Friday, 8 December 2017

New red corset and a ruined corset

W/we have purchased a few items from Aliexpress, chinese toys etc.  Mistress decides what of them to use in the sessions. One of the items is a red corset, and yesterday i was told to wear it, and only it and a red condom (not to leak precum all over) for the whole duration of the session. i liked very much how especially my growing titties look in this corset, so i asked to take a few pics.
First there was the usual serving session. i was told to empty the dishwasher first, that implied to also fill it and clean the kitchen. Then there was some odd jobs, getting some stuff Mistress needed, bringing back some stuff, and each time i had to pass some of the windows which made me very self-conscious in my outfit.
i had to also keep up the fire in the fireplace, while i was told to dust the carpets in the balcony.  Fortunately the balcony faces away from the other houses, so nobody probably saw, me as i whad to go also to the cold winter weather in the red corset only.  i was also sent to check what we have in our extra freezer in the garage, and going there means i have to cross our yard.  i was told to put only shoes and an overcot on top of my scarce outfit. It was windy, and the wind grabbed my coat, and raised the hem, and momentarily even my condom was showing on the yard.
Back at the house She ordered Her supper sandwiches.  i had to eat mine from the floor without hands.  Somehow it made them taste better!  She didn't comment on my looks at all.
Finally i got the order to get to the bedroom, there my hands there shackled to leg of the bed, and a humbler (one of the new purchases) was attached to my balls.  she fixed it the other way, so that the curvy parts don't go along the form of thighs but the other way round. So the balls were pulled much more than then W/we tried the humbler first. Standing upright was impossible, and only on all fours there was no strain.
As i was on all fours with the humbler and tied hands, she grabbed my condomed clit from behind and started to milk it, bending it back.  It felt heavenly, and she continued it quite a long time, keeping a break, and leaving me for a while and then continuing.  She didn't edge me though. 
Next she took the electro kit, and started to put the electro straps around my clit. i remarked that condom prevents electro from penetrating, but she did not want to take the condom away, so she took a Hitachi, and told me to lift my ass up if i wanted to feel the Hitachi.
It was a very strenuous position, hands down, stooping on my spread feet, as she again bent my package back, and pushed the Hitachi right against my clit, repositioning it a couple of times nearer the tip. i was rock hard now, She also grabbed my balls, and soon i had to confess i was near the edge. She asked "How near" and dropped my package, and i didn't cum. But She grabbed it again, and renewed Her efforts.  i was soon nearing the edge again, and told Her so, and She removed everything again, pulling only the humbler, but i was now too far, and one squirt entered the tip of the condom.  i was sorry i came without permission, but She stated she wanted to give me a ruined, as i had been sessioned only 3 weeks previously (because of tigt schedules) and cum only more than a month previously.
The day before W/we had had a long session for Her, including me manipulating and licking Her nipples, licking Her pussy,  taking viagra and fucking with her without neither of U/us cumming.  She cums better with Her dildo, but She likes to cuddle with me.




Wednesday, 15 November 2017

Extra Father's day session

It was the Father's Day in Finland on Sunday, and Mistress told me in the morning that as a present i will get a 1-2 hour session, nice!

First She told me to undress altogether. Then go on all fours, but not on my knees, to the kitchen behind Her. There i had to cook fishes for O/our cat, and kiss cold fish first, yuck!  Cleaning the kitchen during the cooking was a given.  Next i had to assist Mistress in preparing Her luggage for O/our holiday that starts next week.

i had to act as Her seat as She had Her tea. i was in all fours again, on my knees, and She sat on my lower back, one leg at each side.  Next She told me to carry Her around the big carpet (my knees were bare). i could manage that quite well!

Next it was upstairs, opening the toy chest for Her, taking out trays... She chose clover clamps, and threatened to put those on my tender nipple, but instead but them to my earlobes. There is a chain connecting them, and She fixed a leathe leash to the middle of the chain so She could lead me from the clamps.

First She gathered the leash into a tight bundle, and kept Her hand low so i had to bend double as i followed Her, and keep 30cm from Her right hip! She was turning round a lot, making it difficult to follow and not bump into Her, but it was really fun, i started leaking precum.

She drew the nipple chain over my head to the back now, while i was standing still, and started tilting me to the back by my ears, until my back was severely arched to the back. She had noticed my excitement and She started now masturbating me in my awkward position, and She could have made me cum, but She stopped just short of it.

Now She guided me backwards to the bed using the leash, told me to sit and lie on my back on the bed, while She took wrist cuffs, tied them on me, and the cuffs to a belt on my waist. Now She removed Her panties and sat Her full weight on my chest, looking at my face. There was not much i could do as She raised Herself a bit, and moved to my mouth, i used my new pussylicking skills for a nice long time.

It was the first time for a long time i could lick Her from below like W/we used to in O/our early days! A good father's day present!

Saturday, 11 November 2017

Pony training 2

Yesterday was a session night again.  Normally W/we start at 6pm, but now She told me half an hour earlier W/we could start. i was in the middle of doing customs clearance in the net for Scott Paul humiliator gag system, but i just closed my laptop even though it meant i had to start the whole process today from scratch.

On my knees i get 'Slave ready for service'.  First She told me to follow Her upstairs, where She had took some of Her clothes out of the closet.  She told me to remove everything and put on a condom. She must have decided to put an end to leakages on the floors. Then She pointed at some black cloth: 'Put that on!' They were a pair of half-leg black women's long johns. That was my slave attire tonight.

