.
Sunday, 1 March 2015
During the week there's some cold nights, and i volunteer to warm up first Her side of the bed and then move to warm up my own cold place. That becomes soon the standard procedure, if i get to bedroom before Her.
Saturday means another day in Mode 2, and i clean up in kitchen, get the paper for Her and after breakfast She orders me to start moving notes from the old address book to the new one. A long and tedious job that it interrupted as W/we take Lina to the bus, She's going to Oslo for a sleepover at her friend's.
Back home She decides to pluck my ears again. i have hair growing in my ears, Mistress dislikes it, and regularly orders me to bring tweezers and skin cream and lay my head ear up on Her lap. First it hurts a lot, but you get used to it and it is kind of relaxing eventually. Finally She takes a dollop of skin cream on Her finger and greases the ear, including the inner part, pushing Her finger deep, the grease making it feel and sound wild and making me feel penetrated. Next i'm made to fetch firewood and start warming the house with the fireplace, the cold weather continues.
i make lunch, it's leftover thai salmon soup this time, but for dessert Mistress wants Danish pastries filled with apple sauce and whipped cream. i take the dough sheets from freezer, then work with the fireplace, serve Her a big mug of black tea with milk which She has ordered in Her study. She orders me to look up Her camera, and bring it to Her. When i bring it, She makes me help Her doing some photographing. After that i may prepare the pastries and start warming up the sauna.
As pastries are ready Mistress has some with rooibos tea She ordered with them, and I am allowed to go to the sauna first, without the cb like always. There i am, alone, naked, my penis free. However i don't start masturbating. i feel my penis lightly a few times, but it would seem somehow odd and even awkward to start masturbating. i later come to think that the reason is that after nearly two years in the cb, and with minimal masturbation, nothing after the piercing as the pullout was prevented, i have forgotten the habit. i am cured! i browse Fetlife and other sites and leak precum and am constantly in a state of arousal, but when i get a chance to masturbate secretly, i don't do it.
The moment goes by, Mistress joins me soon and i begin water aerobics. This time doing the jumping jacks and other motions hurts on my piercing. The ring swings from side to side as i move and in the end of my penis it gains leverage. i ask Mistress whether to stop or put on swimming trunks, and She chooses the latter. With trunks on there's no pain.