She had saved cleaning toilets for me.  She told me i will have to ask for Her inspection after each of the three toilets is cleaned. She told me not to forget mirrors, doors, surfaces, bowls and their lids.  Then off i went to clean first of the toilets.  In inspection She noticed hand mirrors were not polished, and also the soup holder was not washed.  Next toilets i did more carefully, but She was strict and made me redo some mirrors etc.

Next was cooking supper. She gave precise instructions what to prepare, and how to serve, including candle light. i could choose from two yogurt types, and a lot of Puerari mirifica was added for me. As i cleared the table later, i already new to clean thoroughly the kitchen as well. i even started to clean the burned down dirt from the oven. i tried different detergents and tools and gradually i started to get it off the glass door of the oven.

At some point Mistress brought me an old rusty strap of a handbag and told me to sandpaper it for Her at the kitchen table. She came to read the newspaper by me.  A few times She inspected the work and told me to sand it further, then She accepted it and i could continue with the oven. She was happy i was finding work for myself.

Next She ordered a pear and as i got it for Her, i stayed by Her feet, and She spit stem in my hand and i had to run to the kitchen to deposit it to the waist basket and then again the core. Then started a long, long session of me reading Her book to her aloud, and finally it was my session time.  First it was pony training. She seems to like it. She told me to remove the pants, the condom became visible now. As a humiliation She improvised a head harness from a strap-on harness, and told me to keep my hands folded on top of my tits (which i however kept forgetting).

i had to bring downstairs her riding crop and a long spreader bar She is using as an obstacle. First it was rounds of low gait, then high stepping, then canter, then canter with an obstacle each round. She raised the bar each time until it was about 50cm high. It was becoming exhausting, and my sissy clit was flopping against my thighs, which made Mistress laugh. i got an erection a few times.

Next She told me to go find a dressage competition video, and plan a dressage show of my own to some music. A big carpet was cleared in the living room, that was the show area.  If the show was good, i would get a treat, otherwise a punishment. i planned and performed a show using the music from the dressage competition video. There were piaffe, passage, diagonal trot from corner to corner, Spanish walk, piaffe turning around, high stepping, regular trot etc.  A few times i had a problem with my balance but i think it went well. i was astonished when Mistress told me it was lousy, and i had not improved from last time. She told me i could rehearse the gaits during my free time, which i plan to do.

Well, next order was bedroom, where i was ordered on the floor on all fours. Only my wrists were tied together with wrist cuffs, head harness stayed on. A blanket was tossed on me, like the horse i was. i sweated under it until it was removed and Mistress fixed our newly arrived silicone electro loops around the middle of my sissy clit, keeping still the condom on the lower half of the sissy clit, and around my ball sac.  She used many different programs, going from mild to extra intensive. First all programs made me yelp, but i got the hang of it, and stayed clasping my hands together, the harder the more intensive the program. Some intensive programs drove me towards a forced cum, but She decided to stop before that, to keep my horniness intact.






Wednesday, 8 November 2017

I had the first laser treatment "Brazilian"

It's official, my crotch is permanently laser hair removal treated now!  Of course it should take 3-4 more sessions to get it 100% hairless. i was surprised how quick and easy it was.

i went to the nice laser clinic last week, where i had already been to a discussion and test earlier. Now i had booked time for a brazilian treatment: laser hair removal for the entire bikini area, front to back.

The nice lady nurse is a straightforward person. "Take your pants off then and on the table". I could keep my socks and shirt.  We discussed the area a bit, she was a bit surprised at the big size of the treated area, and also wanted me to confirm that i wished even the ball sacs treated, but of course i wanted, those are most difficult to shave!

She drew some lines on the skin, and put the cool air blower on my crotch and started.  The smell of burning hair was eminent right away even though i had shaved everything off that same morning, like instructed.  The smell comes from the burning hair follicles.

My white skin, dark hair combination seems perfect for laser. Luckily i have no grey hairs yet.

As she had treated my front, she told me to stretch my penis to the side, as she treated the side of it. So she did not touch my junk herself at all.  Next i had to stretch it the other way, and then towards my navel, as she treated the underside of penis.

During the test i had been able to stay 100% limp, but to my horror i noticed that i was getting semi erect! i could however hide it those crucial moments under my hand, and thinking about work stuff i could get it fully limp again. Close shave!

She asked me to say right away if it bites too badly, which i did as she started to treat the area between my penis and balls. She turned down the intensity for that area, i think.  That was the only area there i noticed burned hair a few days later.  i had to stretch my ball sac skin next that way and the other as she went through it as well as she could. When the machine does not give sounds, there is no more hair to be treated, and then she moved on.

Next she told me to take me knees to opposite directions, so she could work my perineum and the crease between thigh and perineum.  At no stage did he order me to lift my legs from the table.

Mostly the treatment hurt only a little, but a few times i jerked from pain, like when in the final phase she had ordered me to turn around and lay on my belly, and she opened up my buttocks and treated my ass crack and the area right around my anus. The darkish seam between buttocks hurt namely a lot. the reason is that darker skin also sucks up part of the energy.

Now after 6 days it seems to have worked very well. Some hairs are left, some fall out and next i will contact the nurse again, and ask if i should keep the hairs that grow back intact or shave them. But overall i am very happy about the results, and maybe some other areas like my chest will be treated.
Smooth as a baby - forever!!

Friday, 3 November 2017

Carrying a bucket of water with my balls

During the next "my" sessions, She has restarted an old habit W/we had, me reading to Her. She is reading a book, but during a session She shows me where to start reading and i read out loud to Her. i know nothing of the book, have not read it, but it is not for me, it is for Her. Some tens of pages at a time.  The "pre-session" when i serve Her according to Her every whim, has been becoming longer, yesterday it was 4 hours, starting at 6pm till 10pm.

After that She goes through the idea pics, (i could post all the idea pics if you like), and decides what to do to me.  This time i was told to fix a ball weight, when tied standing up legs spread and tied to the corners of a bed, hands behind my back and tied to the collar. A blindfold was added. She added some weight to the ball weight, then i understood it was an empty bucket, because i heard Her pouring water and there was more weight to my balls.

After 1 litre of water my balls were in agony. However She added half a litre, and left me to suffer.  i asked if i could sit on the footboard of the bed, and She allowed it. Even though the bucket was still above the  floor, that eased things up, and i said now i can even take some more. She added half a litre, but told me to stand up!  That was agony, and i asked if i could sit again, but She said no!  i had to carry 2 litres of water with my metal ball weight. Then She took a whip (turned out to be a riding crop) and started hitting strategic places of my body in random order: clit, ass, balls, tits, back...

She uses these pics as a model.  my hair is shaved like in the pic, and also the weight is similar, though i have rings in my ball weight which were used to carry the bucket.
Finally i started to feel sick, which She noticed and let me sit on the footboard bar. However that didn't help, and She called the session off.

Going down on Her

Mistress used Her option for Her own sex session yesterday. First W/we relaxed in the sauna. Next She settled on the floor and had me grease Her dry skin from neck to toe, and had me pay extra attention to Her toes.
Massage made Her well relaxed and She put on stockings and a suspender belt, nothing else. She wanted me to swipe the tender skin of Her legs and thighs, then concentrate between Her legs. After a lot of sweeping i could finger fuck Her, first one, then two, three fingers. She does not like to be actually finger fucked, the fingers need to be rotated inside Her.
Finally She asked me to lick Her clit lightly, again no flicking, no fast moves, but slow, continuous licks, and my fingers inside Her as well. She finished Herself off Herself.

Friday, 27 October 2017

Pueraria Mirifica

W/we have purchased a big lot of pueraria mirifica and i'm taking some 500mg daily. It's a big source of phytoestrogen so it's hormone replacement therapy and keeping my estrogen levels high. It is in the form of powder and i put it in my sandwiches on top of margarine.

Saturday, 14 October 2017

Ordered to edge myself

We had O/our weekly session already, as Mats is joining U/us fr the weekend.

Mistress said that She was looking forward to the session, and She might want more than one submission session per week. She requires absolute obeience during the session. As she had me strip, put on a leather bikini and a lacy white apron and kneel up, my hands fidgeted under the apron. She strictly ordered me to kneel still and look straight ahead, and had me kneel there until i was perfectly still a long time, including my hands, while She was talking about small boys with ADHD.
She had me spread newspapers on the living room floor and told me to fetch Her long boots from the basement and shoe polishing stuff. As She browsed Her phone and listened to some news from it, i knelt at Her feet and rubbed Her boots with shoe polisher. Twice She dismissed my work, making me continue polishing until i spread polisher all along the surface to the very top and rubbed them again totally.  i had to go through all Her shoes after that and clean all pairs that needed cleaning or polishing, and She inspected them all.  One pair of white plastic shoes has scratches, and i couldn't get them good even though i tried to clean them with soap after Her instruction. 

She used me for getting all the odd jobs done, arranging stuff, taking stuff to its place, even put a coat on top of my attire and run to my car to fix stickers to the windcreen.  She also gave me two minutes to suggest three jobs that needed to be done around the house.  i quickly teetered about to find things to do, and could manage to put together a proposal in two minutes: arranging and clearing magazines, stuff on the chairs, and floors that needed cleaning.  Then She made me do part of those and sent me to prepare supper for Her.  i have to concentrate hard as She itemizes things to use for Her supper, everything has to be right.  Cleaning kitchen fully is expected with every kitchen duty.

i made a couple of mistakes which made Her mad. She notices i had read a magazine while waiting Her tea to settle, and as She gave me permission to have ice cream with Her, i started eating before She gave me permission to start.  She is really strict nowadays with stuff like that and really scolds me.  Now corporal punishment this time though.  A lot of kneeling upright by Her feet of course.
She had me wor for Her for more than three hours, like She is used to, before telling me to remove my apron and get to upstairs in the leather bikini. i was told to remove that too, bring Her a batch of parchment paper and sit by the wall in lotus position, my back tightly against a cupboard door. She pushed a ball gag in my mouth and added a blindfold.  The parchment paper was placed under my crotch. Then She gave me the Hitachi vibrator, and told me to play with it, but no cummies!

It was fun!  i understood i could not touch my sissy clit with my hand, only with the wand. i found it easier to try to press my clit against the floor, which felt right too.  The more i pressed, the quicker i got to the edge, then i had to raise the vibrator.  She grabbed my genitals every now and then and twisted them violently do that i whimpered. She also teased my nipples which are sensitive due to my new Pueraria Mirifica use. The clit slipped easily so it was not so easy to do this with one hand. i tried also to press my clit against my belly but that was even more difficult. Eventually i had to lick the paper clean, i had leaked a lot of precum, but no cummies like said.

Tuesday, 10 October 2017

Laser hair removal

W/we have agreed that i will be undergoing full permanent hair removal on my bikini area. Today i auditioned for the treatment.  Of course it was a young female who i talked to. i had asked beforehand for a kink-friendly clinic, so i knew they would not raise their eyebrows on my wish.

Everything went fine.  She wanted to do a test, and had me remove my pants, and lay on the treatment table. Then She positioned the laser tool on top of my penis/clit and treated a small area.  I could only smell burned hair, the feeling was not strong. My hair is dark and skin white so i can well be treated with laser.

She told me to wait a few days because a few people get some side effects like rash. Let's see how it goes...

Friday, 6 October 2017

Pony play session

Last Friday the session started right at the appointed time at 6pm.  She educated me first in the exactly right way to clean a toilet. We have a few toilets and bathrooms in the house, so She superised the first bathroom, and then made me clean the second one while She watched, and made me clean a few spots again. The rest of the toilets and bathrooms i was made to clean by myself. She made me do a thorough job and follow Her instruction precisely, using certain rags for faucets, toilet bowl, sinks and so on.

Much later, after preparing Her more pesto and doing other chores it was time for my "real" session. she sent me upstairs befre Her, and made me undress everything on the spot. She fixed a collar on me and a long leash.  Soon i understood the theme for today was going to be pony play as She, with her whip handy, told me to march up and down in O/our bedroom.  i had not been part of actual pony play before, even though i had fantasized a lot if that subject.  She also took the long spreader bar, and soon used that as an obstacle i had to jump over.

Next She moved O/our play to the living room, where i could also walk in a circle between kitchen and living room. First She told me to walk, then gallop, and during each round at one time She made me jump over an obstacle, which She gradually raised higher and higher. Quite soon as i understood what She was doing to me, i got a hard-on and precum started flowing, and as i had no underwear i tried to wipe it and prevent it from falling all over the floors, succeeding to some extent.

It became even more difficult and i had to concentrate hard, and She ordered the  half-pass, meaning a diagonal trot, and different variations like half-pass to the left and changing it to the right after each step.  All the while i had to keep my hands at my chest like paws, and it was so hilarious she broke out laughing a few times, saying that She is alowed to laugh but me not.

There was no climax or even genital teasing this time.

Saturday, 23 September 2017

Sessions have their risks

i don't have any pics of yesterday's session. Something happened so She couldn't take any. But i'll tell you all about it.

First W/we had a little bit trouble switching into the session mode. When does the session start? W/we didn't have that figured out precisely so i fidgeted about when it was time for me to surrender myself as a session slave.  As i finally knelt before Her, She slapped my face quite hard. Well now Mistress has given a rule that right at the agreed time i present myself kneeling before Her and verbalizing my status. 

This didn't have anything to do with the problem that i got into later, and a serving session started with me dressed in an white apron and  briefs only. First She made me clean the kitchen thoroughly, giving precise info how to do it to Her liking. First i went through the surfaces, but She didn't approve the result the first, and not the second time. She demanded perfection, and checked carefully not only surfaces but the drawers, microwave and dishwasher too.

Next She had me put some newspapers on the floor, get the copper detergent and bring certain copper dishes W/we have.  She kept me cleaning and polishing the copperware with the exception when She wanted a pesto sandwich, and sent me to prepare and serve it.

As the copper was shining to Her liking, She checked the fridge and noticed it still needs cleaning. i had to remove most of the shelves to get it done, wash, dry and reinstall them.

The time was flying and finally She left me kneeling in the living room as She went upstairs to plan the session part. As She was ready She told me to get there too, remove everything, and stand at the foot of the bed. She had me put on ankle and wrist bracelets and fixed a spreader bar between my ankles.  My wrists were connected behind my back. A leather hood was put on my head.  It has nostril openings but it is loose, so that it works as a rebreather (part of the early i exhale stays in the hood and i inhale it back).

From that on i didn't see what was happening, but She slapped my clit head quite hard making me cry, and soon i felt something was wrapped around the base of my balls and sissy clit, with many loops, and then something dragged them downwards. i tried to follow, bending at the knees, but She forbid that. Later i understood she had attached O/our 2 kg weight to my genitals.

Next electro pads were taped on my sissy clit (base) and behind my balls. i jumped as She turned on the electro quite high.  She kept on changing the program and intensity, and mostly it was pretty intense and kept me vocal. Then She chose a channel and kept it on, moving to the chest. Next i felt Her slapping my tits with a new implement, a spatula or a food turner. W/we had just purchased a standard turner from Ikea and a big barbecue spatula from fleamarket.  This was the large one, i later learned. i had quite a sting, Mistress liked that quite a lot.

She turned the knob but told me that i would face castration if i cummed this time (quite made the point).  Next i felt one of O/our new paddles on my buttocks. Hard blows with a heavy paddle (the one W/we just bought) and electro on my clitty were quite the combination, but suddenly i started to feel ill.  In just 15 seconds i started to feel sick to my stomach and i began to fear i could vomit in the hood.  i told Mistress, and She started unbuckling the collar and getting it off.  It was maybe a matter of seconds or minutes, as i started to sweat all over in cold sweat and had to sit on the foot of the bed.

Maybe it was the restriction on the air that made me suddenly feel ill.  One would assume that one could pass out in the session, but it turned out that feeling sick is what happens to me, and vomiting in a hood might cause suffocation so there are risks.

Obviously the session was ended, and i basicly did not miss much as it was already close to the end anyway, but I'm afraid Mistress now thinks She got too far.  Well maybe breath play is not my piece of cake, who knows. Anyway W/we are both well now and ready for Mistress's session.

W/we watched 50 shades of grey from the Finnish tv just as i types this.  Pretty boring movie though.  Nothing compared to the inventiveness of Mistress's sessions. She always thinks of new postures and combinations of things!

Sunday, 17 September 2017

"Candlelight supper"

Mistress had been angry for my unauthorized orgasm the whole week. She didn't take any chances during my next session Friday night.

This time Mistress ordered me to bring Her paper and pen. She was going to write down all the plusses and minuses during my 3 hour serving time. Both quality and speed were going to be surveyed.

i was made to only remove my pants and roll my sleeves, no costume this time.

First She made me clean up the floor as She had been warming the fireplace with firewood and there was a lot of trash. As i reported to Her She came and inspected my work and made notes, not mentioning what She wrote. Thrilling!

Next was supper, with Her favourite kind of sandwiches. i could eat kneeling by the table. After clearing the table She sent me to prepare fresh pesto for Her, another of Her favourites. Of course this command included cleaning up afterwards. She approved of the pesto but - lo behold - She found a little pesto at the edge of the food processor and i was made to reclean.

She made me prepare Her a little pesto sandwich which i failed as i didn't put any tomato slices on it. While She was preparing to eat it She told me to get a canvas, spread it on the floor, get some tealights and matches.

The result was a long session, while i had to keep completely still while tealights were burning on my tits, thighs, pubic mound and belly. Gradually the tealights melted and started heating and finally burning. My thighs started hurting first, and as also belly candle started hurting a lot Mistress blew the candles. 

Result was some round burn marks, which are still showing.
Session pic

Burn marks next day
Here's a pic that inspired Her for the scene.

Monday, 11 September 2017

Session with an unauthorized cum

Next day was the session for me, and this time She wanted me en femme.  i was made to strip at once and carry the pile of my clothes upstairs. She doesn't like the maid outfit i have. i agree, it doesn't do my looks any good. Not a good purchase. Instead She chose a tight black and white striped soft tricot dress that clang to my curves and showed my ass off prettily (Her comment not mine). A wide tight belt accentuated my waist. She also told me to take my high heeled shoes from the closet although She said i cannot walk with them well enough and i was not told to wear them.

She made me prepare supper first, sandwiches and Her favourite mushrooms with onions and melted cheese. We are groeing herbs in the garden, and as i told Mistress we had ran out of lettuce She made me go in the garden with my tight knee length dress and get some more. Luckily the garden is very secluded.

This time i was made to remove my chair and kneel by the table using my hands to eat, no utensils for the sauce either, that was with mouth from plate. it was a bit messy, i was sent to wash face for more ladylike appearance.

After the meal it was wonderful to nd made to scrub the surfaes really clean. The rock surfaces tend to absorp everything and it took effort to get the kitchen sparkling clean. Mistress is already used to commanding me to do little things for Her like picking up what She accidentally drops, this time it was a few lids to freeze boxes.

There was a lot of work to be done, but i didn't half-run all the time like i use to. Maybe the dress made a bit more mature. As the chores ere done i had to fetch the footbath and give Her feet a long relaxing bath while i sang Her a song She chose from 3 candidates i got to choose. Then a thorough rub, drying and greasing was in order. i was sent to get Her woolen socks and put them on.

As a specialty She ordered me next to get the home barbershop items ready and She proceeded to cut my hair short, but first She tied a strap around my upper torso, just above my elbows. i was in bondage as She cut my hair short, as She wished. i was left to clean everything up, of course.

With the strap in place i was lead to bedroom. "Get on the floor on your back, your head to the footboard."  As i got on the floor, She told me to push my head under the bed. The gap was tight, i had to put my head sideways to get it under the footboard, and under the bed my nose nearly touched the bottom of the bed.


After this point i could not see what She did, but i sensed quite a lot.  She attached straps to my wrists and hauled them up and attached to the top of the middle of the footboard. The straps around my torso restricted my arms even more now.  As She next draw her foot to my crotch i felt very sensitive and nearly giggled as the coarse wool of Her sock found its way around and over my genitals.

Next She raised my legs and strap each ankle to the upper corners of the footboard.  She grabbed the hem of my dress and yanked it down, baring my butt and saying it was now easily at Her disposal. She but something in electric socket, and buzzing started. She applied the Hitachi to different parts of my exposed body, perineum, ass, balls and clit. Later i learned that She took the barbecue tongs and grabbed my clit with the tongs to hold it to the Hitachi. She never used Her hands.

The session was long. If She drew my foreskin back with the tongs, i could have gotten off quickly, but She didn't continue that long. At one time She commanded me to stop moving as i tried to push my clit against the Hitachi.  i was to be completely passive. She went back to  perineum to keep me from cumming.  Finally my hips ached so much that i had to ask Her to release my legs.

i lowered my legs to the floor slowly, as my hips really hurt now. She continued with my legs on the floor, pressing my clit against my stomach and rhythmically squeezing my clit with the tongs and pressing it against the Hitachi, after She noticed i got very excited from that.

She had told from the beginning i could not cum, and i must warn Her if i am nearing the edge. However, as i felt the edge nearing, i was already so excited, it didn't stop me from cumming that She took away the Hitachi and the tongs, in a serious of spurts i cummed on the striped dress.

Now this made Her angrier than i could have imagined. It was no play, She was really pissed. She hauled my legs back up liken they were, and She got something from the chest. She stepped on my balls to cover them and strong blows started to land on my butt. i didn't recognize the tool, and i got afraid as She used it with more force than i was used to, without a warmup, and telling off me for not warning Her and "playing along the rules". i howled as She lashed me, especially after She changed the implement and i recognized the cat whip.

Still angry She switched off the lights and left me in the dark.
Marks were visible until the next day

Mistress's session in a hotel

This weekend the session for Mistress was held before the session for me.  Her session included much of the same elements like before, but i was allowed to lick Her more. She doesn't like the tongie flat on her vulva, or licking Her intensively. She likes the silken touch of the tongue, light caresses along the edge of Her pussy lips and between them. i kept my head horizontal to Her pussy son that my lips aligned with Her pussy lips and i could lightly trace Hers with the tip of my tongue.  W/we were in a hotel, so She didn't have Her outfits She likes to cum in, and after me using the vibrator on Her while licking Her at the same time W/we stopped without Her cumming. She doesn't like to show me Her cumming, that's the other reason.


Sunday, 3 September 2017

Serving and a pup play session

Because i didn't get a release last weekend, i had a nocturnal emission on Tuesday night. i didn't get a punishment as it happened outside our play time, but Mistress remembered that well yesterday when we had the second session.  Again i had no idea what it was going to be. Three hours of service was first.  She gave me frilly boxers to wear this time, otherwise i was to be naked.  To prevent me from dripping precum, i had to fix a cleaning rag again to my foreskin with a tight rubber band .
She gave me all sorts of chores to do, preparing supper was one of them, and she wanted a halloumi croissant. As i had prepared the table, with a pretzel topped with margarine and pueraria mirifica powder (She has ordered me to start taking pueraria mirifica for libido boost and hrt. i had originally ordered a 20 bag set for Her to use for female hrt) for me, She placed my pretzel and drink on the floor and told me to eat with the help of one finger only and a straw! God it was difficult, i had to eat lying down on the floor.
After eating She told me to get a wet towel for Her to wipe Her hands. After that She wiped my face wit it too, as She said it was messy. She told me to bring half a glass of orange juice for Her. i brought
Then it was cleaning the kitchen and doing small chores, but She also made me run to Her car in the garage in my frilly boxers and take some carpets there (i still don't know why). It was already dark, so there was limited visibility to neighbors. At times i just had to kneel up as She didn't give any commands but just read Her newspaper.
Next she told em to read her book out loud for Her, from the mark,  an exercise which took a big part of the 3 hours.  my foreskin started hurting so much that i pleaded i could remove the rag, and as She allowed me, i could not, She had to cut the rubber band with scissors. She made me look at the ceiling with my hands clasped behind my neck as She used the big scissors on me. A lot of precum flowed out into tissue and then the reading continued.
Finally She told me to get her laptop and the memory stick with the idea gallery, and while She planned the session, She sent me out to get firewood and to rummage in the cellar for some party stuff She wanted for the session. Finally She went upstairs to get the stuff She needed and told me to wait.

The session was to be pup play.  She told me to remove the knickers, gave me a ball strap and told me to put it on. Next She put an ornamental chain collar on me and tied a hairy mask on me that She took from the party stuff bag. Next She had me fetch and put on a belt and fixed a hairy tail in it. She is still considering purchasing me an insertable tail. As She had me ready She asked "how's a dog?". i woofed a couple of times and wiggled my tail for Her looking her in the eye. She just said "Why's the dog barking at me?". She had a tennis ball in Her hand, She fixed my attention to it, moved it around a bit and threw it as far as She could over me: 'Fetch, pup!'
i ran on hands and feet to get the ball, grabbed it in my mouth and brought it to Mistress. She guided me to drop the ball on the floor next to Her feet like real dogs would do. Then She would go on like She would be talking to a dog - using a pup-tone - "The puppy would love to fetch again, wouldn't it", and threw it again.
Later She told She had noticed an instant hard-on the moment the fetching started. Unfortunately there was nothing to prevent me dripping streams of precum on the floors. i'll make Her slip some day...
She started faking the direction She threw, making fake throws before the real one, like you would do with a genetic dog. Fetching was surprisingly tiring after 5-6 throws i was very tired, and luckily She let me rest on my side on the floor now for some time, while She used the toilet. As She returned She took the riding crop and started giving blows with it to my balls and sissy clit that were showing in my curled up position. The pain in my balls was severe enough to take  me out of my sweet spot.

Next the training started. A real dog collar was placed round my neck, a chain leash was connected to it. A tug on the leash got me on all fours, by Her left side. She let me smell my licorice candy which She kept in Her hand, and as She started walking, She pulled it away from me, thus indicating me to start walking as well. i walked by Her side on all fours. My unprotected  knees were taking quite the abuse, but i couldn't think of not following Her. She motivated me by letting me sniff the candy at times. She also kept the leash tight, even dragging my leash if i was following too slowly.
i was quite adept at heeling Her, which She praised me for, and pushed the candy in my mouth and told me to eat it, but She was not content with that. She ordered me to start observing Her hands, which turned out quite difficult as Her hands were so much higher than my eyes. While walking i had to keep my chin up and my head tilted towards Her, as the mask (let's face it, it wasn't a dog mask it was a cat mask, what an embarrassment for a dog!) restricted my view.
She stopped, showed me Her palm. i didn't know what to do, so She let me sniff the treat and then moved it on top of my head. As i understood to lower my butt and sit, She was happy and gave me another small treat. i stared now Her hands incessantly and a tap on Her thigh and a tug on my leash told me to get my ass up and start heeling her again.
Next She showed me Her hands fingers up, which looked so much like a "don't follow"-sign that i stayed as She moved to the other side of the room still holding my leash. i was learning my first commands, and because She never used the verbal commands, i was at loss, in the same way a real dog is, when learning what everything means!
As She tapped Her thigh i knew to start crawling to Her again, but She directed me by my leash to circle behind Her while getting on Her left side. i learned that quickly, only a couple of rehearses needed.
i was taken a break from pup play so that i could run and get a small towel for me to kneel upon on all fours. She made me retreat a little so that She could sit on Her easy chair and my balls and ass were within easy reach. Now i felt a few tugs on my ball strap as something was attached to it. Then She emerged with the treat, and She enticed me to move forward so that the ball leash She had tied to my balls became tout and started to draw my balls away. "That's it my little dog, pull on your balls to get to your Owner. Keep it that way."
She went back behind me now and soon i felt that something like a big strap bend my erect sissy clit roughly and coarsely backwards, and She started manipulating it with diverse ways, tapping it, pulling the foreskin back and wanking it, the next moment giving hard blows on it and my balls with the riding crop, making me wince. Again She wanked me furiously for a short time, but not even edging me.
Suddenly i understood She had tied my ball strap to the leash, and new rounds around the apartment started, this time i was being led by my balls. Training continued as well, as stay and sit were again rehearsed, and She was glad that i started to know the hand signals, and rewarded me with a candy, which She placed on my snout. "Stay" She hissed, and i had to stay so still that the candy stayed on top of my snout. I succeeded, so She took it and replaced it on the very snout. Another minute still, and i was allowed to try to hurl it in the air and catch it in my mouth, but to no avail. i could not learn that so after a few trials i was allowed to eat it from the floor.
She taught me that dog training is hard work for the pup, and that if your genitals are ignored for the most of the time, while mental play keeps you excited, even small stimulation like a pull on the ball leash will become an exciting sexual deed.
The evening session ended in a thorough whipping of my balls and sissy clit while being on all fours, leaking on the towel, sissy clit bent backwards again.


Later i looked up dog signals so you get an idea of them, but i am not going to memorize those, but let her train me:  http://www.dog-training-excellence.com/dog-training-hand-signals.html



Thursday, 31 August 2017

Saturday: session for Wife

O/our new system means one sex session per week is directed at Wife's satisfaction.

For the session She wore a tight short dress and undies only.  She directed me to bedroom and guided my motions with exact commands. First W/we kissed and hugged, then She told me how to feel Her thighs ever so lightly, going up to the side of her pussy lips.  She also likes the grabbing sensation at Her hipbones, and squeezing of buttocks, and commanded me accordingly.

She removed Her panties, and i could even touch the outer lips with my fingertips.  She liked the sensations very much and started breathing more heavily. She told me to proceed, and stroke also the crest of Her shaved pussy lightly.

Next i was told to keep my finger straight, and insert it in the pussy, then second and third, and finger fuck Her.  She was all the time standing and i was kneeling behind Her. However, She prefers Her dildo to my penis or fingers, so She told me to fuck Her with Her favourite dildo.  After trying that for some time She took control of the dildo Herself and told me to knead Her breasts while She uses the dildo.  This all had been very erotic both to me and Her, but She before She orgasmed, She threw me out and continued solo to 4 orgasms, which i could hear from the living room.

It was embarrassing to be thrown out of the equation at the crucial moment, but i was so happy She got off 4 times.  W/we have gotten off to a good start.

Tuesday, 29 August 2017

Friday session: a take on electro play on me

At home i perforated one of the paddles and left one still intact.  i got hot waiting for the session and i took off all my clothes except briefs.

The session started with Her ordering me to get my bathrobe. i half-run to get it, i was so anxious. i didn't put it on as She hadn't said so, i just brought it.

She went for the back door and i followed suite. The old session protocol returned to me instantly: if She walks, you follow, unless She says "Stay". She went outside and i had to follow barefooted on the wet grass. She went right down to our beach house. She told me to stay and kneel, went to another room and changed to her swimming suit behind the door. She told me to get a towel and i followed her to the jetty and She went swimming, i stayed on the jetty and as She stopped i gave Her the towel.  She told me to clean the jetty up, and before She headed back to the house She told me to remove my briefs and put them in the pocket of the bathrobe.

As W/we returned inside the chores started in earnest. She told me to remove my bathrobe, so scurried around naked, my cock bobbing about wildly. i half-ran eagerly to fulfill every command.  i was told to prepare light supper for U/us.  i made the table for two, but She put my plate on the chair and told me to eat kneeling on the floor.  After eating and clearing the table hurriedly, followed 20 minutes of kneeling without moving, looking straight ahead, hands at sides, fingertips touching thighs, as She read the newspaper.  Mixed quick moving with motionless moments is the key to a balanced serving session.

Suddenly i noticed i was leaking on the floor, 8 drops on the floor below my leaking penis. i was really turned on.
'Mistress may i speak', i said.
She looked at me puzzled, 'Yes'
'i am leaking on the floor'
'Lick it up and get a rag and wash it'
It was so hot to dive down to the floor and lick my precum, and then half-run to get the rag, wash and take it back. After completing each command i half-ran to Mistress, dropped quickly on my knees with a thud, and said 'Order carried out, Mistress' Then i stayed put until She gave another command. She didn't, so i knelt another stint.
10 minutes later i looked down again and noticed 19 drops in the same place. The same procedure was repeated, but then Mistress took another rag, and tried to tie it to my foreskin with a rubber band. However, when i half-ran to complete the next order, to make fire in the fireplace, it fell off, and i got to replace it myself. i draw forward the foreskin and tightened the rubber band, and got it to stay the rest of the session.
Time went by running and kneeling, and soon it was time for the latter part of the session, 30-60 minutes of session focusing on me.
She went upstairs and i knelt motionlessly until She returned with a bag full of toys. i dind't know what it was. She threw me a towel and told me to put it on the floor and kneel on it, facing Her. She sat on the easy chair and stared at me as i knelt there. Then She stood up and fixed leather ankle and wrist bracelets on me and connected them all. She told me to turn around on my knees, then get on my belly. i had to land on my side first, then rolled over on my belly, legs now up in the air and hands behind my back. i was in a hogtie.
She grabbed my dick from under me so that it pointed towards my knees. Then She told me to spread my knees wide, and i felt her step on my dick with a shoe, She had put on shoes. She trampled my cock and balls as i moaned in ecstasy and some pain.
Next She stuck electro stickers on my penis and on my perineum. i had shaved my crotch already on Wednesday and again in the morning so it was hairless.
She had not used electro much. She knew i had cum with electro once, while i was tied spreadeagled on my back on the bed, but it was years ago. She went through all the programs, causing me to nearly jump in my bonds many times, as strong electro pulse came out of nowhere and startled me. As She used each program, She asked me how each of them felt, and gradually intensified the power. i didn't know what was going on, and usually the power went up so fast i had trouble concentrating to Her questions, and just panted, or howled as electro churned my willy which, like She later said, stayed flaccid all the time. i classified many programs as "not good or bad", but mostly as "intense" or "waves". Some felt like pinpricks, but the most horrible was the audio program when it reacted only to Her talking and laughing. Each time She laughed, She electrocuted my dick with punishment like electro which came on strong and surprising from nowhere and disappeared again.
i recognized the program that once made me cum, when turned on to nearly 75% power, She intensified also that gradually, and made me raise my butt in the air as if it would get more that way, as if to meet the thrusts of a "ghost fucker". Even though She didn't go to those levels this time, i felt also this program so intense like i was fucked and screwed and stabbed with needles. Pulses came like waves of the ocean,  each bigger than the previous one, drowning me in insanely intense electro ion my cock - until the tide turned to ebb and they started to get smaller. It was sweet suffering at its best - and then She changed to another program. That was sensual and wavy as well, and soon i was
panting and feeling the machine would milk me in a few crests.
Then She turned it off, and the session was over - no cum, and still at the moment it is no cum for me.

Monday, 28 August 2017

Preparing for the first session after reboot

W/we were both anxious, if W/we could play again after such a long break. What if W/we fail miserably?

To make it easier for Her to find ideas for sessions W/we decided i make a picture gallery of the honestly hottest session pics i've found in the net. It was also for Her to acquaint better with my sex interests as of today. i wad to be open with Her, and choose my favourite pics regardless of them being femdom, gaydom, lezdom or something else.

i divided them into pup play, pony play, bondage/bindings and other activities. Activities and bondage positions focused in Hitachi play, electro play, cbt and spanking. i might post those pics in my tumblr. slave2mywife.tumblr.com

She said She will assess the feasibility of the pics, but She will not hint in any way about the contents of the sessions which will also include things She wants. It will be a total surprise for me.

For the Mistress-centric session i will receive very little briefing and mostly She will direct me live, She said.

On Friday W/we visited two flea markets, and i was allowed to look for pervertibles. i managed to find a few one euro purchases.

i got two hard wooden paddles, originally meant for some ball game. Also a steel chain as ny neclace and barbecue tongs for bending my penis for wax torture.

Sunday, 27 August 2017

O/our D/s-relationship got rebooted

Bad is turning to good again!  Mistress gave me approval to reboot this blog now, and this time in real time - earlier i posted excerpts from my diary. The things i described had happened a few years before publication.  i try to update you on everything - a lot has happened!

O/our D/s relationship was on a hiatus for a couple of years. It was sad. Eventually She didn't even want to have sex with me for the last year.  Things got so bad she threatened to throw me out, because she's not getting anything from me.  According to a post-nup W/we have made, it would have meant O/our house and everything else save my clothes and toy collection would have gone to Her. i think She deserves O/our property so i would have coped with that and not been even angry about it.

However W/we had a thorough discussion this week, and Mistress announced that she is taking on the D/s again, but on a different basis.  Now W/we are again like just fallen in love! Friday evening is D/s play night, i will do chores for Her starting from when i get home from work, and late in the evening there's a D/s session, anything from half an hour to two hours.  Saturday is dedicated to Her, i will pamper Her and W/we have another sex session which is kind of D/s also, but concentrates on Her pleasure - yesterday was the first one and it was a success, She got 4 orgasms with the dildo! On Friday W/we had the first new D/s night, and i loved it so much. i'll tell the details in another post.  She decided not to make me cum, so i'm still horny as hell, but it suits me either way.

O/our kids have moved out recently so now W/we have the freedom to play naked around the house. If they get home for weekend W/we play on Thursday night. Another major issue is that W/we have relocated back to Helsinki region, Finland.

Yesterday W/we went to Ikea and rearranges our toy chest, which had been a nuisance, because it took so much time to find the tools, not nice in the midst of a session.

Sunday, 23 July 2017

A new story!

Hi all!

Like you have noticed, I no longer have time to keep an online diary like I used to.  However, from time to time I write short stories, and now a new one is out. You find a few of my stories in the right column of the page, but the newest also here: Birthday gurl
And for all worried ones: I am fine!
P.S: Thanks for all the more than 1,5 million page views!